11 Days and Counting

Last night...not the greatest. Adam got online upset, and I really just wanted to be there for him in person, because so much more can be said and done in real life. I wish I had his will power and determination. He deserves a big giant hug, and I really can't wait to give it to him. Hopefully I'll be seeing him again very very very soon.

In response, I was thinking way too damn much before I went to sleep last night, so my stomach was a bit of a mess. But again got it under control and got myself to sleep. Seriously best way to loose weight...anxiety. No joke. I'm starting to swim in these pants again, like I did when I first got them.

Then this morning I get up take a shower, and my cousin wants to start shit with me. What the hell? Where did all of this come from? Is it let's beat up on Sarah day/week? Luckily it's not one of the cousins I'm going to hangout with tonight. I have no beef with Nick, we both have our own lives and we know that, but we still hangout. I sent her a message, back so we'll see what happens, I still haven't gotten a response back.

Will I ever have a New Years Eve that's truely enjoyable? I'm still waiting...tonight will be spent wishing I was with Adam. Even though I'll be surrounded by family, it still just won't be the same...because Adam knows me better than anyone else.

12 More Days Seems Like An Eternity

Yesterday was great on so many levels. Got out of the house and actually go to do something fun without my family there breathing down my neck which is always nice. Overall it was just a pretty damn good day.

This morning I woke up really hyper just wanting to listen to music and have fun. So I did for a few hours...then ate lunch. Now I'm crashing, that good feeling is gone. Just kind of feeling blah, probably going to turn on the tv soon and just lay down. That sounds good to me anyways. I haven't had as much energy lately...partially because I haven't been eating like I should. The only reason I haven't been eating like I should is because I seem to be getting naucious a lot lately. Probably atleast once a day for the past 4 or 5 days atleast. I don't know why...and yeah this has happened before. I'm sure it'll pass just like last time. But I'm losing weight...and my pants are getting looser, I've had to start wearing my belt again haha. Of course right now I'm feeling lazy and since I'm not going anywhere I'm just in shorts.

I need to go back to school....so I can have a life again. I'm telling you being at home...drives me crazy. I have to do something...here all I do is sit...and I don't do anything. Gah.

Drum Roll Please

My first ever Itunes purchase is.... Listen To Your Friends by New Found Glory. Are you suprised? haha.

I pretty much have the ipod all set up and running now, have an IM and the Facebook app, I'm good to go haha. Just need to put more music on it. I probably won't get that much use out of it until I get to school. Even though IMing on it takes longer because it's harder to type just using one finger. But it'll work and it's still pretty cool.

Plus the main event today is me and Adam...4 months. :) By far probably the best 4 months of my life thus far.

Fuck Vista

I've never had so many damn computer issues until I had this stupid ass laptop with Vista on it. Nothing fucking works...ever.

Anybody want to buy an ipod touch from me? Fresh outta the box heh. Worthless to me, doesn't freakin' work on this hunk of junk.

I'm ready to get a really big truck and run it over. For real. I'm getting really tired of this Microsoft bull shit.

Tuesdays Always Seem to be Good.

Today was much better than yesterday. I got to hangout with the boy and anytime I get to hangout with him it's great. The only downside was falling on my ass on the ice. Haha. My arm hurts a bit but I can move it and everything so probably just sprained it or something minor like that.

It's freezing Raining out right now...if that even makes sense. Lovely weather we have here.

Since I've gotten home all I've seem to want to do is listen to music...reminds me of the old days. I like this feeling. My lastfm stats for this week should be way higher than they have been lately.

Anyways I have to pee but can't, cuz my brother broke the toliet AGAIN, and I'm kinda sleepy and can't think of anything else to blog about. So....tis all for me today kidz.

Shouldn't Be Allowed to Have Time Off School...

I hate this time of year. I hate the weather, I hate the holidays. Gah. I haven't truely enjoyed this time of year in what seems like forever. It just really hit me today. All I really want to do is hermitize myself again and lay in bed starely blankly at the TV like I usually do over breaks. Maybe that'll cure my massive headache. Maybe that'll cure only having talked to two people who aren't family since I've been home.

I've come to the conclusion that I'm a very forgetable person, and that I'll probably never be remememberd for anything. Why bother to make connections with people when you're just pushed away and forgotten about? Thanks...it makes the past 18 years of relationship building really worth it.

It's ok...it's nothing new for me. It's been this way for years. But yet it still gets to me. Obviously spending so much time alone doesn't suit me.

Back to my daytime TV shows...

The Weather Outside Is Frightful

So we had an ice storm hit Thursday night. Our power went out Friday morning at 6:30 I know this because it woke me up, battery back ups start going off and hey I wake up. Friday was spent in darkness with falling temperatures, blankets were abundant and we all huddled together in bed to stay warm.

This morning we woke up to the house nearing the upper 40's in temperature. And everyone and their mothers seemed to call my house. Including Adam which was nice because I was worried about him and Marc when they were driving back up from BSU. My brother and I spent the morning on the couch hudddled under blankets with just a radio. We finally decided to go out to lunch. We passed about 25 power trucks from North Carolina parked in the church parking lot planning out what they were going to do. So we stayed out and went to Walmart because hey atleast they had power. By the time we got back home 4:30ish the power was back on...thank God. If it wasn't we were going to go to my Grandpa's house.

Of course temperatures are still below freezing, and are supposed to continue falling. We have a wind chill advisory and they've said on the news to expect more power outages because once the wind picks up it's going to take those branches that have already begun to snap because of the weight of the ice and most likely take some of them down again. We have the heat cranked in my house just incase and the water bed turned up all the way again just incase too. Plus laptops are charged, so we can watch DVDs this time, lol my DVD driver was messed up and wouldn't read dvds but now it's fixed. This laptop is a piece of shit, it can't see my camera anymore and my webcam just randomly fucking goes out. Gah...so frustrating.

So anyways we'll see what happens, hopefully the power won't go out. We did stock up on fresh batteries to today at Walmart and candles too. But like I said I'm really hoping I don't have to use them. 1-2 inches of snow tonight and the rumor is that 6-10 inches Christmas Eve. Should've stayed in Muncie, atleast the weather was warmer, the power wasn't sporadic and more friends there to hangout with. Let's cut semester break short shall we? haha. Hey atleast now that I'm breathing warm air my chest doesn't hurt when I breathe, and it doesn't feel like someone is sitting on me. I hope all of you are having better weather than we are here.

Finally....

The long awaited 24 hour movie contest winner. Enjoy. Feedback is welcome too.

1 Down, Atleast 7 to Go.

Finals, basically already took one and have another one Saturday. I like these inquisit tests...schedule them when you want to take them.

Finishing up my first semester of college, it flew by....WOW.

Home for 3ish weeks and then back again to take on the Spring Semester.

Well, off to my last day of actual classes for the semester.

There's Weather Coming...I Can Feel It.

I woke up this morning with my usual chest pain, it sucks how that's the norm now haha. But I also woke up with my legs killing me. I hurt bad in my hips and my knees right now. This is the first year for this leg pain. Usually it the pain likes to stay in my arms/hands. They're a tiny bit sore but barely noticable against the legs right now. Doesn't really make me want to camp out for the Dark Night this afternoon/tonight. Yeah...camp out for a free movie that comes out on DVD this coming Tuesday. We're in college what do you want? ha.

I'm frustrated, worried, and just kinda want to help but there's nothing I can do. Lame.

The brother is supposed to be having toe surgery today at 2pm. If he doesn't get rescheduled for another day because a more important case takes his slot. He's just enjoying his P.E. free life currently haha.

Basically only 1 week of classes left, then finals. Then home again for 3 weeks. At this point...kinda have mixed feelings about that.

Hmm...Need Gift Ideas for Me?

http://www.newfoundglorystuff.com/

Definately affordable.


Haha. Girls Size Medium, and for guys shirts(regular shirts) I'm a small. FYI.

I'm bored, frustrated with Adobe, and have presentations and projects out the ass to work on. So I probably should get to those. :(

Sleepy-ness.

So I'm home now...got home 5ish yesterday. So far I'm just tired, bored, and frustrated with Adobe products. Tommorrow is Turkey day.

Oh this is a scattered freaking blog entry but we won our 2nd straight CFW contest, which was done in 24 hours. GO US! Once Jon decides it's good enough to be put online I'll be sure to post a link to it on here. I am one of the main people in the video after all.

My parents ordered pizzza from Chicago but it hasn't gotten here yet....they probably won't get it until Monday if it doesnt' come today lame I know. But what can ya do?

Oh and it's cooooolllld in my house. I miss my nice warm dorm room.

Early Morning Wake Up Call

Woke up this morning at 4:30 AM to the fire alarm going off. I threw on a jacket I had sitting on my chair, my hat and gloves, flip flops, grabbed my fleece blanket and headed out the door. As soon as we got downstairs and outside we were directed to the Basketball Arena. We were there..ohhh almost 4 hours. 1900 people live in my dorm complex. So kids were lying all over, the Red Cross was called in, and they were dishing out whatever food they could find.

We were allowed back into to our building around 8:15, I got dressed, and went to my classes. Came back for lunch, stayed awake....went to my class at 2, and then crashed for about an hour and a half, before getting up again...and here it is 10:30ish and I'm still up. Oh yeah did I mention that I didn't get to sleep till like 1 AM. Lovely.

