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If last year there was roughly 100 days of summer and this summer is very similar I'm sure. I have 53 days as of today until I go back to school so that means by the end of the week summer will be half over. Which is ironic when you think about it, because today is the first official day of summer.

At least I know that for the whole month of July I will be working which is great. I don't know about any work in August though we shall see, well at the library anyways. I know I'm going to be working my ass off on desk at school when we go back for the first two weeks, can we say probably a 40 hour check for the first pay period? Yeah it's going to be that insane.

I'm ready though, the only thing I want to do the rest of the summer is have fun with Adam when possible (when we're both not working haha), find some stuff in my room I've been looking for that I really need to find, and then get my bike out so I can start building up that cardio endurance again that I had the summer before my freshman year of college so I'm not dying in aerobics this fall. I know I can do it, it's just a matter of getting back into shape. I noticed yesterday that my lifting at work has definitely toned my arms, maybe not Jillian Micheals toned but if I flex there's definite muscle definition.

So now I just wait for financial aid award letter, which will come in July hopefully. And for roommate assignment which will probably come towards the end of July. I'm more nervous about the second one. What are the odds that I'll get another roommate who's pretty cool?

But anyways I thought I'd just express my excitement at realizing summer is pretty much half-way over. On July 14th, I'll have roughly a month to go. And that's roughly 3 weeks away so yeah. A month and 3 weeks to go. As much as I don't like work sometimes it really does help the days not drag sometimes. Having fun people at work helps like Lauren and Elaine. Anyways I should get dressed or something for the day.

Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio

Everyone could use a little folds in their life. Maybe this is just because I grew up listening to my parents play Elton John and Billy Joel haha.

Music lesson numero uno: when exiting your vehicle for work make sure your ipod is on pause so that when you come out to plug it again to go home it's not dead. It was stashed away and secure just well playing the 9 hours I was at work haha.

By the way lately I've been feeling out of touch with music and I don't like this feeling that paired with some intense feelings of homesickness have not made for good feelings lately. So give me some music or something get me back in touch. Working at a library sucks all good sounds out of my life :-(. All I get is screaming children :-/.

I Didn't Totally Forget this Blog..

Whoo update! First I want to say hi to my international readers and I'm glad I could help with your school assignments, even though I didn't know I was helping but it's all good and cool.

Sitting here getting ready to go to bed in a little while. Downloading OK Go's new cd and Motion City Soundtrack's new CD as well. We'll see how good they are when and if they ever finish, wifi sucks sometimes.

Speaking of music, my history of popular music class is pretty awesome, I have to write a paper comparing two songs but different versions of them such as All Along the Watchtower performed by Jimi Hendrix and Bob Dylan, so yeah pretty sweet. Plus I have significantly less writing to do this semester! YEAH! So glad to be done with English 104. Even though I do have a paper a week due for EDHI and occasional other small writing assignments. But overall this semester is looking to be pretty good and laid back once I figure out my living situation for next year. Depends on my RA ship and all that good stuff. Arghness. If I don't get that I'll be saving all my pennies from work this summer granted I get the job again the library. Hopefully I will!

Alright well I think I'm going to go do something else, note I didn't say something productive. Again I'll try and update more often than I did last semester.

Day 92

Tommorrow is my last day of work at the Library. Yes. I'm ready for my well deserved 7 days off before returning back to school. It almost feels like I've been in school the past few months, just without the homework haha. Everyone I'm remotely friends with at work is leaving as well and we're all heading our seperate ways. But if we all come back next summer it'll almost be like school all over again haha.

Anyways got a free cucumber today at work, I got on the bus and showed my mom and she just laughed and pulled a cucumber out of her bag as well that she got free at work lol.

I'm ready. I'm ready for the things Adam and I have planned this next week and to start packing. And to get my hair cut and everything. I'm ready. Yep, excited.

Well now back to watching Joan of Arcadia haha.

Day 90

I saw KJ tonight at work, haven't seen her inforever, haha fun times junior yeat at lunch with Bob, Ian and company playing BS and then you know not being able to sit in our usual spot due to the drive-by threat this year. Ah oh well just cool seeing her again.

Anyways work was boring...if death was really caused by boredom, I'd be dead. Luckily only 3 more days. And I get off at 6 everyday Thank God.

I'm beginning to hate WOW. It discourages conversation, and...yeah. Lameness. Especially after having a super lame day already. The only highlight of my day so far has been reading my book because it's really good lol. So yeah...if that's the highlight that just proves how lame my day has been.

