Wake Up Wake up this Heaven on Earth...Oh yeah.

Tommorrow is the day, we're leaving bright and early...8 AM yikes. haha. I'm pretty much all ready to go...just you know have to get dressed tommorrow load up the water and we're good to go.

I'm full of liquids right now haha, kinda got a head start on hydrating. It helped when we went to Cedar Point last year. So I figured it wasn't a bad idea.

I'm excited...even though I'm kinda half awake half asleep right now.....I didn't go for my bike ride today so I haven't really done enough today to wake myself up. I am hungry though...lunch was a long time ago...and having steak tonight yums.

Brand New is coming to Indy in September...and I'll be fairly close but in school, so we'll see. You never know what may happen, I didn't think I'd be going to Warped this year but here I am going. It should be fun...and hot. But wayyy better than sticking around the Fort another mind numbing day.

Alright well I'm off to well I don't know yet...but do something.

I Used to Have So Much Faith When I Started...

Just got back from a bike ride. There was some stuff bothering me majorly this morning that definately killed yesterday's mood. Stuff...that I'm not even going to get into because I'm really tired of always expecting the worst. I'm tired of getting up for the letdown. For all I know I could be thinking of the worst circumstances for no reason at all. So if it turns out that way....then it does...but I'm not going to harp on it before it even happens.

I just knew I had to get out and ride. I knew I couldn't sit in my room watching TV dwelling. I had to clear my head. I put on my headphones and just pedaled. I enjoyed the sun beating down on me, the slight burn in my lungs, the tightness in my thighs and calves. I just rode...and enjoyed it. I didn't think about anything except avoiding cars and pedaling. Nothing else mattered.

I'm back and I definately feel better. Sure, I'm sitting here drenched in sweat (too much info but whatever), and I came back slightly dizzy and light headed, but I'm glad I went. It definately helped my mood. If people start asking me why I'm out riding the neighborhood all the time I'll just say it's therapy on wheels. Frankly I'd rather ride away my problems than talk about them half the time.

When I was younger my parents had bought me this soccer net that bounced the balls back to you, I used to spend hours using that thing. It'd be spring time and in dark and I'd be outside kicking the ball just to let off some steam, clear my head.

Adults or atleast people older than me by atleast 5-10 years always tell me how easy my generation has it. Half the time I think...Bull Shit. Most people I know who are my age have had to grow up way to early. Yeah I come with baggage from my childhood/teen years, stuff that will stay with me throughout my life...it wasn't my choice to have it. So I deal the best way I know how. Atleast it's not hurting me or anyone else I know.

There's too much pressure out there, pressure to get good grades, pressure to go to a good college, pressure to decide in high school what you want to do with the rest of your life. How can you decide at 16 what you want to be doing 50 years from now? Not to mention all this social status bull shit. I'll admit that I worry about fitting in and how other people view me. God I've gotten off on a tangent. Sorry just venting...I'm going to go see what else I can do to stay busy.

Whoosh.

Today I kept pretty busy all day. I knew that I wouldn't be able to sit still for very long....anticipation does that to me. I did manage to sit through one episode of ER but that was about it. I made my lunch at 11ish haha, english muffin with a sunny side up egg. Then I went to work on this computer and decided to update to IE7. I should be find as long as I don't update stupid Windows Messenger...that shit breaks my computer. Anyways while I was doing that, I got out my laptop and put itunes and stuff on it. So I'm good to go on that front.

I got my housing assignment while doing my itunes shiz, so I added the roomie on facebook. She seems pretty cool so far. After I got done with all that, I went for a bike ride. I got sidetracked and went to Erin's for a bit just to prove I'm alive I guess. Then I finished my route before heading home to do dishes.

After that the brother and I decided to play ping pong with his new table top ping pong kit he got at Barnes and Nobles. Gah. It was ok...would've been better if we had an actual ping pong table. I definately put on some ping pong attire to make it extra fun.