Tired, gonna go shower, and catch some z's. Just thought I'd let you in...oh there's more details but just google it...I'm feeling lazy.

Grr...

Snow = Lame.

Freezing My Butt Off = Really Lame.

Winter in General = Super Lame.

Hey Look it's 2006 All Over Again.....

You think you've made progress...when in all reality, nothing has changed. It's frustrating.

Sorry. I'm terrible. Way to back pedal like a million times Sarah. You Fail. Way to push people away again.


Whoo for being oh so positive today ha!

Cold weather fucking sucks. Holidays Suck. Bring Me Some Sunshine.

Sometimes...I don't know why I even try to hope.

Some Things Never Do Change...

Unfortunately.

I don't want to go home. Ever.

School is my home now. I don't want to leave. But unfortunately school doesn't last forever.

Let me move in with you?

I can't do this all again.

Hey, It's Practically Mid-November....

You know what that means? I can safely not skip over all the christmas music on my computer without being made fun of. Ok well maybe people will make fun of me still this early...but screw them.

Sorry I just realized this as a song from Relient K's Christmas album came on.

Another Tuesday Down.

I was thinking today about how we became "us". Lying on the floor in my dorm room. You looked over at me, smiled your big smile, and poked me in the ribs playfully; causing me to giggle.

I love how we still have that fun and playfullness but have added a whole new dimension to us. Currently, it makes me smile, smile a lot. I like smiling.

But also lately I've been missing home. Just the whole lying in my own bed, with non-flourescent lighting, and writing page after page of stuff. I miss that. Now...I barely think about the story to fall asleep. I'm just tired...so I sleep most of the time really easily. But I'm kind of actually looking forward to going home...even if it is for like 4 days...I just want to relax in my own room, under my covers, in my non-flourescent lit room...and....vegitate...and write...and read...and yeah! 2 weeks from today I'll be home at this time. CRAZY!

Alright well...back to Ace of Cakes, and chatting it up with some people online.

More Bi-Polar Weather

Have I mentioned I hate Indiana weather? Ah well I do, it was in the 70's early this week and now it's freezing. Low tonight of 25. Great.

My body hates this weather. I woke up this morning ohhh 6 ish my legs aching, my arms aching...my chest aching. Everything just aching. I'm sitting under my blankets now because it cuts down on the pain.

Yeah...Sarah and cold weather do not mix well at all. I'm ready for summer again.

But aside from that we've been working on a 72 hour film contest this weekend. It's due tommorrow so...we'll see ha. Alright well I just wanted to complain about the weather a bit...back to studying for my psych test tommorrow.

Pretty Excited for This Too.

A Time For Change

Obama is the projected winner for President. Sweet. I voted for him. Had a good time in the Fort today as well. Stuff went down....mostly good stuff.

It was really weird going back there today though, didn't feel like home, mostly because I didn't go home. I did go to my grandpa's house for a while though. Adam and I were bored.

Oh and it's pretty much out to our families that we're officially going out now...only took a little over two months haha. Ah well tommorrow we're possibly going to play a huge game of Capture the Flag...it shall be funness.

Right now I'm just tired...and ready to crash, everybody is election crazy or should I say Obama crazy, at the moment though. haha.

Hi, I'm Alive Still....

So this past week was pretty awesome if I do say so myself. I could go into detail but I'm feeling pretty lazy. Which is why there has been a lack of blogs. Sorry about that. I'm sure I'll blog when I'm bored at home over Thanksgiving in a couple of weeks. Until then.....studying and everything else must go on.

Going to the Fort Tuesday for the first time since I've left in August...just going to vote though and heading back down. It'll still be weird going back there.

Alright...tired...probably gonna sleep soon.

This Reminds Me of Fall

I was walking to class yesterday morning, and a Something Corporate song from their album North came on. It instantly took me back to when I first got this album (which was at Target by the way), I remember it was fall and I listened to it on my huge ass discman while I raked leaves. Raking leaves never seemed to end at my house, you'd rake one day and the next day, the yard would be covered again.

Of course I have memories of listening to a lot of SoCo when I was younger, late summer nights....long car rides....they were often the last thing I heard before falling asleep. That kind of makes me miss my stero at home and it's green glow, even though I'd only really used it for TV most recently ha. When I go home in a monthish, I'm definately going to bust out my SoCo CDs and relax in bed reminiscing.

"Luckie Street"

Let's count the days until winter comes our way
We're all tired and ready to breathe
And there's a rumor that

There's a bitter cold chill in the air.
It's haunting every breath we take.
The hint of alcohol and nicotine it keeps us warm inside.
So all your fashion sense aware, the sweaters unfold themselves.
We are all alone, but we're better off by ourselves.

It's time to roll the windows down and
Feel the cold air all around.
We are heading out of town and
Not a thing can stop us now.
Get carried away.

Joe's Not My Plumber

So I'm up this late on a Thursday night because NO CLASSES TOMMORROW! That's pretty nice...yes. My building is extremely empty not many of us have opted to stay here for the long weekend. But the boy and his roomie have so it'll be fun. We picked up some DVDs to watch this weekend. Watched Duplex tonight and Blues Brothers, Little Miss Sunshine and The Illusionist are in line to watch too.

That coupled with a minor tummy ache and talking to Tom are keeping me up right now but my stomach is calming and I'll probably go to bed in a little bit. Nothing is planned for tommorrow...yay...just sleeping in and relaxing it sounds sooooo nice.

Jack's Mannequin at 1AM is always amazing too, especially at a now mostly empty BSU. So quiet...even more so than Labor Day Weekend. I like it though, it's peaceful.

Alright well I'm off to bed.

Let the Countdown Begin

Not Without A Fight.

February 09'.

Super Excited.

Fridays are Always Interesting

So I was in T-Com this morning and we literally spent half the class talking about the economy. Dr. Mike was concerned about how we felt about it and how were dealing with the whole situation. He brought up the idea of feeling "fresh post 9/11 confusion/fear". Which was an interesting way to put it, or atleast I thought so. A girl asked what we could do, and he simply said; "Pray, Vote in November, Go outside enjoy the weather, and do other things to occupy your mind/time." He's right though it is scary and there's nothing much that I as a freshmen in college can do but ride it out and hope for the best. That an avoid my now daily CNN.com views multiple times a day haha, seriously seeing those Wall Street people looking like they're going to be ill... is not comforting.

Anyways, the boy went home for the weekend so I'm going to study. Uh...yay? Well I attempted to do so and was for a good hour, and was in the 6th floor lounge when the fire alarm went off. So our whole building had to evacuate to the parking lot. Then when they finally let us in, I went to the 6th floor to retrive my stuff and I was just coming onto the 7th floor when the alarm went off again. Joy. But it stopped before we made it out of the building again so we didn't fully evacuate and just went back to our rooms. Now I'm just hanging out probably going to continue to work on my website before we go eat.

Oh the excitement of college.

"Cupid Trailer"

First ever project completed at BSU. We're all pretty proud of it. It was fun, I hope you all enjoy it as much as we do.

...Won't You Sing Me to Sleep

So far...the day has been good. Aside from being extremely tired. I'm definately come back here after astro to crash. I can't go on this tired. So...basically I have to withstand a couple more hours of wakefulness before I get to sleep...yay!

I'm glad I don't have any meetings or anything tonight because the Pain sprung an essay on us that is due Wednesday, so when I do wake up I need to work on that. Crap I lied...I have Cardnial Filmworks at Seven...but after that...nothing.

I think everything should be ok now though. Talking is always good. But at this moment...sleeping is always good too. I'm tempted to lay down right now but I'm afraid that if I do I'll fall asleep and will miss my class. Whoo Go perfect attendance lol.

I'm too tired to think of anything else to say.

I'm Just So Tired...

All I want to do today is hangout here...do some homework and just have a relaxing day free of him. Because yeah we went to bed 3ish this morning, my stomach decides to go all naucious on me....freaking sucks. I know why....damn anxiety. I haven't had one that bad in a long time. Of course it's been building up little by little all week. Luckily, I know to deal with them now and was able to get myself asleep by 4ish.

I just feel really drained today though, physically and mentally. I think I'll go attempt to eat with everyone then probably come back here to sleep or do homework for awhile before attempting to sleep again.

I'm not running this time...I can do this.

Tired of All of This Shit.

Boys...make my stomach churn. I've been from one extreme to another today and I hate it. I've gone from wanting to cry several times today to wanting punch/strangle someone today. That doesn't do a stomach good...let me tell you.

No need to re-hash again, if you really must know...you know how to get ahold of me. But hugs from Matt, Andrea, and laughing about really funny stuff in Derek's room tonight has helped calm me down quite a lot.

God I really do hope this upcoming week is extremely better and is drama free.

It's funny though I thought tonight would turn out differently...especially after a conversation had last night. But definately not, it sucked most of the time.

I should've just stayed single...life is a hell of a lot easier. But good friends are always good to have around too. So thanks to all of you guys for putting up with my temporary rage bursts haha.

Girls...don't let a guy use you for his warm body.

I'm Done.

Atleast It's Friday.....