So I don't know, I guess I'll see how long I'm kept waiting, it' been well over 10 mins already. Almost 20 actually. Argh...I can't stay up late tonight either since I have to get up early for work. This is most definately not helping my day any.

Day 89

1 Day down, 4 to go this week work wise. Yes. Work is getting extremely boring again as we are stuck doing task slips the majority of the time and only being scheduled on desk for 2 hours as it is in my case tommorrow.

I'm trying to be good by cutting my portions and sweets haha but tonight I was at Walmart and saw this lemon cupcake with lemon frosting on sale and mannn I couldn't resist so the momz bought it for me. But other than that and the marshmallows we're toasting I'm going to behave myself. I realize that my eating over the past few days has been a bit out of control. And I don't want to face consequences of that, actually already have eating like that makes my stomach hurt/causes heartburn sometimes, so better to cut back anyways.

You know, the only thing I missed this summer was a good BLT. We usually eat em' a few times a week in the summer and I haven't had one this summer. Well partially because we no longer have a toaster, and a blt has got to be toasted. Man I need to track down somebody with a toaster at school and then all I'd need is some bacon and a tomatoe, ehh lettuce is always optional lol and may you can get in those little packets haha. Anybody else up for a Bacon Tomato Sandwhich? Geeze now I wish we were having those instead of Pork Chops haha, and those damn Asain Vegetables we always seem to eat now, why not mix it up with some corn or peas or carrots or something else! Gah! Or some Baked Beans, I think we've eaten those once this summer. Man...next summer I'm making a list of must have summer foods/meals. Like in the winter when I'm rarely home I want chili and stew haha.

Actually I need to stop talking about food because it's just making me hungrier and hungry for things that we're not having...yeah even Tuna Noodle Casserole sounds amazing at the moment, not that the way we make it is bad...it's yummers. Alright well off to see how this food is coming along.

Day 86

I came close to being very royally screwed tonight but thank god everything is ok. Big sigh of relief coming from me tonight haha.

I leave 2 weeks from tommorrow. Yes! So I'm tying up loose ends here (not very many and not too many of significance actually) and thinking about starting to pack but in all reality not making any progress at all. Once I get through this last week of work I'll spend the week after packing and sorting and what not.

Work is going to be wierd without the SRP desk, ohhh Summer Reading and how I hated asking kids if they wanted to sign up haha, actually won't be so bad unless we run out of task slips again which would be mucho bad. But we still do have the computer room but that still only leaves desk stuff for dos personas at a time.

Anyways deviating from work, I was thinking about my major again today, and how maybe I'd like to switch it...bottom line...decided to leave it and keep my minor as well. Mostly because all the business minors require Econ blah no thanks. We shall see how it all goes.

Alright well I'm assisting in the makin of Teryaki Chicken tonight, and yeah..I stupidly didn't get any movies from the library to watch but oh well there's always tommorrow.

I feel like my entries lately have been mucho boring...ah oh well I guess.

Day 83

I've picked up another extra week at work so my last day is officially set in stone as August 7th. Which is nice, because as of now I have quite a bit to do at work with these media kits we're currently going through. Shelf-reading sucks but I don't mind the other work I'm doing.

I also got out of jury duty today obviously, and I read online that I can't be called again for 2 years...which is fine by me.

So I'm watching ER on DVD of course and am trying to figure out what I'm going to eat before I go to work today.

The past couple of days I've been hungry for b-dubs knowing that we're going Thursday night after work with a group of people.

Alright well I'm out of things to say...aside from only 17 days to go!

Day 81

So this weekend has been pretty great, aside from me spending too much money haha.

Friday night Adam and I made homemade mac and cheese and watched a movie. Saturday we went to the mall had Sarku of Japan and I ended up buying a chair and a mattress pad thinger majigger haha. Then today he shows up at my house with cookies, just because I randomly said they sounded good.

Yesterday I also began organizing a little bit for packing purposes. Mostly just freed up a bag and threw some stuff out. I'm saving the clothes sorting for the last possible minute or few days any ways.

This week...possibly jury duty, B-Dubs for sure Thursday night with everybody, and whatever else happens. We shall see.

Still don't know if I'm working any longer than this week, I suppose I'll find out sometime this week considering the first day of August is Saturday.

Alright well just going to hangout for a bit then shower. Exciting I know.