Yeah went to the store/library with my parents....and here I am waiting for food to get done. Stoffers did the cooking again tonight.

Oh...and I'm rediscovering Goldfinger again...it's been too long since I've listened to them. Not counting today...2 days left! Now...I'm going to go be lame and watch Gossip Girl...and then Bourdain later tonight(but there's nothing lame about Anthony Bourdain.)

Sunday Secrets

So as I do every Sunday I checked the new secrets on postsecret and I thought of one of my own and made a picture...I dunno if I'll submit it but it may end up on a blog on myspace before I leave for BSU. heh...we'll see. My plan is to write one last hoorah for that blog before I leave...I've wanted to sit down and write it...but I think it's too soon, and haven't quite figured out what I want to say yet.

Saturday Afternoon

Hmm...the DirecTV guy is here. He's not bad looking haha. I'm waiting for our lunches to get done. I haven't eaten since last night when we went out to Halls either...heh. But after this we'll have 95 HD channels instead of like 15. So mostly I'm bored...and just waiting to get this lunch ordeal over with because then we're going to the store to get some snacks and stuff for Thursday!!! Super excited, even charging up the Dell for the trip down.

Holy crap, the dude is on the roof right now...right above my room. Dish Numero 3 is being put up. No...we don't have 3 dishes on our roof, this is just the third one we've had. I'm bored, so....I'm going to stop talking now.

Still No Roomie...I'm getting pissed.

Before 9 on a Saturday...what?

So couldn't sleep anymore so I just got up. I'm too excited. Plus I lay around too much during the day so I really wasn't all that tired anyways. 5 days to go! Plans are being made, lists are being made of stuff to bring. I'm stoked. It's like making of list of stuff I need to take with me to school in August...which by the way keeps growing, but mostly just so we're prepared. It's kind of funny though because I don't even think we thought to bring this much stuff to Cedar Point with us....where we stayed the night and drove a good 3 hours. This is 2 hours away...and we're not staying the night.

Of course we have to look at how long we sorta planned the whole Cedar Point thing out...months practically.....and we had to convince our parents which took weeks literally. This time that part was easy 10 minute phone call and I was done. They trust Josh more...especially after some stuff I enlightened my parents too the other day. Plus I'm pretty sure nobody will mess with me with my 6'4" friend at my side...yeah he's a foot taller than me. haha.

Anyways, I'm either going to go mow the grass than jump in the shower or shower and tell the brother to mow...so later kidz.

3rd Update Today, I Know.

But I've called Josherz and he's all set to go next Thursday! YES! Finally! Sarah is going to Warped. I know most of your are like...good for you the line up pretty much sucks this year but whatever I don't care. Last year I missed out on NFG. But this year....atleast we have Say Anything right?

Yeah I definately just got back from buying a 24 pack of water. This trip will probably set me back at good 50-60 bucks depending on gas prices which are back down to 3.99 hopefully to drop more before next Thursday. It's always cheaper near Indy anyways. Yeah...I'm going to call my mom now and tell her...I'm just a little hyper!

Holy CRAP!?!?!

I won Warped Tour Tickets AGAIN! So...I'm definately going to be calling up Josherz this afternoon to see if he's working next Thursday. I hope he's not and doesn't have any plans. God I hope I can actually use these tickets this year!?!

Now lets top off the day by getting that roomie!

I Have a Home.

So somebody on the BSU 2012 group on facebook figured out a way to find out what dorm we're living in. So I am no longer homeless haha, I'm living in Brayton the pre-tcom dorm. It's an all girls tower...but hey most of the time the floors vote on 24/7 visitation so no biggie. Because I think if I had to deal with girls all day....all week, I'd go crazy. No offense but yeah I just would.

Now I just need the official housing assignment in the mail so...I can find out who my roomie is! Grr. Hopefully that'll come today...I think it'd be funny if I ended up with Krystel, I'm not sure she went random though.