It started feeling like October
I got stranded on the road
You know where to find me
Anytime you want me Annie,
Annie, use your telescope

So they made my life into a movie
As if I could forget those years
But I know where the time's gone
Just how well my mind's been wandering
Annie, use your telescope


On a side note, I'm drinking fuze blueberry rasberry flavored and it tastes kinda funny but I didn't really feel like eating so I just chose to drink this whopping 15 calorie drink ha. Oh and Jack's Mannequin lyrics, Annie Use Your Telescope but I'd have to say The Resolution probably is the most relatable but for something entirely different.

I'm tired, I really just want to sleep but I have to take a spanish test, I'll probably come back from Astro do my Agenda for C.A.B. send it to Sarah and crash for awhile and then see how I feel....if I'm still wiped I'll probably skip out on the film festival and just relax tonight, after the past two weeks that's all I really want to do.

Let's Get Fall Started....

So, I'm out. It feels good. I had some bad anxiety leading up to it but now that it's been done...I feel....a whole lot better. Yes.

I'm used to be independent anyways, so I feel more like myself. Plus Josherz wants to come down and hang...so that should be fun if and when it happens. Plus life here is still fun, I'm not letting this bring me down at all. I'm good...more than good, a weight is off my shoulders.

Tonight, pizza party...studying. Tommorrow classes, film festival in downtown Muncie...should be cool. Oh and more working on our trailer of course.

Ok well, since I'm feeling pretty damn good right now, I'm gonna hangout with people and do some homework.

Vauger than Vauge Entry...Can You Put the Pieces Together?

Gotta Get Out.
It's Empty.
It Seems Like a Waste of Time.
There's Gotta Be So Much More....
Gotta Get Priorities Straight.
Ackwardness My Ensue.

But Fuck....It Just Doesn't Feel Right.

Only One Thing Has....

Let's just go back...

Do It All Over....

Forget the Present....Let's Live in the Past for Once.

Have Some Fun Again....

Long Days, Long Nights, Good Music, Good Conversation, Making Everything Worth It.

This is the End. But It's Also Another Beginning Yet Again.

1st Day of Shooting

We started shooting our trailer for Cardinal Filmworks today. Spent over 5 hours total in pre-production and production just today. Starting at like 3 AM haha. I was pretty much a go-get shit and hold shit person, oh and clean up person. But it was definately a group collabrative effort.

We had Carters twice this weekend though and it was freakin' amazing. Totally worth the more than hour waits both Friday and Saturday Night. Definately comparable to Coney Island downtown.

This week is going to be hectic, so many meetings to go to, more to film and edit, on top of classes and homework. Definately probably have to pull some late nights just to get everything done. I have 2 weeks to get my website for T-Com done and a psych paper done ha! FUN!

Alright well people are still here at 10:30...so I'm gonna hang with them.

Where Have All The Good Times Gone?

So I'm not going to talk about the shitty aspects of the week, I'm going to focus on the good parts.

Last night was this music on Mckinnely thing and I got an email with the schedule of the performers and noticed that one of the RA's who we're friends with was playing as was Ryan from the Ryan Daniels band from back in the day, I'm talking Freshmen year in high school back in the day. I went in wanting to see Ryan play for sure just because I thought it was cool that I started out high school seeing him play and now I'm starting college off that way too. We watched him for a few songs than went and caught Derek's set. Amazing. I love that feeling of seeing live music.

One of the greatest feelings in the world to me is just sitting there and listening and enjoying. We sat there on the grass as the sun was setting, with the sounds of their voices and acoustic guitar filling my ears. Love it.

Then tonight Cameron and I went to see Violet. I had to go for my English class, and thought it was going to suck but honestly it's probably the best muiscal I've ever seen performed. I really liked it. Again it was just this nice tingly feeling that overcame my whole body as I felt the music.

Music Recs: http://www.myspace.com/likescience
Way to Normal by Ben Folds and The Glass Passenger by Jack's Mannequin come out this coming Tuesday September 30th, both are sure to be amazing, so check them both out!

Oh yeah my mom and aunt are coming tommorrow....uhh...yay?

Half-Way Through The Week

Not that I feel good about that, I just want this week to be over so badly. I want this stupid astro test to be over. I just want to plug myself in and work on my website for T-Com. I want to lay in bed all day and not have to do anything.

I don't want nightmares about horrible things happening anymore. Last night I had another dream like I had that one time where gas cost like $6 bucks and people went nuts and raided everything. Except this time I was at a grocery store and all of a sudden a huge warning siren goes off and the cut to a news report of like this huge ass war like I'm talking World War scale. So people freak and grab a whole bunch of stuff. I just happen to be with Adam and I look over at him and just cry...and he asks me what's wrong and I tell him...that he'll probably get drafted or some thing like that. And I dunno It was just weird I remember I bought like a case of popcorn or something because I was convinced we could survive off of that if we ran out of food.

I dunno weird dreams once again. Then I remember waking up at 5:30 and going oh only 2 more hours to sleep and it takes your body an hour and a half to get asleep really well. Haha cause I learnt that in Psych yesterday.

Alright well I'm off to see Dr. Mike in T-Com....hey atleast it's another payne free day!

Hi I'm in Ohio...

We went to White Castle at 1ish AM.

Adam called to tell me he went to my house to get my DDR mat and game for me. :)

Life is Good. College is Great. I believe it when they say these are the best years of our lives.

That's pretty much all I have to say right now.

Late Night Blogging

So it's two in the morning and I'm sitting in my dorm room...everybody else is watching some movie that's dubbed with subs lol so I'm chatting with Marc to pass the time. We'll probably head to bed 4ish as usual to make it up in time for our 1 PM editing workshop. After that we're heading to Columbus until sometime Sunday.

This week has been pretty good though. A lot of stuff happened but it seemed like it went by super fast. Which isn't a bad thing at all. I have a feeling next week will be the same way especially with it being homecoming week.

Adam and Marc went back to Fort Wayne today for the weekend. Adam is supposed to be stopping at my house to bring my DDR mat. haha. We have a countdown on our whiteboard for a DDR fiesta.

Oh CAB elections have been going on this week, so I'll find out by next week if I got president or not. I'm like the only one who remotely campaigned so we shall see. Just another thing to add to my increasingly busy weekly schedule.

My Mom and aunt may be stopping by next Friday to see me on their way home from Turkey Run...again nothing is set in stone. Maybe they'll bring me White Castle, that'd be nice.

Hey I haven't said any extremely stupid things for blogging at 2 AM....goooo me.

Picture This...

A picture from Late Night, minus Kenny. Too bad we didn't get pics of the Karaoke that would've been great.

Today I'm feeling kinda guilty about some things that were said between me and the boy...seriously makes me feel bad. I wish that conversation never would've happened. Mucho tension today at lunch. So yeah. Sucks. We'll see how things play out.

Effect & Cause

So, I was reading my English assignment a little while ago and one thing about it has stuck out in my mind; one of the essays we had to read was talking about how kids in my generation tend to use their hobbies/intrests, favorite tv shows, favorite music to cover up whatever they don't want to think about.

Guilty as charged. I tend to do that...ALL THE TIME. Like right now...listening to music is definately helping me keep my mind off of a whole slew of things that I'm hoping will just leave my mind by the time morning hits.

Today, I've thought about so many things it's not even funny. I'm talking things that aren't even related to classes or schoolwork or...any of that. Most of the thoughts were about the past....the present...and yes even the future. I even thought about Mr. Crowley today. As much as I hate to admit it...that man has made a postive impression on me and I'll probably never forget him. I just remember what I heard on three seperate occassions over the three semesters I had him. The 3 Steps to Success: Graduate High School, Don't have a Kid until you're married, Don't get Married until you're well out of college. And dammit...I've already completed the first step...and I don't plan on deviating from the other two either.

Seeing a baby and how much work that has to be put into raising one is the best birth control in the world. No thanks...pass. I'll just let other people have the babies.

Anyway getting away from babies, I don't know...today my head was like the weather outside...a whirl wind of all kinds of things. I questioned things, I decided some things, I considered things, I remembered things, and the day isn't technically over yet...I really don't think the things I thought about should be blogged...because well maybe someday I'll let you in...but for now...definately not.

On a completely different note, Late Night Karaoke last night was hilarious...can I just say 4 guys up there singing "Sarah's Mom Has Got It Going On...." nuff' said. This week is going to be insanely busy and hectic. So I really don't know when I'll get another chance to blog.

It's Wednesday Already?

Despite feeling kinda shitty the past two days they've been fun. I'm losing my voice...uhh yay? I went to Walmart today to stock up on Tissues and Cough Drops...got the economy pack.


Free Food tonight so we spent our food money at Noyer and I got this amazing chocolate cake..it's in the fridge just waiting to be devoured. I'm not gonna feel guilty about eating it though cause we worked out tonight are going to try to do that more often. Although too much coughing resulted for me so I didn't do all that much.

Tommorrow I'll probably just study and then go to class and Cru...Friday will probably be a long one yet again. We're going to see The new Hulk Movie for free of course. Then probably back here to watch more movies.

My parents are coming down probably next weekend, I haven't heard back from them yet so we'll see what happens. Aside from this cold thing everything down here is pretty great, my grades are good and I'm having fun. So far college is 100x better than high school. Definately go away to school if you get the opportunity it's amazing.

Casualities of the Weekend.

So this weekend was pretty great. Friday night we went and saw Made of Honor at Pruis. Then came back here and watched Planes, Trains, and Automobiles. Then after that There's Something About Mary...needless to say we were up until 4ish in the morning.