Day 78

So yesterday was a good news day, Adam is now officially an independent student, which means he's coming back to school with everyone! YES! Oh and I emailed my new Hall Director and I am still on opening committee so I get to move in on the 15th, which means I'm only 22 days away from moving in. Oh man I can't wait. It'll be great being back in Muncie.

Next week is potentially my last week of work unless I get extended a few more days into the following week we shall see. I know it's not the most exciting job but I'm willing to suck it up and hang in there until August 7th to haul in that extra paycheck. So we shall see, August schedule should be out sometime this week or early next week.

Everything is slowly falling into place, and I can officially be excited now. The only that could be better is the weather, seriously doesn't feel like July at all. It's rainy and chilly most of the time here. Blah. It definately hasn't been a hot and humid summer at all.

Ok well I should probably start to get ready for work today, so I can eat and such before I leave. Just have to get through 2 work days so I can see Adam again...whoo.

Day 69

Can we just say fuck this week? Thanks.

Wednesday will be now spent hibernating. The rest of the week will now be spent in a daze between half awake and half asleep...And Sunday I can sleep it all away...oh wait Sunday is going to suck as well because I get to go to a like five hour fucking church service for Cousin # 9's baptism in three different languages. Great. Nobody wants me to have any fun this week.

Argh off to work...

Day 62

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I would say I'm hovering somewhere between a 2 and a 5 the majority the time these days. And today we got to throw in some knee pain thanks to hauling books down to storage multiple times today. I'm falling apart. Should a 19 year old be facing a pain level of even 2-5 everyday? Argh.

I've found that stress makes it worse, now today I wasn't too stressed out but the physical labor drove it up today. Although coming home and recieving a low blow didn't help me any.

I think I'm going to go work on a different project instead of sitting here griping.

Day 61

I'm up and mostly ready for the day just sore still. Yeah, left side of my body still shulder down my leg. Just annnoying...blah.

Maybe more of an update later, gotta finish getting ready to walk up to the bus.

This is What I Do at Work....

Well on a good day that doesn't have me hauling boxes and books and heavy things that make my arms hurt haha.

Day 54

Itchy oh so itchy. I need a nice oatmeal bath or something. No I don't have chicken pox but I do seem to itch all over with a rash in places. I wish it would stop it's been driving me crazy all day. Gah I feel like I'm going crazy with all this itching. What's wrong with me? Gah....plus I somehow have gotten a nice sized bruise on the top of my foot...WTF? Where'd that come from?

Ah anyways on a side note, tommmorrow we release the butterflies at work. I get to assist whoo. Haha.

I can't concentrate enough to write anything at the moment...

Day 50

After a horrendously shitty day, I can't even count on the one thing I look forward to everyday. But apparently my favorite part of the day isn't that important, so I'll probably just head to bed at 11 instead of sitting around waiting. By 11 I'll have waited an hour and a half, and I have to be at work super early tommorrow. Plus the only thing that's on TV is stuff about Michael Jackson. Oh boy.

Started the day off feeling blah, and ending the day feeling shitty; in multiple ways. I definately feel like I need a week of hermtized days. I honestly don't feel like doing anything other than sleeping or lying in bed staring at a wall or something exciting like that.

I've officially decided that if I can't get the 8 grand that I need for school, I'm dropping out. I know I'm going to loathe anywhere else than BSU so what's the point? Plus I'd have to change my major...and I don't know what the hell I'd change it to. So fuck it. Where do I sign up for welfare? I'll join the drain on the enconomy...as a big FU to the financial aid people for giving me shit this year. FYI kids, if you have a 3.6 GPA and make the Deans List that still doesn't qualify you for the Academic Competiveness Grant. It's times like these that I almost wished I drank or something that makes you either numb out or pass out. Too bad I don't like puking though because I'm pretty sure if I took something that did that too me, I'd be sick...so I'll pass. Hey maybe the world will really end 2012 and I won't have to worry...one can only hope. heh.

Alright well almost 11, time is running out...just another shot to the gut/heart wherever you'd prefer to hit me.

Day 48

So I have to admit that I probably should've gone to bed earlier than 1 AM last night. I am pretty tired at the moment but I was enjoying the conversation too much to even consider getting offline any earlier. Plus work being incredibly boring today didn't help me much either.

Only three more days of work till the weekend, and then I get to spend all day with the Boy :-). Seriously can't wait.

I am randomly watching a show about stress on PBS. Yeah, I'm the only kid you know who willing turns on PBS to watch something on a regular basis haha. It's a National Geographic Special haha.

Well I'm not sure what else I want to say so this is it for me tonight.

