Lets See...

If last year there was roughly 100 days of summer and this summer is very similar I'm sure. I have 53 days as of today until I go back to school so that means by the end of the week summer will be half over. Which is ironic when you think about it, because today is the first official day of summer.

At least I know that for the whole month of July I will be working which is great. I don't know about any work in August though we shall see, well at the library anyways. I know I'm going to be working my ass off on desk at school when we go back for the first two weeks, can we say probably a 40 hour check for the first pay period? Yeah it's going to be that insane.

I'm ready though, the only thing I want to do the rest of the summer is have fun with Adam when possible (when we're both not working haha), find some stuff in my room I've been looking for that I really need to find, and then get my bike out so I can start building up that cardio endurance again that I had the summer before my freshman year of college so I'm not dying in aerobics this fall. I know I can do it, it's just a matter of getting back into shape. I noticed yesterday that my lifting at work has definitely toned my arms, maybe not Jillian Micheals toned but if I flex there's definite muscle definition.

So now I just wait for financial aid award letter, which will come in July hopefully. And for roommate assignment which will probably come towards the end of July. I'm more nervous about the second one. What are the odds that I'll get another roommate who's pretty cool?

But anyways I thought I'd just express my excitement at realizing summer is pretty much half-way over. On July 14th, I'll have roughly a month to go. And that's roughly 3 weeks away so yeah. A month and 3 weeks to go. As much as I don't like work sometimes it really does help the days not drag sometimes. Having fun people at work helps like Lauren and Elaine. Anyways I should get dressed or something for the day.

Day 97

I'm not supposed to blog about how I feel, it upsets people.

No outlet anymore, except for maybe my pillow. It may be a little soggy tonight.

I love how the last spoken words I heard today were "Screw You" thanks.

3 more days. And I guess since I have no purpose for blogging anymore, I may as well lay this thing to rest. This is quite possibly my last entry...so goodbye everyone.

Day 96

My 100 or so days of summer are coming to an end. Lately I've been watching a lot of Joan of Arcadia. I was shocked that Adam cheated on Joan...I was like wtf you ass hole. Haha Too into my shows I guess. Only a couple of episodes left though and I'll have seen them all (short lived show only 2 seasons)

Tommorrow Adam and I venture to the zoo, it should be fun. Haven't been since well last summer about this time. Then Wednesday is a rest day and Thursday I'm getting a haircut and then sometime that day Adam and I are going to B-dubs one last time. haha I know I've said that before but this will definately be the last time eating there in the Fort. Then Friday last minute packing before heading to Muncie or dare I say home on Saturday. Seriously ready even though I got an email today saying that the Atrium will be the only dining location open until lunchtime on the 19th...boo. Oh well haha. Atleast it's better than being here until then. The 19th we will eat dinner at Woodworth to celebrate being back together..or maybe anyways haha nothing is set in stone.

Alright well I think I may either go for a bike ride or watch my last two episodes of Joan of Arcadia.

Day 94

You know, I think I"m getting better at this gift thing I really do. I know this one will be liked a lot. I'm pretty proud of myself haha. Went a little bit over budget but would've spent more if I wouldn't have bought it online, especially new. But that's all I'm saying about it. Plus it's all in the hands of the US Postal Service now.

Anyways Adam is actually on his way over right now so we can go bike riding and hangout and such. So that'll be fun. Hopefully it doesn't rain. Looks like it could but the radar shows it all north of us so we'll see.

Umm...might start packing tommorrow...again we'll see how motivated I am.

Ok well I'm going to go finish getting ready tis all for me now kidz.

Day 92

Tommorrow is my last day of work at the Library. Yes. I'm ready for my well deserved 7 days off before returning back to school. It almost feels like I've been in school the past few months, just without the homework haha. Everyone I'm remotely friends with at work is leaving as well and we're all heading our seperate ways. But if we all come back next summer it'll almost be like school all over again haha.

Anyways got a free cucumber today at work, I got on the bus and showed my mom and she just laughed and pulled a cucumber out of her bag as well that she got free at work lol.