Saturday we all got up in time for lunch then decided to go see what was playing at the local movie theater, it was all blah so we headed to Target where I got two longsleeve shirts so I can layer. Then we went to the Mall ended up going into Charlotte Rousse or however you spell it...got a whole outfit for like 12 bucks. Shoes and everything. We then discussed going to Texas Roadhouse got there and it was packed....so we went to the Village for Pita Pit. Which was pretty much amazing. I want to try a Hummus one sometime. Oh did I mention I dropped my lanyard in the Movie Theater parking lot...and the back popped off my monkey watch.

We came back to our dorm, hungout until late night....it was all good until I tripped over Adam's foot and jacked up my toe. :( So we came back and I iced it...everyone then came back up here to watch Heavyweights with us...we had 7 people in our room last night until like 3 AM lol.

Got up this morning 10:30 ish and did laundry. Went got food...we went to Wally World. Came back to write my English paper. We went to America's Buffet tonight, it was alright....I like The Retreat at Noyer better, more dessert choices. Then we went down to the guys' room to watch Shaun of the Dead. Pretty good movie. Afterwards we went upstairs and I'd forgotten my folder downstairs and as I'm leaving I realize that the clock face on my monkey watch is completely gone. So now I'm watchless. :( So hopefully I'll get some kind of replacement soon...we were at Wally World today and they didn't have any. I also checked their website...no luck.

So yeah...bummer. I need to go study for my Psych test I'm taking tommorrow tis all for now. Yeah I realize this was probably boring to read....oh well.

Political Correctness?

So as of last night, I'm running for President of C.A.B. yes. Vote for me. haha.

Possibly going to the football game tonight and possibly having a movie night. We haevn't decided yet. But when we do, do movie night we're getting Greeks.....stoked about that.

Alright well I'm gonna leave for my T-com class so...later kidz. Just thought I'd let you know about my presidental running haha.

Thursday Recap.

So since I've last posted it's been eventful but I have to leave for class fairly soon so this is going to be a bullet point recap.

-Went to Indy this past weekend for a PS3 haha we had nothing better to do.
-Classes have seem kinda slow but the week has been flying by at the same time.
-Doing fairly well in all of my classes
-My parents almost drove down here Tuesday night...gah.
-Went to the Mall yesterday got 3 BSU shirts...hey Buy 1 Get 2 free...not a bad deal
-Buffets on campus are amazing.....
-Celebrated Jen's Birthday
-Movie Night this Weekend.
-Been hanging with the boys a lot
-Going to the football game vs. Navy if we all don't change our minds again...definately eating before we go this time haha.
-My t-com prof is amazing...nuff' said.
-T-com Super Party and Cru tonight...

That's about it.....I think.

Down at the Base.

Hi! Thank God for laptops and wifi. I'm sitting here hanging out with Adam and Marc down in their room. Adam is playing PS2 and Marc is online on Adam's laptop. Needless to say BSU is pretty dead right now, with a lot of people heading home for the long weekend. So there's not much to do. So we've been hanging out all day. We have to go eat before 7:30 though because that's when everything closes ha. Great huh? Plus Sunday and this Monday the buses aren't running haha, so tommorrow I'll probably do a lot of homework, well not really a lot just mostly reading and studying a bit, and catch up more on my Hulu vids.

Gossip Girl Monday! haha yes! I've looked it up and we have two CW's on our cable here in Muncie. Pretty stoked about that. Then Tuesday it's back to classes...uh yay...heh.

Yeah I'm pretty freakin' bored right now if you couldn't tell. This floor is alive and kicking I'll give you that, all these guys are playing video games quite loudly...or watching sports and cheering quite loudly. Our floor upstairs is dead...I've barely seen anyone up there.

We went and saw Iron Man last night for free...good movie. Sitting on the ground can be annoying though. Tonight we'll probably go to Late Night just to have something to do. Ok well I'm going to play a game or something.

Give Me Just One Inch I Swear That's All I Need....

I'm tired...and sore...as in my right arm has been bothering me...yay...heh. It's too early in the year for this shit to be acting up. Gah...I had to break out the Icy Hot last night. I might come back from class and go eat then take some asprin. Yeah it's that annoying.

I went to this Cru thing the other night with my roommate and Marc, I liked it for the most part it just got me thinking about things I hadn't thought about since I'd gotten here. Which have been kind of eating at me at random moments throughout the day.

I needed my Josherz talk last night even it was just about school and such...ha if you read this...you're more of a brother than anything. So don't get the wrong idea here. Luckily he was online last night and we talked. I also sent Jake a message too, to see how he and Matt and everybody else from our amazing Lunch/Math group is doing.

Only 4 classes today seperate me from a nice 3 day weekend. I'm pretty happy about that, hopefully I'll be able to catch up on some much needed sleep.

Cardboard Robot Video Numero Uno.

Here's the first of many videos from our Robot Wars the other night. My roommate has a better one and this guy on one of the lower floors is editing a whole lot of footage he shot as well...good times.

Quick Post Before Class

So I have class at 9 and I'm up and ready to go even had breakfast....whoo go me.

Anyways this past weekend and start of the week have been pretty fun. Even though classes have started and homework was assigned the first day blah. But other than that, we've still managed to cram a whole lotta fun in.

Yesterday we ventured to Walmart on the MITs. We took our "Green" bags, inside joke...sorry. Anyways as we were coming back we see Derek, Jon, and a slew of other guys building robots out of boxes. He asks us to join so we go upstairs put our stuff away, and grab a couple of boxes out of our closet. Orginally we were just down there to help Jon aka "The Hotness" out. But Dan talked me into building one haha so I was "The Galaxy Destroyer". At 8 we all treked down to the Atrium infront of the fountain and had a "Battle Royale" as Derek called it. It lasted like three minutes and we heard sirens, so Derek; who was the mastermind behind all of this, yelled, "Run! It's the cops!" So we all pick up fallen pieces of cardboard and start quickly walking back to our dorm. After some minor scrapes and bruises it was a good time. We missed all the dinner places again though so we just had sandwhiches, the night before we had a PBJ party up in our room.

The only downside to college is lack of sleep...I'm seriously considering coming back from my Astro class this afternoon and taking an hour nap or something like that. I mean I'm not going to fall over or anything but a nap sure sounds good. Ah well I have to finish getting ready before class....oh yeah Andrea is going home this weekend to get her cord and then we'll have pics of the Robot Battles haha.

Yawning is Contagious.

My Mom sent me an email today, containing this;

This was my room, I've been gone like two days and my brother has already taken over. Whaaaa!! Well all I have to say is he can't watch TV or play video games because I took the powerstrip that stuff was connected to out and brought it to school with me. He can't get on my computer because I put a password on it...and he best not mess with my CDs.

Anyways the past couple of days have been fun here at school. I've met some more awesome people. I've seen a ton of people from the Fort too. We went out a lot today, I even got sun burnt a little bit. I definately walked the from the castle to our dorm complex in 15 minutes so I'm pretty sure I'll be fine getting to my classes as long as I get to the correct rooms.

Tonight we went and saw a Hypnotist, it was super funny and we had a lot of fun. Tommorrow there's a whole bunch of stuff going on too. Picnics, games, activity fair, and late night. So won't be online much at all this weekend except for maybe awhile in the morning. Because Sunday we have a lot of mandatory freshmen stuff to do. I'm definately going to The Price is Right Sunday night though...and I'm definately getting into it even if I don't make it onstage haha.

Oh, did I mention I got called up onstage during our college road trip assembly thing and won a free flash drive? Hey it's better than nothing! The only bad part is that at this time of night the internet is super slow because so many people are on. I'm luck if I have enough juice to IM half the time...I'm impatient when comes to waiting for pages to load...I'm used to my broadband at home....not sharing wi-fi with a bunch of people.

Alright well....have fun this weekend everybody!

I'm Officially Moved In.

Well, I'm here in my dorm roomie with my amazing roomie, we're just killing some time before we head downstairs to play icebreakers with some other people.

I'm tired, it's been a long hot day. I could probably definately fall asleep right now, especially considering pretty much all I've eaten today is a piece of coffee cake and a sandwhich oh and Powerade. :)

But the important things are working like cable TV and internet! Oh and Krystel is moving in across the hall from me, this year is probably going to be crazy fun!

I'm just really glad I'm out of the Fort, no offense to you Ivy-Techers or IPFWers but I don't think I could handle the Fort for another school year. Anyways...nothing much else to say aside from I'M HERE!!!!! :)

Today Is The Day.

I'm up early, couldn't sleep. Waiting for the Dad to take the brother to school so I can get in the shower. The brother will be in 7th grade and he doesn't really want to go back haha.

Me, I'm showering and then probably coming to shut this computer off for a long time. We'll load up the car and then head South. Should be in Muncie by 1ish, although my Dad is planning on taking back roads the whole way down so it'll probably take wayyy longer than an hour to get down there eck.

Ah well I'm still excited.

This is my last post from the Fort for awhile...next time I post, I'll be at BSU officially. Wish me luck kids!

And They Let Me Into College?

I feel like a complete idiot right now. After having this blog for two years now, I've just now figured out how to properly use titles haha. I knew it was possible but I was completely lost as how to use them. Today I finally thought, "Hmm...maybe I should google it...", 2 seconds later I found my answer and now I feel like an idiot haha.

