I Was Pretty BA when I was Younger...

Now I'm just lame haha, tonight we were comparing music that we listened to when we were younger middle school/high school aged. Let's just say I was not rocking Back Street Boys or N'sync, although I think they may have thought I was lying when I said I didn't listen to them, but oh well I know the truth.

Went and saw ABSO tonight, the crowd was lacking but it was still a good time. I get to finally sleep in tomorrow yes! I'm pretty excited haha, hopefully I won't have to take a nap tomorrow. I don't know, lately I've been feeling really drained by the afternoon and can't seem to keep my eyes open. I hope it goes away and isn't anything serious.

Any who just thought I'd update real quick before heading off to bed to enjoy my sleeping in-ness.

Are You Feeling Fine?

Can today be over with now?

Let's see today I failed an Econ quiz. Told people how I felt about a Tcom project because it sucked. Then had somebody email me about apologizing, when it wasn't even directed towards them it was just about the project in general. And I hate that fact that the only grade we're getting on the project is based off of peer evaluations.

Should've saw it was going to be a shitty day last night when the neighbor's next door we're super noisy while I was trying to sleep and then when I did fall asleep I woke up an hour later from a panic attack. Fun times. Then woke up this morning with what seems to be the start of another sty, plus I'm tired...and just want to go to bed.

Actually I kind of just want to go burn a lot of energy so I can just collapse into bed tonight and fall asleep. Which I may go do later I don't know, I'm charging the shuffle up just in case.

Today is just one of those want to curl up under the covers and watch tv and not have to deal with the world anymore days.

I Didn't Totally Forget this Blog..

Whoo update! First I want to say hi to my international readers and I'm glad I could help with your school assignments, even though I didn't know I was helping but it's all good and cool.

Sitting here getting ready to go to bed in a little while. Downloading OK Go's new cd and Motion City Soundtrack's new CD as well. We'll see how good they are when and if they ever finish, wifi sucks sometimes.

Speaking of music, my history of popular music class is pretty awesome, I have to write a paper comparing two songs but different versions of them such as All Along the Watchtower performed by Jimi Hendrix and Bob Dylan, so yeah pretty sweet. Plus I have significantly less writing to do this semester! YEAH! So glad to be done with English 104. Even though I do have a paper a week due for EDHI and occasional other small writing assignments. But overall this semester is looking to be pretty good and laid back once I figure out my living situation for next year. Depends on my RA ship and all that good stuff. Arghness. If I don't get that I'll be saving all my pennies from work this summer granted I get the job again the library. Hopefully I will!

Alright well I think I'm going to go do something else, note I didn't say something productive. Again I'll try and update more often than I did last semester.

Tommorrow We Venture Southward

I should be packing something but I'm lying in bed listening to music and on the computer. My back has been hurting all day from shoveling snow yesterday. Plus my throat has been dry and scratchy and I've been coughing with some slight chest pain/burning. :-/ I really hope this passes and I don't get a full blown cold/bronchitis or whatever. I don't have time for that with classes starting next week ahhh. That's why I've been kind of resting and taking it easy today.

I've been meaning to update my ipod today but never got around to that either, I suppose today isn't over quite yet but I'm just feeling super lazy today. I'll miss that once I get back to school. Sleeping in is going to be a twice every other week thing now ehhh since On Monday Wednesday Fridays I have class from 9 till like 4 then on Tuesday Thursdays I either have work at 10 or class at 10. Should be fun...eh. I liked having class on MWF's at 11 at the earliest haha. I like my sleep what can I say?

Ok well I'm off to procrastinate some more...

4ish Days till Funcie

I'm putting off yet again finishing my RA application haha I hate applications that make me evaluate myself. Plus all I can smell is food and I'm hungry, lunch was a long time ago. Of course I put off finishing this early because I was hungry for lunch, then I watched 7th Heaven then played Wii for a couple of hours haha. I'll finish it tonight I swear! I only have two questions to go! They're just very involved questions. :-(

Anyways really ready to head back to school and get back to school life. I hate not being around people my age all the time. Life isn't as exciting or fun at home. Not that I expect life to be exciting 24/7. Gotta be realistic eh.

Anyways gave up on the Top 10 of 09' list...ran out of time and didn't want to fool with it, oh well. Lets just say both Paramore and Say Anything have been getting a lot of plays on my ipod lately.