I'm ready. I'm ready for the things Adam and I have planned this next week and to start packing. And to get my hair cut and everything. I'm ready. Yep, excited.

Well now back to watching Joan of Arcadia haha.

Day 90

I saw KJ tonight at work, haven't seen her inforever, haha fun times junior yeat at lunch with Bob, Ian and company playing BS and then you know not being able to sit in our usual spot due to the drive-by threat this year. Ah oh well just cool seeing her again.

Anyways work was boring...if death was really caused by boredom, I'd be dead. Luckily only 3 more days. And I get off at 6 everyday Thank God.

I'm beginning to hate WOW. It discourages conversation, and...yeah. Lameness. Especially after having a super lame day already. The only highlight of my day so far has been reading my book because it's really good lol. So yeah...if that's the highlight that just proves how lame my day has been.

So I don't know, I guess I'll see how long I'm kept waiting, it' been well over 10 mins already. Almost 20 actually. Argh...I can't stay up late tonight either since I have to get up early for work. This is most definately not helping my day any.

Day 89

1 Day down, 4 to go this week work wise. Yes. Work is getting extremely boring again as we are stuck doing task slips the majority of the time and only being scheduled on desk for 2 hours as it is in my case tommorrow.

I'm trying to be good by cutting my portions and sweets haha but tonight I was at Walmart and saw this lemon cupcake with lemon frosting on sale and mannn I couldn't resist so the momz bought it for me. But other than that and the marshmallows we're toasting I'm going to behave myself. I realize that my eating over the past few days has been a bit out of control. And I don't want to face consequences of that, actually already have eating like that makes my stomach hurt/causes heartburn sometimes, so better to cut back anyways.

You know, the only thing I missed this summer was a good BLT. We usually eat em' a few times a week in the summer and I haven't had one this summer. Well partially because we no longer have a toaster, and a blt has got to be toasted. Man I need to track down somebody with a toaster at school and then all I'd need is some bacon and a tomatoe, ehh lettuce is always optional lol and may you can get in those little packets haha. Anybody else up for a Bacon Tomato Sandwhich? Geeze now I wish we were having those instead of Pork Chops haha, and those damn Asain Vegetables we always seem to eat now, why not mix it up with some corn or peas or carrots or something else! Gah! Or some Baked Beans, I think we've eaten those once this summer. Man...next summer I'm making a list of must have summer foods/meals. Like in the winter when I'm rarely home I want chili and stew haha.

Actually I need to stop talking about food because it's just making me hungrier and hungry for things that we're not having...yeah even Tuna Noodle Casserole sounds amazing at the moment, not that the way we make it is bad...it's yummers. Alright well off to see how this food is coming along.

Day 86

I came close to being very royally screwed tonight but thank god everything is ok. Big sigh of relief coming from me tonight haha.

I leave 2 weeks from tommorrow. Yes! So I'm tying up loose ends here (not very many and not too many of significance actually) and thinking about starting to pack but in all reality not making any progress at all. Once I get through this last week of work I'll spend the week after packing and sorting and what not.

Work is going to be wierd without the SRP desk, ohhh Summer Reading and how I hated asking kids if they wanted to sign up haha, actually won't be so bad unless we run out of task slips again which would be mucho bad. But we still do have the computer room but that still only leaves desk stuff for dos personas at a time.

Anyways deviating from work, I was thinking about my major again today, and how maybe I'd like to switch it...bottom line...decided to leave it and keep my minor as well. Mostly because all the business minors require Econ blah no thanks. We shall see how it all goes.

Alright well I'm assisting in the makin of Teryaki Chicken tonight, and yeah..I stupidly didn't get any movies from the library to watch but oh well there's always tommorrow.

I feel like my entries lately have been mucho boring...ah oh well I guess.

Day 83

I've picked up another extra week at work so my last day is officially set in stone as August 7th. Which is nice, because as of now I have quite a bit to do at work with these media kits we're currently going through. Shelf-reading sucks but I don't mind the other work I'm doing.

I also got out of jury duty today obviously, and I read online that I can't be called again for 2 years...which is fine by me.

So I'm watching ER on DVD of course and am trying to figure out what I'm going to eat before I go to work today.