So I've gone through all my posts up through July 2008 and titled them the right way. I don't have the time or energy to go back through 350 posts and title them correctly. I'll just promise to title them correctly from now on for those of you who subscribe by feed, you can judge me by my titles now ahaha.

Aside from this minor revelation, I spent the day doing my laundry so I could finish packing. All that's left to do is dust off the TV and find the remote, and pack a few more pairs of socks or something lame like that. And then stow away some of my things in my room so the brother and the parents don't get at them. Like the story....oh how I'm going to miss that. That will be the reason I'll want to come home for break haha. But other than that I think I'm ready. Even though I'm completely worn out right now just from packing and what not.

I just thought I'd update real quick to show that I'm not a complete idiot blogger on here anymore.

Goonies Never Say Die

As I was waiting for my turn in the bathroom this morning, I was doing my usual checking the email and facebook ect. While I was reading everybody's facebook status updates a quote from The Goonies ran through my head;

"Don't you realize? The next time you see sky, it'll be over another town. The next time you take a test, it'll be in some other school. Our parents, they want the best stuff for us.But right now,they got to do what's right for them. Because it's their time. Their time! Up there! Down here, it's our time. It's our time down here. That's all over the second we ride up Troy's bucket."

Why'd this quote pop into my head? Think about it, many of my friends and myself included are leaving our hometowns for the very first time in our lives to go to school. Our parents know it's the right thing for us to go to school....but some of us are understandably nervous and are having second thoughts about this whole process. We could just give up and say screw it Mom, sign me up for Ivy Tech this fall or whatever, but if we do that we essentially give up "our time" Our time to live among our peers without nearly as much supervision from our parents. Our chance to have these experiences...and to thrive. But that also comes with the reality that if you screw up....it's all over.

I know that we're all nervous to some extent, just remember that you're not alone and practically everybody is in the same boat as you. Once we get over this first hurdle of moving in and starting classes, I'm sure we'll all be fine. And if we're not...come personally beat me up or something haha. Goonies Never Say Die...and we should never give up.

I Guess Everybody and Everythinng Are Changing

So new blogger dashboard layout, whoa. Plus new facebook layout that I'm not really into all that much, the only aspect that facebook added that I like is the IM....niftyness. Except Tom has informed me that when I do my tabbed multi-tasking browsing and switch tabs it says I've logged off....but aside from that pretty nifty. Plus I hear APnet is also going to be revamped in the near future. I suppose change and new innovative features and new looks are always a good thing.

I behaved today when we went to Kohls, I saw some sweaters I wanted, luckily I didn't have any money on me...haha I thought about asking my mom to pay for them out of some of my grad money but I restrained myself. Even when I saw the I Love Chuck Bass shirt, I figured it'd make me look very...umm...middle schooly. haha. Now if it was an I Love Dan Humphrey shirt I would've bought it...because on the show he's wayyy better looking in my opinion than Chuck. "Ugh, Damn that Mother Chucker..." haha previews....I seriously better be able to find somewhere online to watch GG when it comes on in a couple of weeks.

I'm trying to save my money for unforseen expenses that I can't purchase at Walmart, my mom is getting me a giftcard that she can reload from home...haha. Like you know....entertainment...and....I dunno software, or...clothes when I shrink them all in the wash because most of my clothes haven't been dried in a dryer in ages. Oh and Kohls had these awesome button down quarter length/long sleeve umm...I want to say flannel but that's not what they're made out of...but you know what I mean? Yeah...I need a job, but I've been saying that for the past four years...I've stuck to focusing on being a student, which I think I should continue to do atleast through this first semester.

Just downloaded a Ben Kweller album after hearing a song by him on my lastfm reccomendations radio...good stuff. I'm also trying to find I'm Like A Virgin Losing a Child by Manchester Orchestra, anybody want to help me out? This torrent is getting me nowhere...no seeders, and albumhunt doesn't have it. I'm loading up on music, because the next chance I'll get to download will probably be Thanksgiving break. Maybe....yikes I'm taking this powerstrip with me....oh man...this is not good. Ah, I just realized that. Shoot. I really don't want to use Ruckus....maybe I'll breakdown and buy itunes cards...heh. I really don't want to take the chance of getting caught using the sites I use to download and getting expelled over something like that. My parents would kill me...probably literally.

Alright well I've wasted entirely too much time on the computer yet again, so tis all for me tonight.

I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning

I couldn't sleep, I spent most of the night tossing and turning. I don't know why, I wasn't really stressing about anything, probably because I've been extremely lazy this week, today I'll have to get out and do something to burn off some energy, that is if it doesn't rain. That coupled with the fact that I'm being eaten alive by misquitoes...they seem to favor the right side of my body over the left haha, I have 6 bites on my right shoulder alone and lucky me has two on the right side of my face, luckily one is hidden by my bangs...but the other isn't grr.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my time this morning, I haven't decided yet, and ER doesn't come on until 10 if I decide to watch that. I did play around with my hair a bit this morning, it's still long enough to pull back for my bad hair days! Which I was definately having one today. Anyways I suppose I should work on those 15 or so questions about Field Notes From a Catastrophe...

So it still hasn't fully sunk in that I'm leaving in less than a week now. I'm nervous about my classes, I've never been the best note taker because I've never had to be. Plus me studying...yeah I'm definately going to have to force myself to study, of course I won't have the story with me to work on, so that'll help. Just thousands of other kids my age wanting to do stuff, ha. But overall you could say I'm pretty excited, but is it wrong of being scared about fitting in? I have this fear that people will instantly judge me...and be like screw you or something, I'm sure that's a kind of stupid fear to have since most of the people there are looking to make new friends, but still....the highly self-concious part of me is going....nobody will like you. I guess we'll just have to wait to see what happens.

A Parting Gift....

12 Songs to get you through your trip to college or to start your new school year. In no particular order;

1.Miss California by Jack's Mannequin
2.Taper Jean Girl by Kings of Leon
3.College Kids by Relient K
4.Marching Band by Sufjan Stevens
5.Heaven by Angels & Airwaves
6.My Attendance is Bad but My Intentions Are Good by PlayRadioPlay!
7.Yesterday by Atmosphere
8.Don't You Forget About Me covered by New Found Glory
9.Such As it Ends by Ludo
10.All These Things That I've Done by The Killers
11.Chokechain by 3oh!3
12.This is For Real by Motion City Soundtrack

Download Here

9 Days Left

Late last night and into the early morning I talked to Tom. We talked mostly about his relationships or lack of relationships with girls. And a once mutual friend of ours that we've pretty much given up on. I hate to see this person throwing their life away already. After all it's only just begun...but ultimately it's their choice to do what they do and push people away from them. All I know is that I can't go down that road again with someone, not so soon. I've finally moved on...and I'm not about to go through it all again with someone else. Plus I leave for school in like 9 days. So I'm not about to get myself in some drama here and then just leave.

Anyways while I was eating my Brunch haha, you know when I eat my breakfast food for lunch, cheerios and some amazing cinnamon raisin toast that we got for 79 cents,yeah tasty...I was watching the Olympics...it got me thinking about the last summer Olympics in 04'. I don't remember much about those games aside from Micheal Phelps winning a whole bunch and the Hamm brothers...oh and watching Ping Pong in World History one day haha.

This is random but last night my Dad accidentally dropped a brand new full bottle of steak sauce on my foot and now I have a huge bruise...ehhhh. Oh and my new hair is working out wonderfully maintenance wise. I love not having to do much with it. It can be a pain riding in the mini with the windows down and the sunroof open but I won't be doing that too much longer anyways.

I better go force myself to read that stupid book again....I know I said I would have it finished by Friday...but obviously that didn't happen heh. Only 70 pages to go!

Welcome to My World...

What a weekend. It's been interesting that's for sure. Friday we went to the zoo with my grandpa...where I thought we might possibly get kicked out due to his rude comments to strangers about their nosy misbehaving children, let's just say you probably shouldn't loudly say that a kid needs slapped upside the head to straighten them out. It was pretty fun though...I'll have to go back once they finish the new African part, all we saw of it was big construction vehicles and some landscaping....boo. Anyways after we dropped the brother off at friends we headed to Wally world to finish up the dorm shopping. I'm pretty sure I have everything I need now. Getting all of this shiz in the car is going to be a whole different story. My mom is convinced that it's all going to fit in the mini....yeah right. We were going to do a test packing this weekend but got busy with other things. So I'm sure it'll get done by next weekend for sure. Yes Josh there will be pictures! haha.

Saturday I pretty much hungout at home most of the day watching the olympics...listening to music....you know the usual. Oh we did venture out B-Buy to get a laptop lock. Um...cool I guess. I'd rather have the ipod touch my Dad bought himself yesterday too. Hasn't even set it up yet...eck. He has bought a case and a wall charger though haha.

Today, we all slept in...it was nice. I showered and then we took off to the grocery store...haha I love managers special baked goods. This week I picked up a loaf of tasting looking cinnamon rasin bread for 79 cents. Yumz. Anyways after shopping we headed to Penn Station for lunch...amazing sandwhiches and amazing fries that remind me of Cedar Point fries...ahh yeah. Came home and hungout for a couple of hours before we embarked on a bike ride. We rode up to the gas station and put air in the tires. Then were on our way in Miranda's addition, we got to the old people's home and whoosh I hear a pop and a blast of air hitting my leg....my front tire popped.