Reserved Text Books last night. If I don't manage to get any used books...yikes. I'm looking at roughly 200 for Espanol alone. Ha the text books will probably cost more than my laptop did. Gotta love college.

Breakfast Club?

So...I was watching Gossip Girl (we've already established I'm lame...lets move on) and I hear a very very familiar song come on as I'm about to get up and go eat. Yeah...Don't You Forget About Me covered by NFG comes on..and I sit there with my mouth hanging open....going NFG song on a commercial!?! Whoa! I never thought I'd see the day...haha not that I'm mad or anything I just thought it was cool. So look out for the new JC Penny Commercial which is basically a Breakfast Club remake montage.

Oh and Chad is such a tease. I was on movie scenster and they were talking about this commercial and some kid was like well I only like Sticks and Stones and Chad goes...we'll wait until you've heard the new album that Mark Hoppus produced for us. Gahhh I'm impatient.

No Roomie yet.

Hopefully Luck is On My Side This Year (again)

This weekend went nothing like I thought it would but it was actually better. Saturday the brother and I were supposed to go to an all day training thing at church for video/powerpoint. But only 4 total people showed up and 3 of us knew pretty much everything there is to know...so they let us go home. Unfortunately nobody had dropped the car off for us yet so we walked home but we don't live that far....it was just really hot. So then we got to attend the my mom's company picnic. My Dad and I agreed it would've been a lot better if they'd rented a pavillion at Indiana Beach...haha so for the lameness of the party we took a bunch of cookies and chips home with us. What? Nobody was going to eat them...they were going to pack them back up.

Yesterday we all woke up late so no church. We went down to TRF. HOT. I got a corn dog and a frozen chocolate covered banana myyyy favorite part. Plus I got like 10 free samples of toothpaste lmao. We went over to the Old Fort (you know...why it's called Fort Wayne....there actually is a fort here...that's open....err once a year lmao. We rode the model-t bikes. My mom wouldn't let me drive heh. Then we came home and relaxed had some kobe burgers (amazingx100) and killed time until the fireworks. Went to our usual spot and saw em'. Pretty good, just wish they'd shoot the fireworks off the bank building downtown for 4th of July...but that'll never happen heh.

This morning....I get an email from thetruth.com to take another quiz for Warped Tickets...yes I could've possibly won again. The line-up kinda sucks this year but am I lame for wanting to see Angels & Airwaves just say I've seen Tom Delonge live? Plus FREE tickets so ....all I have to pay for is half the gas...and food/water. Which water I'm sneakin' in. So...don't let me down this year kids, it's the summer before I start college....lets let this Warped dream happen this time...granted I win again. I'm still pissed that I missed out on seeing NFG last year...ohhh my life would've been almost complete then. Of course if my Dad win's or somehow winds up getting Brickyard tickets for next weekend(not likely) then god...might as well leave me in Nobelsville on the way back and I'll campout at Walmart or White Castle or something haha. Anyways July 31st which is a...Thursday, next Thursday to be exact...keep it open. I have a junker car we probably shouldn't be driving on the highway at 70 mph so if you have a better one, I'll split the gas and buy you some White Castles or something. And of course the ticket!

Anyways, going to the library later...what's new? Ha. Oh...no roommate yet. No Housing Assignment yet....I'm getting antsy.

This Makes Me Really Happy.

Oh and the tracklisting for New Jack's Mannequin makes me even more happy!

Track Listing
01) Crashin
02) Spinning
03) Swim
04) American Love
05) What Gets You Off
06) Suicide Blonde
07) Annie Use Your Telescope
08) Bloodshot Eyes
09) Hammers and Strings (A lullaby)
10) Drop Out - The So Unknown
11) Orphans
12) The Resolution
13) Caves

No Roomie news yet as of today....but other than that....I'm doing great!

It Burnt A Hole in My Pocket...