Probably the first break ever that hasn't seemed like an eternity. I shouldn't talk because I still have 4 days left and who knows how long they'll take ahh.

Well I should try and finish this application or go play ninja warz or something super productive like that. :-)

Whoa I Live

Sorry for lack of updates haven't been spending much time on the computer aside from academics. Yeahhh exciting haha.

Class. Work. Get a Cold. Class. Work. Get rid of the cold. Class. Work. Stomach acts up. Class. Work. Get another cold.

Story of my Sophmore year so far. Lets hope I can atleast get rid of the sickness ones. Pleassseee!

Whoaaa College

So I'm officially done with my first two day of classes this semester. My mother would yell at me and hit me upside the head if she knew how much money I've spent in not even two weeks. Most of it is school related and I'll just leave it at that.

Anyways so far classes are going well, just going to have a lot of homework and studying to keep up with this semester...fun fun. So I don't know how regularly I'll be able to update this blog but I'll try when I actually think about it. Right now my mind is a mess of Art History, Spanish, Geography, History...TCOM....English...oh you know the excitement of my classes...ahh.

Ok well off to google translator so I can actually decipher what I'm supposed to be doing for espanol.

Countdown = 0

I'm back at BSU in my dorm room as I type this...yes. It's hot and sticky and no fridge yet but other than that...we're doing good haha. Have to go to an OC meeting here soon but other than that not doing much tonight, depending on how long this meeting lasts.

Well...just glad to be back and will attempt to keep this thing semi-updated I guess haha.

Day 96

My 100 or so days of summer are coming to an end. Lately I've been watching a lot of Joan of Arcadia. I was shocked that Adam cheated on Joan...I was like wtf you ass hole. Haha Too into my shows I guess. Only a couple of episodes left though and I'll have seen them all (short lived show only 2 seasons)

Tommorrow Adam and I venture to the zoo, it should be fun. Haven't been since well last summer about this time. Then Wednesday is a rest day and Thursday I'm getting a haircut and then sometime that day Adam and I are going to B-dubs one last time. haha I know I've said that before but this will definately be the last time eating there in the Fort. Then Friday last minute packing before heading to Muncie or dare I say home on Saturday. Seriously ready even though I got an email today saying that the Atrium will be the only dining location open until lunchtime on the 19th...boo. Oh well haha. Atleast it's better than being here until then. The 19th we will eat dinner at Woodworth to celebrate being back together..or maybe anyways haha nothing is set in stone.

Alright well I think I may either go for a bike ride or watch my last two episodes of Joan of Arcadia.

Day 86

I came close to being very royally screwed tonight but thank god everything is ok. Big sigh of relief coming from me tonight haha.

I leave 2 weeks from tommorrow. Yes! So I'm tying up loose ends here (not very many and not too many of significance actually) and thinking about starting to pack but in all reality not making any progress at all. Once I get through this last week of work I'll spend the week after packing and sorting and what not.

Work is going to be wierd without the SRP desk, ohhh Summer Reading and how I hated asking kids if they wanted to sign up haha, actually won't be so bad unless we run out of task slips again which would be mucho bad. But we still do have the computer room but that still only leaves desk stuff for dos personas at a time.

Anyways deviating from work, I was thinking about my major again today, and how maybe I'd like to switch it...bottom line...decided to leave it and keep my minor as well. Mostly because all the business minors require Econ blah no thanks. We shall see how it all goes.

Alright well I'm assisting in the makin of Teryaki Chicken tonight, and yeah..I stupidly didn't get any movies from the library to watch but oh well there's always tommorrow.

I feel like my entries lately have been mucho boring...ah oh well I guess.

Day 78

So yesterday was a good news day, Adam is now officially an independent student, which means he's coming back to school with everyone! YES! Oh and I emailed my new Hall Director and I am still on opening committee so I get to move in on the 15th, which means I'm only 22 days away from moving in. Oh man I can't wait. It'll be great being back in Muncie.

Next week is potentially my last week of work unless I get extended a few more days into the following week we shall see. I know it's not the most exciting job but I'm willing to suck it up and hang in there until August 7th to haul in that extra paycheck. So we shall see, August schedule should be out sometime this week or early next week.

Everything is slowly falling into place, and I can officially be excited now. The only that could be better is the weather, seriously doesn't feel like July at all. It's rainy and chilly most of the time here. Blah. It definately hasn't been a hot and humid summer at all.