So we limped my bike up to Georgetown and put it on the rack by Ziffles and the coney place. I went and bought char crust while my Dad continued home to get the car. Anyways I'm in Scotts checking out the free samples...7 layer mexican dip...score haha. Anyways there's a cop walking around taking statements from all the employees there, I guess that they got robbed or something. Wasn't bad enough for them to close the store. Took the bike home and then switched to the Mini to go back to Wally World, we live between Wally World and Scotts pretty much all the time. We got a new tube for my bike and other things that we didn't orginally plan on getting. We had the most annoying cashier ever..."This watch is really heavy...I just got it today and it weighs like two pounds! Wow!" ...."Tyler like read my mind and called! How weird was that!" "Are you planning a party?" gahh just shut up and scan my shit....Why don't we have cool Wally World cashiers like Gee in Columbus? haha.

Anyways, now I'm just waiting for my Dad to put the steak on...he lit the grill like 10 minutes ago so it could be awhile. Oh...and Hulu is great...just wish they had Gossip Girl on there, because I was curious as to what channel the CW was in Muncie....they don't get the CW....what the fuck am I going to do now? I guess I'll have to watch em' online again with the sub-titles in Espanol. That's enough lameness from me today.

New Hair

We walked up to Georgetown today....did I mention the ghetto mobile started hemoraging fluids the other week? Yeah, haha so we're down to the Mini Coop which isn't technically ours. Anyways I got my hairsss cut, I'm pretty happy with it. I think I have a good length and it seems realitively easy to manage....and looks good without straightening...which is goodx1,000. Plus I got it thinned out a lot so it's not as poofy. Plus we went to the cheap place...you know Great Clips lmao. Anyways...Picturrrez.

Meet Me in the Middle...Come on lets make up a Dance...

So, some of today's issues have been resolved and I'm definately glad about that. Now I'm just in charge of flooring more specifically a rug for the room. You know they should just furnish the damn dorm rooms so it wouldn't be this much of a hassle., you know all the basics; TV, beds, fridge, microwave....carpet....it'd make things a whole lot easier. If I ever am in charge of designing dorm rooms, I'm going to suggest fully furnished dorm rooms. IPFW has those...they're like apartments and are pricey haha. Just saying though....geezies.

Now I'm just waiting for my parents to get home to update them on the latest...hmm...hopefully we can fit a rug in the mini...gah. We'll see. I'm ready for today to be over. By the way I started reading that book...it's alright. Sounds like I'll be getting sunburnt a whole lot in the future or something but ya know whatever.

Oh and the new Ludo record is pretty good, check it out...if you're at Warped they're selling it for $5. That's my shameless plug for today.

Some One Please Save Us....As College Kids...

I'm kind of stressed out right now. So pardon my venting. First off I put my laundry in the wash this morning at like 9ish. By the time it's done I look outside and dark clouds are looming. Ok...no big deal just wait for the storms to pass. They've passed but another batch is on the way, so my wet clothes are still in the washer waiting to be hung outside. Yeah our dryer sucks....plus beats spending the money on Natural Gas. Hey...gotta cut corners where you can. So if this storm doesn't move through pretty quick I'm just going to hang them inside like we do in the winter...I don't want them to start stinking.

So then there's this microwave/fridge situation with the roomie. Mostly it's about what our parents are willing to pay...well mine anyways. I hope she won't think I'm this impossible person to get along with just because I can be frugal and hold out for deals. We shall see what my mom says when I call her in a little bit.

Oh....and I still have to read the freshman connections reader...blah. A whole book about global warming....yippee. I've set goals though, 2 chapters a day, should get me finished by Friday. All of this has caused a slight headache and my stomach to be well...stressed. Not panic attack stressed but noticably stressed. I know it's all pretty much lame stuff I'm stressed about, I guess I have nothing bigger to stress about in my life and I'm actually extremely glad about that. But that being said all I really want to do is listen to music....and write. Seriously.

Tommorrow I'm going to ride my bike up to the library weather permitting and then head to Miranda's from there to let her borrow some CD's.

God, I'll be glad when this whole pre-college thing is over and all I have to focus on is school and a social life. Not that I'm getting my hopes for an extremely busy social calendar. I've never had one of those. But I do wish I could relive Thursday...I need more of those Thursdays in my life. Just that feeling of pure elation. Love it.

Pictures

Warped Tour Pictures are up on my Myspace and a few of me on facebook, all of them can be found in Josh's album. I'm going to post a few favorites here though.

Just Turn Up the Soundtrack and We'll Keep Singing...OUT LOUD!

Josh got to my house yesterday just before 8 and were on our way by 8. Tom Tom got us lost in Nobelsville haha, it took us to place that looked like 4H Fairgrounds behind an Aldis(sp?) So we got directions from the guy who worked at the Goodyear place haha. We were early so it didn't really matter. Parked, we sprung for Premire parking $25 to park a car...wtf? But we avoid long lines both coming in and leaving. So I guess it was kind of worth it.

Went through security, only made us get rid of our bottle caps off one of our waterbottles...ah we had extras with us anyways. Then we were off to find the Will Call booth. Turns out the venue didn't have the tickets so were sent over to a tent where the Warped staff was giving em' out. Truth had me on their guest list which got us our tickets and we were good to go.

Then we went in and found out where everything was at and headed to the master schedule. We picked the bands we wanted to see and then just saw whoever we could in between.

Started the day off just randomly walking into 3Oh!3 at one of the Hurley stages. It was entertaing haha, I downloaded some of their stuff last night when I got home and this morning I listened to it. I can't see myself putting this record on repeat 24/7. But they were definately good live and kept the crowd moving.

Aslena was on next on the Smartpunk stage right next to the Hurley stage in the ampitheater. So we watched their set. Pretty good, I've heard some of their stuff before.

Then this Ska from Japan came on...I can't remember their name ahh. Oh well, Josh went down and definately moshed to them for a few songs before we took off so we wouldn't miss Family Force 5.

I was glad we went and saw Family Force 5. They put on a great live show and we wer moving again the whole time. I was near the front but off to the side so it wasn't so crowded. Josh caught one of their beach ball thingies haha. He wanted to get it signed but he couldn't find their tent. I told him later that I was standing right there and looking for him....but whatever.

Next we headed back to the Ampitheater to see Four Year Strong. While we were wating Katy Perry was playing...eh. I kissed a girl and I liked it....good for you. Four Year Strong played amazingly, the keyboard stand broke haha and they duct taped it back together.

We headed out for our first mainstage show of the day....Say Anything. Ohhhh Bemis. We got their a half hour early so we were about half way up. Luckily Josh and some other big dudes who were around me saved me from crowd surfers falling on my head haha. Security was getting pissed though. Some guy tried to get me to crowd surf during Say Anything but I didn't haha...Josh was like yeahhhh and did though. His first time of the day.

After Say Anything's set I pushed my way to the front as far as I could for Angels & Airwaves while Josh went off to find more water. I stood for a half hour elbow to elbow with some very sweaty people. A few who decided to smoke some pot while waiting. Some guys started singing Fuck a Dog, and Family Reunion while we waited so we all started singing along haha. By the time AVA came on I was about three people away from the barrier and smooshed up into the girl infront of me and the guy who was behind me was up against my back. But it was worth it. We all went nuts when AVA came out. They even played My First Punk song too. Oh and I dropped my camera when we were helping a crowd surfer over....luckily I grabbed it really quick before it got trampled. I got many pictures of Tom Delonge haha. Some girl passed out, we found a guys wallet, and now I've completed part of a middle school dream of seeing Tom Delonge live in person. I still can't believe it....it's so surreal.

Then we headed over to see Anberlin. We stuck towards the back and sat down for their last few songs. I was hot by this time and feeling kinda yuck. So we headed back to the ampitheater for awhile. I don't even know who was playing when we got in there I just wanted to drink my water and eat some crackers. But after that band got offstage, Ludo came on. I was happy I got to see them, I didn't know if we were going to but we definatley did. Yay for Ludo! After sitting through a couple of songs of the band after then we headed back out into the sun. We sat in the shade while Against Me! was on.

Then we got up to see Relient K. They played great, and I loved the song about The Office. They played Be My Escape, Sadie Hawkins, Who I Am Hates Who I've Been and some others. It started randomly sprinkling during their set, although it was still pretty sunny...weird. There were a lot of kids who were probably a few years younger than me with their parents. To me...that would suck because my parents wouldn't have let me get close at all. I told my parents how close I got for AVA and they flipped, you could've gotten trampled...blah blah blah.

At 7:40 we headed over to see Motion City Soundtrack....oh yes. They played This is For Real, Your Favorite Accident, oh man my brain is failing me right now. But we definatley sang the birthday song to Josh(in the band).

After Motion City Soundtrack we rushed over to see Story of the Year, we caught most of their set except for the first couple of songs. I was glad that they played stuff off of Page Avenue because I really haven't been able to get into any of their newer stuff.

Then we headed out to the parking lot and Josh drank cooler water he was so thirsty haha. We definately rocked out to music the whole way home. Mostly classic rock, Queen, Aerosmith, AC/DC ect. I dunno why I was just in that kind of mood I guess. We stopped in Gas City for gas. Yeah it's ironic I know ha. Then we got to my house just before 11.