I made my return trip to the mall today. I probably spent more than I should but everything I bought was onsale aside from the BSU lanyard and lunch. I did get the Penguin shirt, and two pairs of shorts...along with another shirt I was going to buy a few weeks ago at full price and am glad I waited, it was the last one...it just happened to be in my size....and I got it for $8 instead of $26.

Queso Crunchwraps aren't that great.

My mom came home and I showed her what I bought...she made me try on one of the pair of shorts I got saying that my ass would hang out of them....yeah no ass revealage...sorry mom. People will see my tan line from wearing athletic shorts most of the summer but aside from that...no bigge..that'll fade and I'll just have the scary pale legs again haha.

Josherz wants to hangout Thursday...we haven't figured out anything to do yet though...and I have no ideas, so we'll see.

Ick I just looked at the lastfm beta...not sure if I like it....why would my about me section be wayy off in never never land where people wouldn't see it? If they go to that format...I hope some changes are made first. It's kind of crowded. I hate crowded webpages. It drives me nuts.

Still waiting for my housing assignment....that's driving me nuts too.

Monday Mall Trips....

So...got hauled to the mall today by the grandparents....yeah it's like an old people school. My Grandma even calls the food court the cafeteria. She knows all the security guards and other old people who hangout there. Anyways we were in Penny's and they had this Penguin shirt onsale that I reallllyl want....and a Transformers shirt that I want too...so...I think I'm going to have to go back and get em' yes. And then another pair of jeans at Sears so I can finish up my giftcard. Yeah...money is now burning a whole in my pocket. Haha. I may even put 10 bucks of gas in the car just so I know I can safely make it there and back ehh. Oh and I saw Bree there...with some other chick and this other guy....where was Kyle? She was kinda all over this dude....ahh for High school drama...heh.

I'm tired...and I think we're going to the library when the parents get home.

Monday Mornings....

So this past weekend was pretty jam packed. Friday night my Dad brought me home an external hard drive. One of those cool blueberry ones that's designed by the Italian sports car designer dudes. We'll come back to that later haha.

Anyways Saturday the wedding went really really really well. Even though it was extremely hot/humid. But me showing up there has gotten me roped into an all day training boot camp for the middle school kids next weekend. I hope my stomach stops acting up by then. ugh. It's been hurting pretty badly after I eat.....I mean it can be cheerios...or a cracker and it'll hurt. So Saturday after the wedding I rushed home because it was 3:30, and I had to be at my Aunt's by 4. I get home pull my hair back and we leave. It was a pretty good time, I guess.

Sunday Morning, we all woke up late so we didn't go to church, but I decided to try to start transfering my music over to my laptop. So I plug the drive into my hub because those are the only USB ports I have free....it doesn't work...because it's not getting sufficient power. Heh so...we had to go off to Best Buy to get a card to put two more usb 2.o ports in my computer....and we ended up going all over town on the search for Kobe Beef Burgers...from Josef de quis or whever.....both of the meet markets that carry them where out...so we had to settle for steak that cost less than the burgers...haha yeah we're talking 10 bucks for 2 patties. Anyways then it's like 1:30....so...we get some Subs at Penn Station....pretty good....stuff. They cook their fries like Cedar Point does, in Peanut Oil....we didn't have any...but we knew they'd be good.

We were barely in the door and my Grandpa shows up haha....wow. So he stays awhile. My dad fixes my computer to run with the my new drive, then it transfers the music in like 20 minutes. Thank God for USB 2. So I've successfully put music on my laptop too. Now....this week...I need to figure out the whole book situation...because, we need to get the ones we can get deals on online...so they'll ship intime for me to move. Even though I'm feeling really really guilty about my parents dropping almost a grand on me last week, between, comforters, computer, drive, mouse, new PCI card for a computer I won't be using in a month, senior pictures, shoes....yeah it's a lot. But they want me to save the cash I have for any unforseen expenses while I'm down there. Which is ok I guess.

Busy. Busy. Busy.