Ok well I should probably start to get ready for work today, so I can eat and such before I leave. Just have to get through 2 work days so I can see Adam again...whoo.

Day 70

Well today turned out a million times better than I expected it would.

Went and saw Harry Potter with Adam, caught the 10:30 showing, then went and had lunch at Sarku of Japan, and we hungout for a little bit after that before he dropped me off at home so he could head to work.

So I was bored and I'm the quest for a backpack so I thought hey one place I haven't checked out is Kohls, so I did, found one I liked and it was onsale. So I called around to different stores and found one that had it haha. So we went and got it after we picked up my mom from work. Beats paying 7 bucks for shipping and it should do the job and hold up better than a cheap Walmart one.



Speaking of Walmart went there and they had sheets; bright blue ones, that I had been eyeing the other day when Adam and I had gone to Walmart for $7.50 so I was like ah what the hell why not. So I bought them too.

I'm pretty sure I'm done spending big money this week. I get paid next Friday...but still don't want to go crazy. Besides I don't really have anything else I want. No, I don't plan on buying my $60 hoodie wishes anytime soon haha. Nor do I plan on buying any new clothes aside from socks and stuff like that. When I'm done with work, I'm just going to sort through the things and see what I do and don't want to take back. But yeah all my major spending is done until it's time for text books...oh boy.

Now I'm watching Blues Brother's 2000 and waiting to eat and such, but once again it's almost 9 at night, my parents are at Borders and no food is being cooked. Luckily lunch was super good and I cleaned my plate lol so I'm not super hungry but I could eat. Ah oh well back to the movie.

Day 58

Well out of curiousity I just googled or rather swagbucked (and got another one FYI yess for being at 270!) how many days I have left in the Fort, can you believe that I'm 42 mere days away from going back? I thought the number would never seem to get smaller when I was so close to a hundred but now, wow...it's exciting.

Today went to Big Lots because they had some seaons of ER for $6, I now own seasons, 1, 2, 3, & 7. I also picked up bed risers for $8. Seem pretty legit so they should work. Now all I have to get is random stuff that could all be purchased and fit into one of those little baskets at Walmart haha. Although I would really like a new backpack for school but we shall see. They had some today on sale at MC Sports when were there today. My old one is just well old and has a big stain on the back of it. Blah. We'll see I guess.

Going to cook some burgers out on the grill tonight. Tommorrow we're heading up to Angola for the annual parade and then out to pizza afterwards.

I'm kind of ready for a nap, got up too early-ish, and have to get up at a decent hour so we can drive up there for the parade. Ah well I'm going to see if my charcoal is ready yet. So more another time.

Day 50

After a horrendously shitty day, I can't even count on the one thing I look forward to everyday. But apparently my favorite part of the day isn't that important, so I'll probably just head to bed at 11 instead of sitting around waiting. By 11 I'll have waited an hour and a half, and I have to be at work super early tommorrow. Plus the only thing that's on TV is stuff about Michael Jackson. Oh boy.

Started the day off feeling blah, and ending the day feeling shitty; in multiple ways. I definately feel like I need a week of hermtized days. I honestly don't feel like doing anything other than sleeping or lying in bed staring at a wall or something exciting like that.

I've officially decided that if I can't get the 8 grand that I need for school, I'm dropping out. I know I'm going to loathe anywhere else than BSU so what's the point? Plus I'd have to change my major...and I don't know what the hell I'd change it to. So fuck it. Where do I sign up for welfare? I'll join the drain on the enconomy...as a big FU to the financial aid people for giving me shit this year. FYI kids, if you have a 3.6 GPA and make the Deans List that still doesn't qualify you for the Academic Competiveness Grant. It's times like these that I almost wished I drank or something that makes you either numb out or pass out. Too bad I don't like puking though because I'm pretty sure if I took something that did that too me, I'd be sick...so I'll pass. Hey maybe the world will really end 2012 and I won't have to worry...one can only hope. heh.

Alright well almost 11, time is running out...just another shot to the gut/heart wherever you'd prefer to hit me.

Day 47

Wow, almost to day 50 of summer break. Awesome. That means the days till we go back are getting smaller. Although when I think of that now, I get a twinge of nervousness in my stomach. He's told me not to be nervous about it, but I can't help it. School won't be the same without him there. I'll go to class, work, and when I'm not doing that I don't know what I'll do. I suppose study, and be incredibly bored and lonely. I think that if it ended up being that way, my sophmore year just wouldn't measure up at all. Knowing that he's stuck here...miserable would be incredibly hard for me. Yes I do care about him that much. Yes I am scared and worried about this. I don't want going back to school this year to be bittersweet. I want this all to go away, and have it just be a dream, a prank even.