Josh is going to get Herpes from drinking out of random people's abandoned water bottles. We are both sunburnt. 2nd time this year we've gotten sunburnt together. My shoulder is kinda tweaked and sore right now, I'm hungry because the only things I ate yesterday were an english muffin, a package of cheese crackers, and a rice krispie treat. But overall we had an amazing time and agreed that we should definately do it again. Josh is getting the pictures developed and will put em' up on Facebook when he gets a chance...when he does, well....I'll steal em' out of his album and post em' or a link to em' on photobucket or something. I think this trip was even better than the Cedar Point trip. Seriously amazing!

Wake Up Wake up this Heaven on Earth...Oh yeah.

Tommorrow is the day, we're leaving bright and early...8 AM yikes. haha. I'm pretty much all ready to go...just you know have to get dressed tommorrow load up the water and we're good to go.

I'm full of liquids right now haha, kinda got a head start on hydrating. It helped when we went to Cedar Point last year. So I figured it wasn't a bad idea.

I'm excited...even though I'm kinda half awake half asleep right now.....I didn't go for my bike ride today so I haven't really done enough today to wake myself up. I am hungry though...lunch was a long time ago...and having steak tonight yums.

Brand New is coming to Indy in September...and I'll be fairly close but in school, so we'll see. You never know what may happen, I didn't think I'd be going to Warped this year but here I am going. It should be fun...and hot. But wayyy better than sticking around the Fort another mind numbing day.

Alright well I'm off to well I don't know yet...but do something.

I Used to Have So Much Faith When I Started...

Just got back from a bike ride. There was some stuff bothering me majorly this morning that definately killed yesterday's mood. Stuff...that I'm not even going to get into because I'm really tired of always expecting the worst. I'm tired of getting up for the letdown. For all I know I could be thinking of the worst circumstances for no reason at all. So if it turns out that way....then it does...but I'm not going to harp on it before it even happens.

I just knew I had to get out and ride. I knew I couldn't sit in my room watching TV dwelling. I had to clear my head. I put on my headphones and just pedaled. I enjoyed the sun beating down on me, the slight burn in my lungs, the tightness in my thighs and calves. I just rode...and enjoyed it. I didn't think about anything except avoiding cars and pedaling. Nothing else mattered.

I'm back and I definately feel better. Sure, I'm sitting here drenched in sweat (too much info but whatever), and I came back slightly dizzy and light headed, but I'm glad I went. It definately helped my mood. If people start asking me why I'm out riding the neighborhood all the time I'll just say it's therapy on wheels. Frankly I'd rather ride away my problems than talk about them half the time.

When I was younger my parents had bought me this soccer net that bounced the balls back to you, I used to spend hours using that thing. It'd be spring time and in dark and I'd be outside kicking the ball just to let off some steam, clear my head.

Adults or atleast people older than me by atleast 5-10 years always tell me how easy my generation has it. Half the time I think...Bull Shit. Most people I know who are my age have had to grow up way to early. Yeah I come with baggage from my childhood/teen years, stuff that will stay with me throughout my life...it wasn't my choice to have it. So I deal the best way I know how. Atleast it's not hurting me or anyone else I know.

There's too much pressure out there, pressure to get good grades, pressure to go to a good college, pressure to decide in high school what you want to do with the rest of your life. How can you decide at 16 what you want to be doing 50 years from now? Not to mention all this social status bull shit. I'll admit that I worry about fitting in and how other people view me. God I've gotten off on a tangent. Sorry just venting...I'm going to go see what else I can do to stay busy.

Whoosh.

Today I kept pretty busy all day. I knew that I wouldn't be able to sit still for very long....anticipation does that to me. I did manage to sit through one episode of ER but that was about it. I made my lunch at 11ish haha, english muffin with a sunny side up egg. Then I went to work on this computer and decided to update to IE7. I should be find as long as I don't update stupid Windows Messenger...that shit breaks my computer. Anyways while I was doing that, I got out my laptop and put itunes and stuff on it. So I'm good to go on that front.

I got my housing assignment while doing my itunes shiz, so I added the roomie on facebook. She seems pretty cool so far. After I got done with all that, I went for a bike ride. I got sidetracked and went to Erin's for a bit just to prove I'm alive I guess. Then I finished my route before heading home to do dishes.

After that the brother and I decided to play ping pong with his new table top ping pong kit he got at Barnes and Nobles. Gah. It was ok...would've been better if we had an actual ping pong table. I definately put on some ping pong attire to make it extra fun.




Yeah went to the store/library with my parents....and here I am waiting for food to get done. Stoffers did the cooking again tonight.

Oh...and I'm rediscovering Goldfinger again...it's been too long since I've listened to them. Not counting today...2 days left! Now...I'm going to go be lame and watch Gossip Girl...and then Bourdain later tonight(but there's nothing lame about Anthony Bourdain.)

Sunday Secrets

So as I do every Sunday I checked the new secrets on postsecret and I thought of one of my own and made a picture...I dunno if I'll submit it but it may end up on a blog on myspace before I leave for BSU. heh...we'll see. My plan is to write one last hoorah for that blog before I leave...I've wanted to sit down and write it...but I think it's too soon, and haven't quite figured out what I want to say yet.

Saturday Afternoon

Hmm...the DirecTV guy is here. He's not bad looking haha. I'm waiting for our lunches to get done. I haven't eaten since last night when we went out to Halls either...heh. But after this we'll have 95 HD channels instead of like 15. So mostly I'm bored...and just waiting to get this lunch ordeal over with because then we're going to the store to get some snacks and stuff for Thursday!!! Super excited, even charging up the Dell for the trip down.

Holy crap, the dude is on the roof right now...right above my room. Dish Numero 3 is being put up. No...we don't have 3 dishes on our roof, this is just the third one we've had. I'm bored, so....I'm going to stop talking now.

Still No Roomie...I'm getting pissed.

Before 9 on a Saturday...what?

So couldn't sleep anymore so I just got up. I'm too excited. Plus I lay around too much during the day so I really wasn't all that tired anyways. 5 days to go! Plans are being made, lists are being made of stuff to bring. I'm stoked. It's like making of list of stuff I need to take with me to school in August...which by the way keeps growing, but mostly just so we're prepared. It's kind of funny though because I don't even think we thought to bring this much stuff to Cedar Point with us....where we stayed the night and drove a good 3 hours. This is 2 hours away...and we're not staying the night.

Of course we have to look at how long we sorta planned the whole Cedar Point thing out...months practically.....and we had to convince our parents which took weeks literally. This time that part was easy 10 minute phone call and I was done. They trust Josh more...especially after some stuff I enlightened my parents too the other day. Plus I'm pretty sure nobody will mess with me with my 6'4" friend at my side...yeah he's a foot taller than me. haha.

Anyways, I'm either going to go mow the grass than jump in the shower or shower and tell the brother to mow...so later kidz.

3rd Update Today, I Know.

But I've called Josherz and he's all set to go next Thursday! YES! Finally! Sarah is going to Warped. I know most of your are like...good for you the line up pretty much sucks this year but whatever I don't care. Last year I missed out on NFG. But this year....atleast we have Say Anything right?

Yeah I definately just got back from buying a 24 pack of water. This trip will probably set me back at good 50-60 bucks depending on gas prices which are back down to 3.99 hopefully to drop more before next Thursday. It's always cheaper near Indy anyways. Yeah...I'm going to call my mom now and tell her...I'm just a little hyper!

Holy CRAP!?!?!

I won Warped Tour Tickets AGAIN! So...I'm definately going to be calling up Josherz this afternoon to see if he's working next Thursday. I hope he's not and doesn't have any plans. God I hope I can actually use these tickets this year!?!

Now lets top off the day by getting that roomie!

I Have a Home.

So somebody on the BSU 2012 group on facebook figured out a way to find out what dorm we're living in. So I am no longer homeless haha, I'm living in Brayton the pre-tcom dorm. It's an all girls tower...but hey most of the time the floors vote on 24/7 visitation so no biggie. Because I think if I had to deal with girls all day....all week, I'd go crazy. No offense but yeah I just would.

Now I just need the official housing assignment in the mail so...I can find out who my roomie is! Grr. Hopefully that'll come today...I think it'd be funny if I ended up with Krystel, I'm not sure she went random though.

Reserved Text Books last night. If I don't manage to get any used books...yikes. I'm looking at roughly 200 for Espanol alone. Ha the text books will probably cost more than my laptop did. Gotta love college.

Breakfast Club?

So...I was watching Gossip Girl (we've already established I'm lame...lets move on) and I hear a very very familiar song come on as I'm about to get up and go eat. Yeah...Don't You Forget About Me covered by NFG comes on..and I sit there with my mouth hanging open....going NFG song on a commercial!?! Whoa! I never thought I'd see the day...haha not that I'm mad or anything I just thought it was cool. So look out for the new JC Penny Commercial which is basically a Breakfast Club remake montage.

Oh and Chad is such a tease. I was on movie scenster and they were talking about this commercial and some kid was like well I only like Sticks and Stones and Chad goes...we'll wait until you've heard the new album that Mark Hoppus produced for us. Gahhh I'm impatient.

No Roomie yet.