Whoo, I'm tired. I'm sitting here in bed on my laptop watching George Lopez. I just got home about twenty minutes ago from helping my Dad clean computers. Being outside on hot cement blowing the dirt out of computer cases when it's 90 degrees out is always fun haha. Plus earlier today, I mowed the lawn so I'm pretty beat. Tommorrow I have a wedding so I'll have made $75 in two days...not too shabby.

Tommorrow, we're also going over to my Aunts house for a cookout/b-day party for my Grandpa. It should be kinda fun right? Anything is better than hanging out at home all the time.

Oh, and proofs are up online of my pictures that I had taken yesterday but....my mom is out washing towels and has my username and password so I've yet to look at them. At first the whole picture thing was ackward but it got better, so hopefully there a few good shots. We shall see...hopefully she gets home soon anyways....I'm getting hungry eh. So maybe tommorrow if I have time...or Sunday I'll get a few of the good pictures up on here...we'll see.

I kind of want to spend some of this cash ya know? In cash on me...I have...wayyy more than is safe to carry around...I think I only have like 50 in my wallet right now. Plus aside from cash before I leave for school, my mom is going to get my 150 out of her bank account to give back to me. So...I need like a safe or something ahh.

Ok...well I'm going to watch the news....and just relax...so that's all for now kidz.

Another Thursday...

So I've set my laptop up...aside from moving all the music on my PC to my laptop and putting itunes on there. But I've ripped cds, and installed lastfm, office, set up favorites, ect. Plus my Dad bought me a wireless mouse so it's really a pretty sweet setup. And unfortunately....Vista is slowly growing on me. I'm still not a huge fan of tabbed browsing...but whatever right? XP has its fair share of problems too and well...this computer is outdated...haha. I don't have the latest versions..of err...anything on here because my old as Dell Jukebox wouldn't work with it....and every time I'd update software my machine would go...nope. I'm going to puke out on ya...so I finally just gave up heh. Probably pick up a portable hard drive sometime this weekend or next week...and I'll be goooood to go.

I'm sitting here just waiting for my pictures I'm heading to Auburn to take at 4 this afternoon. I'm already in my first outfit..haha nothing too impressive annnd.....have my hair down and straightened. So it's not a giant poof ball. It would look better if had more shape to it but...it's grown back...and I'm waiting until like a week before I leave for BSU to get it cut. Plus I'm not entirely sure how I want it cut yet.....I don't want to go super short again.....and I want it thinned out with layers for sure. But we'll see. Gah I'm kinda anxious and bored.... I just want to get these stupid pictures over with.

Over-Used Word of the Day....Stoked.

So I'm pumped x10000000, right now. Seriously, we go to Home Depot tonight to make a few color copies.....end up walking out the door with a brand spankin' new toshiba laptop that does everything the dell does, has more memory....and is about 300 bucks cheaper. Yeah. Stoked. Plus we're having tacos tonight. We haven't had tacos in FOREVER. Yeah...stoked.

Then I get home and I'm curious and reading blogs and what not....new Jack's Mannequin album....SEPTEMBER 9TH!!! AHH YES! I'll definately be getting on that bus down at Muncie to go to Walmart or the mall or best buy or wherever the hell it stops that has music to purchase it...that day...hell I don't have class until 2 on Tuesdays so you better believe I'm going that morning.

Ok, well I'm going to take my overly giddy self out to the kitchen to help with the tacos...and chips and salsa....yes.

It's Been a Productive Weekend.

So...today after church my Dad decided he wanted to go out to Fresh Market, which is ok with me. They had chocolate roses with chocolate mousse in them. They looked amazing. Didn't get one though, it probably would've melted before we got it back across town, home. Anyways after that we stopped at Walmart at Jefferson Pointe where they have Shoe Carnival and to my suprise my mom's like lets go get those shoes, you liked from wayyy back when were shopping for shoes for prom. So we got em'. My first pair of colored chucks....the first two pairs have been black. Plus they're even kinda Cardnial Red....or atleast they match my BSU hoodie really well.