So please send good thoughts our way please. So everything works out...I can't leave my other half behind. I can't. I think that might cause a huge regression...and I don't want that at all. The possibility of that scares me too.

This past year and mostly good things happening to me was definately a new thing for me. A good new thing. But I don't want this next year to be the opposite. Can't we just build off the good things?

I know...I'm a pathetic worry-wart, but sometimes I just can't help it, especially when it comes to the person I care about so much.

Day 37

Tired, my lips are extremely chapped. We were at CVS tonight too..should've stopped into to get some chapstick...wasn't thinking lol. Luckily chapstick is cheap, I always seem to lose those stupid things. Plus I can buy it with the dollar I found today haha.

I don't know what I'm going to do tonight, should've went upstairs on my lunch and looked for a movie...but didn't ah oh well...maybe I'll read or watch some ER. We shall see, at the moment I'm hungry and ready for dinner.

I don't know lately at work I've just felt like a loser, I'm the youngest one there, and I feel like everybody talks down to me. I know I'm not as "stylish" or whatever as the other girls, but why waste the money on clothes I'm only going to be wearing regularly for a couple of months? Ah I don't know...work is just kind of a lonely place unless I'm interacting with kids in the computer lab...that's become my new favorite place to be.

Plus I've had the reverse homesickness kicking again...just longing to be back in Muncie. Gah, I'm seriously really really really really really looking forward to school. Oh how I miss it. I miss Noodles...I miss Atrium food, I miss Woodworth food, I miss super hot shower water, I miss music in the bathroom, I miss being with Adam and my friends everyday, I miss Late Night, and movies, and just all of it. Gah I'm pathetic aren't I? Ah oh well...that's how I feel.

Oh! And I talked to Jake last night and found out that Matt and Ethan are coming to BSU in the fall..Schweet. Well mostly about Matt...never really hungout with Ethan. But should be even more good times. Although they'll be living in the honors dorms boo. Ah oh well...still looking forward to going back regardless.

And...to whoever you are from Nobelsville who is constantly reading my blog, Hi!! I still have yet to figure out who you are and if I know anybody from Nobelsville. Last summer I got lost there on the way to Warped but that's about it haha. Maybe it's the guy from Goodyear who gave us the directions haha. Doubt it.

103 Days Until I'm Back at BSU

And that fact has brought me to tears. I love it so much there. How am I going to survive a 103 days here? I'm going to miss everyone so much. Not seeing everyone everyday is going to stink. That seems like an eternity. I hate it.

I just want to be with my friends again.

Summer Breaks are overrated.

I'm Awake

My roomie is asleep but I'm awake thanks to lawn mowers, itchy eyes, and shoulder area pain.

Entering my last three days at BSU for 3 months. I start work on the 18th, at the library...shouldn't be too bad. I'll just keep telling myself atleast it's not fast food.

Anyways, going to go get ready and enjoy the last few days of freshmen year.

Felt Something Like....Felt Something Like Love....

I've been up since 7:40 this morning and right now I'm pretty hyper. Don't know why exactly but I am.

It's been an extremely busy week, and I've gotten a lot accomplished. I've already completed all my sociology homework today, and went to a meeting about my presentation next week. I'm leaving in a lil bit to go pass out flyers at the scramble light for Frog Baby.

Only 5 things leftish on my to do list lol. Only one that's due tommorrow...which I will hopefully do before work tonight.

So...boys can be weird. A couple of em' anyways. I just don't get it I guess. Eh oh well. My undying love for a celebirty ended a long ass time ago. Maybe they're a late bloomer?

Atleast the weather is getting better, supposed to be 65 today :)

Ah well I suppose I should try and get back on my productive trail...

Hmm...

Life is pretty copasetic at the moment. Just...I don't know living it I suppose and winning free things at Family Fued doesn't hurt.

Someone please send me suggestions on what to buy on itunes...I seriously have like $50 sitting my account.

Oh...and say hello to a newly employed Ball State Dining Employee! haha...Exciting I know.

Anyways entering the final 5 weeks of my freshmen year of college. Wow...the year just flew by...in a good way.

That's pretty much all I have to say...yep.