Hopefully Luck is On My Side This Year (again)

This weekend went nothing like I thought it would but it was actually better. Saturday the brother and I were supposed to go to an all day training thing at church for video/powerpoint. But only 4 total people showed up and 3 of us knew pretty much everything there is to know...so they let us go home. Unfortunately nobody had dropped the car off for us yet so we walked home but we don't live that far....it was just really hot. So then we got to attend the my mom's company picnic. My Dad and I agreed it would've been a lot better if they'd rented a pavillion at Indiana Beach...haha so for the lameness of the party we took a bunch of cookies and chips home with us. What? Nobody was going to eat them...they were going to pack them back up.

Yesterday we all woke up late so no church. We went down to TRF. HOT. I got a corn dog and a frozen chocolate covered banana myyyy favorite part. Plus I got like 10 free samples of toothpaste lmao. We went over to the Old Fort (you know...why it's called Fort Wayne....there actually is a fort here...that's open....err once a year lmao. We rode the model-t bikes. My mom wouldn't let me drive heh. Then we came home and relaxed had some kobe burgers (amazingx100) and killed time until the fireworks. Went to our usual spot and saw em'. Pretty good, just wish they'd shoot the fireworks off the bank building downtown for 4th of July...but that'll never happen heh.

This morning....I get an email from thetruth.com to take another quiz for Warped Tickets...yes I could've possibly won again. The line-up kinda sucks this year but am I lame for wanting to see Angels & Airwaves just say I've seen Tom Delonge live? Plus FREE tickets so ....all I have to pay for is half the gas...and food/water. Which water I'm sneakin' in. So...don't let me down this year kids, it's the summer before I start college....lets let this Warped dream happen this time...granted I win again. I'm still pissed that I missed out on seeing NFG last year...ohhh my life would've been almost complete then. Of course if my Dad win's or somehow winds up getting Brickyard tickets for next weekend(not likely) then god...might as well leave me in Nobelsville on the way back and I'll campout at Walmart or White Castle or something haha. Anyways July 31st which is a...Thursday, next Thursday to be exact...keep it open. I have a junker car we probably shouldn't be driving on the highway at 70 mph so if you have a better one, I'll split the gas and buy you some White Castles or something. And of course the ticket!

Anyways, going to the library later...what's new? Ha. Oh...no roommate yet. No Housing Assignment yet....I'm getting antsy.

This Makes Me Really Happy.

Oh and the tracklisting for New Jack's Mannequin makes me even more happy!

Track Listing
01) Crashin
02) Spinning
03) Swim
04) American Love
05) What Gets You Off
06) Suicide Blonde
07) Annie Use Your Telescope
08) Bloodshot Eyes
09) Hammers and Strings (A lullaby)
10) Drop Out - The So Unknown
11) Orphans
12) The Resolution
13) Caves

No Roomie news yet as of today....but other than that....I'm doing great!

It Burnt A Hole in My Pocket...

I made my return trip to the mall today. I probably spent more than I should but everything I bought was onsale aside from the BSU lanyard and lunch. I did get the Penguin shirt, and two pairs of shorts...along with another shirt I was going to buy a few weeks ago at full price and am glad I waited, it was the last one...it just happened to be in my size....and I got it for $8 instead of $26.

Queso Crunchwraps aren't that great.

My mom came home and I showed her what I bought...she made me try on one of the pair of shorts I got saying that my ass would hang out of them....yeah no ass revealage...sorry mom. People will see my tan line from wearing athletic shorts most of the summer but aside from that...no bigge..that'll fade and I'll just have the scary pale legs again haha.

Josherz wants to hangout Thursday...we haven't figured out anything to do yet though...and I have no ideas, so we'll see.

Ick I just looked at the lastfm beta...not sure if I like it....why would my about me section be wayy off in never never land where people wouldn't see it? If they go to that format...I hope some changes are made first. It's kind of crowded. I hate crowded webpages. It drives me nuts.

Still waiting for my housing assignment....that's driving me nuts too.

Monday Mall Trips....

So...got hauled to the mall today by the grandparents....yeah it's like an old people school. My Grandma even calls the food court the cafeteria. She knows all the security guards and other old people who hangout there. Anyways we were in Penny's and they had this Penguin shirt onsale that I reallllyl want....and a Transformers shirt that I want too...so...I think I'm going to have to go back and get em' yes. And then another pair of jeans at Sears so I can finish up my giftcard. Yeah...money is now burning a whole in my pocket. Haha. I may even put 10 bucks of gas in the car just so I know I can safely make it there and back ehh. Oh and I saw Bree there...with some other chick and this other guy....where was Kyle? She was kinda all over this dude....ahh for High school drama...heh.

I'm tired...and I think we're going to the library when the parents get home.

Monday Mornings....

So this past weekend was pretty jam packed. Friday night my Dad brought me home an external hard drive. One of those cool blueberry ones that's designed by the Italian sports car designer dudes. We'll come back to that later haha.

Anyways Saturday the wedding went really really really well. Even though it was extremely hot/humid. But me showing up there has gotten me roped into an all day training boot camp for the middle school kids next weekend. I hope my stomach stops acting up by then. ugh. It's been hurting pretty badly after I eat.....I mean it can be cheerios...or a cracker and it'll hurt. So Saturday after the wedding I rushed home because it was 3:30, and I had to be at my Aunt's by 4. I get home pull my hair back and we leave. It was a pretty good time, I guess.

Sunday Morning, we all woke up late so we didn't go to church, but I decided to try to start transfering my music over to my laptop. So I plug the drive into my hub because those are the only USB ports I have free....it doesn't work...because it's not getting sufficient power. Heh so...we had to go off to Best Buy to get a card to put two more usb 2.o ports in my computer....and we ended up going all over town on the search for Kobe Beef Burgers...from Josef de quis or whever.....both of the meet markets that carry them where out...so we had to settle for steak that cost less than the burgers...haha yeah we're talking 10 bucks for 2 patties. Anyways then it's like 1:30....so...we get some Subs at Penn Station....pretty good....stuff. They cook their fries like Cedar Point does, in Peanut Oil....we didn't have any...but we knew they'd be good.

We were barely in the door and my Grandpa shows up haha....wow. So he stays awhile. My dad fixes my computer to run with the my new drive, then it transfers the music in like 20 minutes. Thank God for USB 2. So I've successfully put music on my laptop too. Now....this week...I need to figure out the whole book situation...because, we need to get the ones we can get deals on online...so they'll ship intime for me to move. Even though I'm feeling really really guilty about my parents dropping almost a grand on me last week, between, comforters, computer, drive, mouse, new PCI card for a computer I won't be using in a month, senior pictures, shoes....yeah it's a lot. But they want me to save the cash I have for any unforseen expenses while I'm down there. Which is ok I guess.

Busy. Busy. Busy.

Whoo, I'm tired. I'm sitting here in bed on my laptop watching George Lopez. I just got home about twenty minutes ago from helping my Dad clean computers. Being outside on hot cement blowing the dirt out of computer cases when it's 90 degrees out is always fun haha. Plus earlier today, I mowed the lawn so I'm pretty beat. Tommorrow I have a wedding so I'll have made $75 in two days...not too shabby.

Tommorrow, we're also going over to my Aunts house for a cookout/b-day party for my Grandpa. It should be kinda fun right? Anything is better than hanging out at home all the time.

Oh, and proofs are up online of my pictures that I had taken yesterday but....my mom is out washing towels and has my username and password so I've yet to look at them. At first the whole picture thing was ackward but it got better, so hopefully there a few good shots. We shall see...hopefully she gets home soon anyways....I'm getting hungry eh. So maybe tommorrow if I have time...or Sunday I'll get a few of the good pictures up on here...we'll see.

I kind of want to spend some of this cash ya know? In cash on me...I have...wayyy more than is safe to carry around...I think I only have like 50 in my wallet right now. Plus aside from cash before I leave for school, my mom is going to get my 150 out of her bank account to give back to me. So...I need like a safe or something ahh.

Ok...well I'm going to watch the news....and just relax...so that's all for now kidz.

Another Thursday...

So I've set my laptop up...aside from moving all the music on my PC to my laptop and putting itunes on there. But I've ripped cds, and installed lastfm, office, set up favorites, ect. Plus my Dad bought me a wireless mouse so it's really a pretty sweet setup. And unfortunately....Vista is slowly growing on me. I'm still not a huge fan of tabbed browsing...but whatever right? XP has its fair share of problems too and well...this computer is outdated...haha. I don't have the latest versions..of err...anything on here because my old as Dell Jukebox wouldn't work with it....and every time I'd update software my machine would go...nope. I'm going to puke out on ya...so I finally just gave up heh. Probably pick up a portable hard drive sometime this weekend or next week...and I'll be goooood to go.

I'm sitting here just waiting for my pictures I'm heading to Auburn to take at 4 this afternoon. I'm already in my first outfit..haha nothing too impressive annnd.....have my hair down and straightened. So it's not a giant poof ball. It would look better if had more shape to it but...it's grown back...and I'm waiting until like a week before I leave for BSU to get it cut. Plus I'm not entirely sure how I want it cut yet.....I don't want to go super short again.....and I want it thinned out with layers for sure. But we'll see. Gah I'm kinda anxious and bored.... I just want to get these stupid pictures over with.