Anyways we come home, eat and what not...then we go off to Tar-jay in search of a comforter. Yes, I got one....blues and greens, stripes....I like it. Plus a pillow and a robe....but don't think terry cloth here people it's green...and has a hood....with white polka dots on the inside. Now...I just need more storage in my room to put all this stuff before I leave ahh. I think the only stuff I really need to get are books (ehh), storage bins, hygene stuff, and another pair of pj pants. Then I'm good. So I'm going to try to find a place in my already full closet for my stuff....and put some clothes away because they're all lying on my bed right now.

Happy 4th!

4th of July used to mean, spending the afternoon at my grandparent's house...we'd have a cookout...and then around dusk we'd load up the wagon, an old green one, that has removable sides, and I'd ride in it. Anyways I'd be all loaded up in the wagon, with my snacks, and a blanket, and oh and lawn chairs attached to the sides of the wagon and we'd begin the trek over to the apartments that are the edge of my grandpa's addition. Of course this after all of us had been thoroughly sprayed down with bug spray....sticky...smelly bug spray. We'd find our perfect spot along Hobson....right across from the empty field that seperated the apartments from IPFW. Then we'd watch the fireworks being shot off from the baseball stadium, and listen to the radio because they always broadcast the philharmonic live. The best part was going back to my grandparents' house though....because they lived on a slight hill and there hardly ever is traffic on it....So...my dad would push the wagon and I'd steer it into the driveway haha. Sure it changed a bit as I got older and too big for the wagon...and my brother got dibs and then all my cousins moved back from California...and they got dibs...then they built dorms in that empty field.

You can't see crap now, from our old fireworks spot, so we don't have get togethers on the 4th anymore. I miss those. Don't get me wrong, today was pretty great. We went to Angola for the parade at 1....the best parades have Zesto handing out free ice cream sandwhiches hehe. Then we walked the mile or so to the park, where they had a small fair like thing set up....and watched the sky divers coming in...and the park is actually right near a graveyard....the graveyard that my great grandparents and great great grandparents are buried in. So we found their gravestones. Came home, and did dishes and junk and ate. Then it got dark and some guy in the addition behind us, started his own little fireworks show that lasted like 15-20 minutes...and I'm not talking like fountains and little wimpy stuff, these were the same ones that they were on the same scale of the fireworks that they were shooting off at IPFW. So....that was cool.

Of course next weekend, we can parade it up again for 3 Rivers....but no free candy or icecream at that parade and I can watch it on TV...so we'll see. But the weekend after next there'll be fireworks again for the end of 3 Rivers and they're not dumb asses and shoot them off of the big bank building downtown so there are actually a whole lot of good places to go to see them...like Lakeside middle school....heh. So...we'll see....it was just good getting out of the house.

My mom is hoping my very very burnt nose fades in time for my Sr. Pics by Thursday...lmao. They're calling me Rudolph.

Now....I'm Lame.

So lately I've been getting emailed these coupons for like food and laundry detergent....it all clicks in my head this morning....I can use these coupons when I'm at school...lmao. I'll be getting on that bus to Walmart with my fistful of coupons and getting my lucky charms 55 cents off, actually I'm not even a big lucky charms fan...but you know....other stuff. I mean a dollar off Cheerios snack mix.....they have that stuff onsale sometimes 10 for 10...that means...FREE! yeah, I'm a loser, the problem is my mom says that some stores don't accept the coupons from online....well that's what u-scans are for.

No one should let me blog this early in the morning.

Sarah is Grumpy.

So I'm cutting all the junk food out of my diet...or trying to..you know candy, cakes, and what not...God....I feel like I'm starving right now...and my head hurts, and....I'm cranky. This fucking sucks...I just want one of those ding dongs my parents brought home tonight....like riggght now. But I'm holding strong....I gotta hang in there. Grr..damn temptations. In the end....it's going to be worth it right?