Hi.

Anybody want to buy a volvo? I'm sick of having a car already. Everybody has expectations from me now. I hate driving now. I hate work. I hate my brain. I hate my stomach. I hate that all I do is have people unhappy with me. I hate that I'm the party pooper. I hate my body. I hate that nobody gets it. But oh well no one ever has. I just want things to go back to the way they were. Before this dumb car came into my life. I just want my old life back where everybody was happy or at least more happy than they are now.

I'm starting to think I don't deserve happiness. It's just my job to try to make people happy but I'm starting to think more and more that I don't matter. As long as others are happy I won't be miserable and I guess not being miserable is an ok settlement between happy and miserable. If I'm upset oh well...the world doesn't care. I get it. It's my problem I'm upset...I do it to myself.

Tired of All of This Shit.

Boys...make my stomach churn. I've been from one extreme to another today and I hate it. I've gone from wanting to cry several times today to wanting punch/strangle someone today. That doesn't do a stomach good...let me tell you.

No need to re-hash again, if you really must know...you know how to get ahold of me. But hugs from Matt, Andrea, and laughing about really funny stuff in Derek's room tonight has helped calm me down quite a lot.

God I really do hope this upcoming week is extremely better and is drama free.

It's funny though I thought tonight would turn out differently...especially after a conversation had last night. But definately not, it sucked most of the time.

I should've just stayed single...life is a hell of a lot easier. But good friends are always good to have around too. So thanks to all of you guys for putting up with my temporary rage bursts haha.

Girls...don't let a guy use you for his warm body.

I'm Done.

And They Let Me Into College?

I feel like a complete idiot right now. After having this blog for two years now, I've just now figured out how to properly use titles haha. I knew it was possible but I was completely lost as how to use them. Today I finally thought, "Hmm...maybe I should google it...", 2 seconds later I found my answer and now I feel like an idiot haha.

So I've gone through all my posts up through July 2008 and titled them the right way. I don't have the time or energy to go back through 350 posts and title them correctly. I'll just promise to title them correctly from now on for those of you who subscribe by feed, you can judge me by my titles now ahaha.

Aside from this minor revelation, I spent the day doing my laundry so I could finish packing. All that's left to do is dust off the TV and find the remote, and pack a few more pairs of socks or something lame like that. And then stow away some of my things in my room so the brother and the parents don't get at them. Like the story....oh how I'm going to miss that. That will be the reason I'll want to come home for break haha. But other than that I think I'm ready. Even though I'm completely worn out right now just from packing and what not.

I just thought I'd update real quick to show that I'm not a complete idiot blogger on here anymore.