The past couple of days I've been hungry for b-dubs knowing that we're going Thursday night after work with a group of people.

Alright well I'm out of things to say...aside from only 17 days to go!

Day 81

So this weekend has been pretty great, aside from me spending too much money haha.

Friday night Adam and I made homemade mac and cheese and watched a movie. Saturday we went to the mall had Sarku of Japan and I ended up buying a chair and a mattress pad thinger majigger haha. Then today he shows up at my house with cookies, just because I randomly said they sounded good.

Yesterday I also began organizing a little bit for packing purposes. Mostly just freed up a bag and threw some stuff out. I'm saving the clothes sorting for the last possible minute or few days any ways.

This week...possibly jury duty, B-Dubs for sure Thursday night with everybody, and whatever else happens. We shall see.

Still don't know if I'm working any longer than this week, I suppose I'll find out sometime this week considering the first day of August is Saturday.

Alright well just going to hangout for a bit then shower. Exciting I know.

Day 78

So yesterday was a good news day, Adam is now officially an independent student, which means he's coming back to school with everyone! YES! Oh and I emailed my new Hall Director and I am still on opening committee so I get to move in on the 15th, which means I'm only 22 days away from moving in. Oh man I can't wait. It'll be great being back in Muncie.

Next week is potentially my last week of work unless I get extended a few more days into the following week we shall see. I know it's not the most exciting job but I'm willing to suck it up and hang in there until August 7th to haul in that extra paycheck. So we shall see, August schedule should be out sometime this week or early next week.

Everything is slowly falling into place, and I can officially be excited now. The only that could be better is the weather, seriously doesn't feel like July at all. It's rainy and chilly most of the time here. Blah. It definately hasn't been a hot and humid summer at all.

Ok well I should probably start to get ready for work today, so I can eat and such before I leave. Just have to get through 2 work days so I can see Adam again...whoo.

Day 75

Oh Radio Edits...how amusing they are. I was sitting in the car at the 3rd Walgreens of the night and was flipping stations and happened to catch Don't Trust Me on the radio and the radio edit honestly made me laugh. What's the point of having a radio single where like chorus is constantly cut off haha. Ah anyways...whatever.

Now I'm just sitting here waiting to eat, story of my life. We're having Chinese of the frozen variety. So eh no Hot n' Sour soup dammit lol.

I really don't have much else to say for myself for the moment, too hungry and sore, and tired. Also the story of my life.

Day 73

I live, I'm just tired and as soon as my peas get harvested on farm town I'm hitting the rack. The last couple of days have been busy but yet great at the same time.

Throw in the fact that the court systems really really want me to be on jury and whoo lol. Yeah July 28th, I may possibly have to go down to the courthouse. Exciting I know. blah.

Ah well the peas have been finished so tis all for me tonight kids.

Day 70

Well today turned out a million times better than I expected it would.

Went and saw Harry Potter with Adam, caught the 10:30 showing, then went and had lunch at Sarku of Japan, and we hungout for a little bit after that before he dropped me off at home so he could head to work.

So I was bored and I'm the quest for a backpack so I thought hey one place I haven't checked out is Kohls, so I did, found one I liked and it was onsale. So I called around to different stores and found one that had it haha. So we went and got it after we picked up my mom from work. Beats paying 7 bucks for shipping and it should do the job and hold up better than a cheap Walmart one.



Speaking of Walmart went there and they had sheets; bright blue ones, that I had been eyeing the other day when Adam and I had gone to Walmart for $7.50 so I was like ah what the hell why not. So I bought them too.

I'm pretty sure I'm done spending big money this week. I get paid next Friday...but still don't want to go crazy. Besides I don't really have anything else I want. No, I don't plan on buying my $60 hoodie wishes anytime soon haha. Nor do I plan on buying any new clothes aside from socks and stuff like that. When I'm done with work, I'm just going to sort through the things and see what I do and don't want to take back. But yeah all my major spending is done until it's time for text books...oh boy.

Now I'm watching Blues Brother's 2000 and waiting to eat and such, but once again it's almost 9 at night, my parents are at Borders and no food is being cooked. Luckily lunch was super good and I cleaned my plate lol so I'm not super hungry but I could eat. Ah oh well back to the movie.

