This Reminds Me of Fall

I was walking to class yesterday morning, and a Something Corporate song from their album North came on. It instantly took me back to when I first got this album (which was at Target by the way), I remember it was fall and I listened to it on my huge ass discman while I raked leaves. Raking leaves never seemed to end at my house, you'd rake one day and the next day, the yard would be covered again.

Of course I have memories of listening to a lot of SoCo when I was younger, late summer nights....long car rides....they were often the last thing I heard before falling asleep. That kind of makes me miss my stero at home and it's green glow, even though I'd only really used it for TV most recently ha. When I go home in a monthish, I'm definately going to bust out my SoCo CDs and relax in bed reminiscing.

"Luckie Street"

Let's count the days until winter comes our way
We're all tired and ready to breathe
And there's a rumor that

There's a bitter cold chill in the air.
It's haunting every breath we take.
The hint of alcohol and nicotine it keeps us warm inside.
So all your fashion sense aware, the sweaters unfold themselves.
We are all alone, but we're better off by ourselves.

It's time to roll the windows down and
Feel the cold air all around.
We are heading out of town and
Not a thing can stop us now.
Get carried away.

Joe's Not My Plumber

So I'm up this late on a Thursday night because NO CLASSES TOMMORROW! That's pretty nice...yes. My building is extremely empty not many of us have opted to stay here for the long weekend. But the boy and his roomie have so it'll be fun. We picked up some DVDs to watch this weekend. Watched Duplex tonight and Blues Brothers, Little Miss Sunshine and The Illusionist are in line to watch too.

That coupled with a minor tummy ache and talking to Tom are keeping me up right now but my stomach is calming and I'll probably go to bed in a little bit. Nothing is planned for tommorrow...yay...just sleeping in and relaxing it sounds sooooo nice.

Jack's Mannequin at 1AM is always amazing too, especially at a now mostly empty BSU. So quiet...even more so than Labor Day Weekend. I like it though, it's peaceful.

Alright well I'm off to bed.

Let the Countdown Begin

Not Without A Fight.

February 09'.

Super Excited.

Fridays are Always Interesting

So I was in T-Com this morning and we literally spent half the class talking about the economy. Dr. Mike was concerned about how we felt about it and how were dealing with the whole situation. He brought up the idea of feeling "fresh post 9/11 confusion/fear". Which was an interesting way to put it, or atleast I thought so. A girl asked what we could do, and he simply said; "Pray, Vote in November, Go outside enjoy the weather, and do other things to occupy your mind/time." He's right though it is scary and there's nothing much that I as a freshmen in college can do but ride it out and hope for the best. That an avoid my now daily CNN.com views multiple times a day haha, seriously seeing those Wall Street people looking like they're going to be ill... is not comforting.

Anyways, the boy went home for the weekend so I'm going to study. Uh...yay? Well I attempted to do so and was for a good hour, and was in the 6th floor lounge when the fire alarm went off. So our whole building had to evacuate to the parking lot. Then when they finally let us in, I went to the 6th floor to retrive my stuff and I was just coming onto the 7th floor when the alarm went off again. Joy. But it stopped before we made it out of the building again so we didn't fully evacuate and just went back to our rooms. Now I'm just hanging out probably going to continue to work on my website before we go eat.

Oh the excitement of college.

"Cupid Trailer"

First ever project completed at BSU. We're all pretty proud of it. It was fun, I hope you all enjoy it as much as we do.

...Won't You Sing Me to Sleep

So far...the day has been good. Aside from being extremely tired. I'm definately come back here after astro to crash. I can't go on this tired. So...basically I have to withstand a couple more hours of wakefulness before I get to sleep...yay!

I'm glad I don't have any meetings or anything tonight because the Pain sprung an essay on us that is due Wednesday, so when I do wake up I need to work on that. Crap I lied...I have Cardnial Filmworks at Seven...but after that...nothing.

I think everything should be ok now though. Talking is always good. But at this moment...sleeping is always good too. I'm tempted to lay down right now but I'm afraid that if I do I'll fall asleep and will miss my class. Whoo Go perfect attendance lol.

I'm too tired to think of anything else to say.

I'm Just So Tired...

All I want to do today is hangout here...do some homework and just have a relaxing day free of him. Because yeah we went to bed 3ish this morning, my stomach decides to go all naucious on me....freaking sucks. I know why....damn anxiety. I haven't had one that bad in a long time. Of course it's been building up little by little all week. Luckily, I know to deal with them now and was able to get myself asleep by 4ish.

I just feel really drained today though, physically and mentally. I think I'll go attempt to eat with everyone then probably come back here to sleep or do homework for awhile before attempting to sleep again.

I'm not running this time...I can do this.

Tired of All of This Shit.

Boys...make my stomach churn. I've been from one extreme to another today and I hate it. I've gone from wanting to cry several times today to wanting punch/strangle someone today. That doesn't do a stomach good...let me tell you.

No need to re-hash again, if you really must know...you know how to get ahold of me. But hugs from Matt, Andrea, and laughing about really funny stuff in Derek's room tonight has helped calm me down quite a lot.

God I really do hope this upcoming week is extremely better and is drama free.

It's funny though I thought tonight would turn out differently...especially after a conversation had last night. But definately not, it sucked most of the time.

I should've just stayed single...life is a hell of a lot easier. But good friends are always good to have around too. So thanks to all of you guys for putting up with my temporary rage bursts haha.

Girls...don't let a guy use you for his warm body.

I'm Done.

Atleast It's Friday.....

It started feeling like October
I got stranded on the road
You know where to find me
Anytime you want me Annie,
Annie, use your telescope

So they made my life into a movie
As if I could forget those years
But I know where the time's gone
Just how well my mind's been wandering
Annie, use your telescope


On a side note, I'm drinking fuze blueberry rasberry flavored and it tastes kinda funny but I didn't really feel like eating so I just chose to drink this whopping 15 calorie drink ha. Oh and Jack's Mannequin lyrics, Annie Use Your Telescope but I'd have to say The Resolution probably is the most relatable but for something entirely different.

I'm tired, I really just want to sleep but I have to take a spanish test, I'll probably come back from Astro do my Agenda for C.A.B. send it to Sarah and crash for awhile and then see how I feel....if I'm still wiped I'll probably skip out on the film festival and just relax tonight, after the past two weeks that's all I really want to do.

Let's Get Fall Started....

So, I'm out. It feels good. I had some bad anxiety leading up to it but now that it's been done...I feel....a whole lot better. Yes.

I'm used to be independent anyways, so I feel more like myself. Plus Josherz wants to come down and hang...so that should be fun if and when it happens. Plus life here is still fun, I'm not letting this bring me down at all. I'm good...more than good, a weight is off my shoulders.

Tonight, pizza party...studying. Tommorrow classes, film festival in downtown Muncie...should be cool. Oh and more working on our trailer of course.

Ok well, since I'm feeling pretty damn good right now, I'm gonna hangout with people and do some homework.

Vauger than Vauge Entry...Can You Put the Pieces Together?

Gotta Get Out.
It's Empty.
It Seems Like a Waste of Time.
There's Gotta Be So Much More....
Gotta Get Priorities Straight.
Ackwardness My Ensue.

But Fuck....It Just Doesn't Feel Right.

Only One Thing Has....

Let's just go back...

Do It All Over....

Forget the Present....Let's Live in the Past for Once.

Have Some Fun Again....

Long Days, Long Nights, Good Music, Good Conversation, Making Everything Worth It.

This is the End. But It's Also Another Beginning Yet Again.