Day 42

We're 18 days away from approaching the two months at home mark. At that point, I'll only have roughly 3 weeks of work left. Whoa. Not that that is a bad thing.

Had today off since I have to work Saturday. It's been nice, spent the morning with Adam. Took a nap this afternoon and woke up and swallowed and had the worst pain I've ever felt in my life in my throat and ears. Oh wow, my throat still hurts when I move my head in a certain way and when I swallow. So yeah...what the heck?

Drove around in the Audi today, I don't know I think when I get a car, I want something younger, not that it isn't nice to drive...but I felt kind of old driving it haha. Plus, no aux out on the stereo...lame. Stuck listening to lame ass Ft. Wayne radio stations...blah. I've actually gotten a lot of driving in the past two days haha, I've literally been all over town. Tommorrow I do it all again as well. I dunno it's just unusual for me.

Not looking forward to the next few days, blah. I want to fast forward to Monday, please and thank you. Plus I get paid again next Friday. Hopefully this computer won't act up again, yeah it had another one of it's...Hi I'm not going to turn on for you episodes this week. Grr. I really don't want to be dropping that kind of money for yet another laptop, plus going through a laptop a semester, probably not good. Ah well I need to find something to do this weekend, gotta have something to look forward to. We'll see what I can come up with....

Ah well have to go pick up the moms soon, so that's all for me now.

Day 37

Tired, my lips are extremely chapped. We were at CVS tonight too..should've stopped into to get some chapstick...wasn't thinking lol. Luckily chapstick is cheap, I always seem to lose those stupid things. Plus I can buy it with the dollar I found today haha.

I don't know what I'm going to do tonight, should've went upstairs on my lunch and looked for a movie...but didn't ah oh well...maybe I'll read or watch some ER. We shall see, at the moment I'm hungry and ready for dinner.

I don't know lately at work I've just felt like a loser, I'm the youngest one there, and I feel like everybody talks down to me. I know I'm not as "stylish" or whatever as the other girls, but why waste the money on clothes I'm only going to be wearing regularly for a couple of months? Ah I don't know...work is just kind of a lonely place unless I'm interacting with kids in the computer lab...that's become my new favorite place to be.

Plus I've had the reverse homesickness kicking again...just longing to be back in Muncie. Gah, I'm seriously really really really really really looking forward to school. Oh how I miss it. I miss Noodles...I miss Atrium food, I miss Woodworth food, I miss super hot shower water, I miss music in the bathroom, I miss being with Adam and my friends everyday, I miss Late Night, and movies, and just all of it. Gah I'm pathetic aren't I? Ah oh well...that's how I feel.

Oh! And I talked to Jake last night and found out that Matt and Ethan are coming to BSU in the fall..Schweet. Well mostly about Matt...never really hungout with Ethan. But should be even more good times. Although they'll be living in the honors dorms boo. Ah oh well...still looking forward to going back regardless.

And...to whoever you are from Nobelsville who is constantly reading my blog, Hi!! I still have yet to figure out who you are and if I know anybody from Nobelsville. Last summer I got lost there on the way to Warped but that's about it haha. Maybe it's the guy from Goodyear who gave us the directions haha. Doubt it.

Day 35

Oh, what a day...

It rained today so the library was esepcially busy. I had to assist numerous patrons today. And the two hours I worked Desk 2 were complete chaos. Plus after that I stayed out on the floor for the next hour to pick up a bit and make sure things didn't get too crazy again because Meg was left there to fend for herself without a computer room person to assist. Things that happened today; Some kid peed themselves in the computer room gah, a toy got thrown up on top of the playscape which I had to track a ladder and retrieve myself, I had to call security on a group of older kids who were smoking and wiping their noses on the windows. All that coupled with helping numerous people find books they were looking for and pushing the Summer Reading Program on yet more people has worn me out.

Oh and did I mention that the weather is making my body currently hate me? Yeah, ask me what joint doesn't hurt at the moment...knees, fingers, wrists, shoulders.

I also found out today that it's a good thing I got hurt at school or I would've been screwed if I had really seriously gotten hurt/sick in the future. Stupid insurance company. Not that my shoulders have fully recovered....they still ache when I stretch too far or sometimes while I'm just sitting....things take time to heal when they get used all the time heh.

I think that I'm going to collapse into hopefully a nice deep sleep....I need it. As much as I want to talk to Adam...I hope he understands. I really have been longing to see him though, and I truely can't wait for this work week to be over so I can see him. Knowing that...really helps pull me through the week.