Hmmm...

Is $60 a bit much for a hoodie? I wonder what kind of discount Nick can get me? haha. But I like these...

http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/hoodies/Rhodes-Flannel-Hoodie-/index.pro

http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/hoodies/Crazy-Time-Flannel-Reversible-Hoodie/index.pro

http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/hoodies/Duck-Bill-Hoodie/index.pro?colorCd=054

Like the reversible ones better, but I would pick the most expensive ones...haha I have expensive taste, now only if money grew on trees or something.

http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/girls-backpacks/Paige-Merlot-Viceroy-Backpack/index.pro

Hmm...possible...

Anyways just bored and hungry...story of my life.

Day 69

Can we just say fuck this week? Thanks.

Wednesday will be now spent hibernating. The rest of the week will now be spent in a daze between half awake and half asleep...And Sunday I can sleep it all away...oh wait Sunday is going to suck as well because I get to go to a like five hour fucking church service for Cousin # 9's baptism in three different languages. Great. Nobody wants me to have any fun this week.

Argh off to work...

Day 68

Today well rather this morning I've been pondering the possibility of a tatoo and the locations and what it would be. Well I think I've narrowed down the 2nd part. A recurring lyric in this blog has been,

"May your Organs, Fail before your dreams fail you"

I think that's the winner, I was toying around with NFG lyrics, but I don't know none of them seemed to fit. I considered Failure's Not Flattering but I like this lyric by The Matches better.

So we'll see, it's not like I'm going to run out tonight and get this inked onto my body haha. Because yeah location, how I want it done, ect. All need to be figured out as well. Just throwing the idea out there. Who knows it may even not happen. We shall see.

Work till 9 tonight blah, but I only have to close 9 more times over the next three weeks of work...blah that seems like a lot haha.

Ok well I suppose I should finish getting ready, mostly because I've yet again been distracted by music and can't think of anything else to write.

Day 67

Got to sleep in this morning, ahhh glorious sleep!

Anyways just thought I'd write a little something here today because I haven't updated since Wednesday. The last couple of days have been pretty good if I do say so myself.

Heading to my grandparent's house today for my Grandpa's birthday, oh boy...eh. But whatever. Work again all this week but only 3 weeks left. Wowzers.

Ok well I'm entirely too busy listening to music to type something worthwhile, maybe a better update later?

Day 63 Cont...

At the moment I'm trying desperately to write this letter. I don't have one word written down. I've been sitting here almost an hour trying to figure out what to say. It doesn't help that I don't know who I'm addressing, sir? madame? commitie? bsu? I don't know my audience...which is my first road block.

But I think my major roadblock is my instincts. My instinct is not to air this stuff to the public. It scares me. I don't want people to judge me based of other people's actions. Plus, I feel like...its something I don't know enough about to really talk about. The last thing I want to do is present information that contradicts other information that is being presented, that may raise questions and put up red flags which would be horrible...all because I don't have my facts straight.

The details are all fuzzy to me at the moment, and I'll can come up with are a list of apologies...and feelings of patheticness towards myself. The details that aren't fuzzy are the ones that don't pertain to this particular situation and won't help. I'm also honestly afraid I'll go off on a tangent that definately doesn't pertain to the situation at all.

This is exactly why I've put this off...because I'm afraid to fail, and be the let down, and it looks like I'm living up to those self-proclaimed lables. Dammit, if only I could write like I used to. I'm afraid I've lost that part of me....I haven't been able to write like that in a long time.

I need shrink-a-tized don't I? Dr. Phil or Dr. Drew or any shrink really...would have a field day with me.

At the moment, I fear the reprecusions of my lack of sucess.I guess I better hope the writing juices start flowing here or I'm up shit's creek.

Day 63

I have a bad feeling, a bad gut feeling that none of this will last. I have a feeling that all of this will come crumbling down on me. Things are already falling back into their old places.

If that happens I'm throwing in the towel...

We'll see how things are by January, I have a feeling I'll most likely be permanently home by then.