This Summer's Show Is...

So....I've neglected to blog and really don't have anything good to blog about either. I've been spending my days watching my shows...not even kidding a little. ER, 7th Heaven, and well I only have 1 episode of Gossip Girl to watch online...haha yeah I got sucked into watching that show, when there was nothing else on TV to watch. Plus I've started to read the books. I don't know it's fun...just knowing that life around here is nothing like that...I mean not that that's a bad thing, just saying I don't have that much drama...or you know....invitations to elborate parties every weekend. But...I'm definately cool with that, less pressure. Plus I can be me...and there's nothing wrong with that. And it's my show of the summer....last year I watched the entire O.C. series online....this year thankfully I have a better setup to watch from my computer....more comfortable than my desk chair anyways.


Oh, Matt, Jake, and Kyle stopped by yesterday...to show me Jake's new haircut....I liked him with longer hair better. But it'll grow back....and for now he wears a hat lol...not even kidding. So, I've officially seen all of my boys this week.....Josherz, Chris, Matt, Jake, and Kyle...thanks guys.

I'm also downloading hopefully it's a real copy of Start the Machine...no way was I paying to see Tom Delonge talk about himself. Guess we'll find out in about an hour...or so the torrent says. It'll give me something to watch tommorrow after I finish Gossip Girl.

Well I'm off....to watch Wife Swap and wait for the grill to be ready to make some amazing porkchops on....gotta love the BBQ. Speaking of that....Rib Fest Saturday.....I've been let down two years straight but this year....I think it's actually going to happen.

Weekend Recap.

I'm clear headed today, I promise, and not in nearly as much pain. So all is good. This weekend...pretty awesome. Josh and Chris ended up coming to the party, fun times there. Plus hanging out with Nick was awesome too. Laser Tag...Christmas break haha...apparently it's only been planned...err....for years now and we've yet to do it...but this year...definately.

So I think I need to graduate or get confirmed....every two years? lmao. I seriously can make the cash stretch forever and ever. Lets just say I'm about to hit up the sales racks at Sears again and make another killing because I have twice as much as Christmas to spend. (it's a giftcard) Probably get some shorts or you know....just hold onto it...we'll see. Ah my Aunt Suzi got me some college essentials, laundry basket, shower caddy and such. Plus....cash. I now have on me...more cash than I've ever had at once...whoa right? Plus...err checks haven't been cashed yet.

But I'm only getting what I need and saving the rest. Well mostly for next summer if I do hopefully end up getting a job at C-Point....I need rent/food money for the first two weeks. But we'll see. Let's just get through my first year of college first shall we?

Friday the 13th.

Whoa, feeling kind of loopy right now. The tips of my fingers are kind of numb...weird. Took a muscle relaxer thingy so yeah. What's funny about that is that my mom just called me and said not to pick her up from the bus stop....which is probably a good thing because I definately shouldn't be driving like this. Oh, I took one because my damn sciatica is killing me again. It started hurting a little at the begining of the week from all the walking at BSU and today it's at the point where just sitting here typing hurts. Plus maybe riding our bikes up to the library wasn't the best decision either. That coupled with all the damn rain we've been having doesn't help much either.

I'm tired...and just want to go lye back down but I need to call Josh and let him know about the party tommorrow...hopefully this will have worn off by then. Last time I took one...I woke up the next morning feeling like I was going to fall over and kind of un-aware of where I was actually at and what I was doing. I don't like this feeling....I just knew that asprin wasn't going to kill it...and I like you know...being able to sit down. Alright well off to call Josh....before I pass out...stay dry!

That's What She Said...

Orentation. Amazingly better than I thought it was going to be. Of course I had the best group ever. Seriously we were crazy awesome. I can't wait to start college now. We had Katie as our leader and she alone is amazingly fun and awesome. Seriously...I did the math, 69 days until I move in. Super Stoked. Even though I have summer reading....and have a lot of stuff to do before then....I have a feeling it's going to creep up on me faster than I expect it to.

But for now, I focus on tommorrow, I'm thinking that either tomorrow or Friday I'm going to ride my bike up to the library to get some more books/dvds and what not. I will have the car but...I'm saving money on gas...plus a little exercise wouldn't kill me, and all drag the brother with me...since all he did today was sit online playing some game called City of Heroes.

Then....Saturday is my grad party....yeah, I think I'm going to spend a little bit of the money on a whiteboard with the calender thingy on it...and a waterbottle which I was going to buy anyways for my bikerides. But other than that, and well there's a couple of cool necklaces I want to buy online (which with shipping are like $14) I'm most likely going to save my cash for college. Oh and probably a cool watch...since I think my fossil is just jacked up for life...it never did work right...too bad it cost like 80 bucks.

Laptops are being discussed...probably definately won't be getting a mac..booo...but probably a Dell Inspiron. Which just means when editing, I'll have to go the suites but I probably won't be doing too much of that during my first semester anyways. I only have 1 t-com class ah. But I'm planning on joining a t-com organization to get in with those people. Which they throw a party to help get people involved with that.

Alright well I'm going to go watch the Top Chef Season Finale!! GO STEPHANIE!!!!!

As of Tommorrow....

I'll officially be a Cardinal at BSU. Yes. Orientation the next 2 days kids. I'll be back Tuesday night. Wish me luck, that I don't oversleep or get lost....too badly.

I Wouldn't Have Said this 6 Months Ago

I keep hearing that people are worried about me for some reason or another. I'm sitting here thinking, why? Why are you worried about me now? I've gotten my shit together now. I can honestly say I'm doing pretty great right now. Why weren't you worried when I wasn't sleeping, when I barely ate, when I barely talked, when I was desperately trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me....why not then? Was that my normal? Is me feeling normal something strange to people? Is me being excited for life not normal?

What is normal?

I'm fine...don't worry. I may have changed....grown up after all of this, but that's really honestly to be expected. I could've gone one of two ways, I could be like I am now...thinking optimistically about things for once or....lying in my bed for hours upon hours staring at the TV no matter what's on contemplating quite honestly suicide but yet not having the guts to even attempt it. But thankfully I'm not in that place in anymore. Sure...I may be into different music now....I may have some new friends....I may be leaving in a couple of months...but I'm still me. I'm still Sarah....I'm just finding myself. What's life without change? I needed a change....I found one....a good one, a kind of exciting one.

Ha Smash Mouth just popped in my head;
"Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas
I need to get myself away from this place
I said yep what a conceptI could use a little fuel myself
And we could all use a little change"

Don't be scared of it.....embrace it.

Now Back to my Reality Show....

A response to the rumor mill threads on APnet which by the way are full of amazing puns that have been seriously cracking me up. Oh this is in regards to Chad Gilbert (NFG) dating Haley (Paramore) and Adam Larazza(however you spell his name from TBS) getting married after having broken up with Chauntelle(Eisley) a few months before....oh did I forget to mention that Chad (NFG) was married to Sherri (Eisley)....who is now dating Max Bemis (Say Anything) and who previously dated Jesse Lacey (Brand New) but that was before marrying Chad. haha. I just find it all amusing. Can't these people date outside of bands? Ah well more amusement for us.

"I'm still trying for the "Extremely Awkward" festival this Fall. (NFG, Paramore, Say Anything, Eisley, TBS, Brand New and on select dates: Straylight Run) "

Sorry this just amused me a lot today.....I know it's pointless and grad stuff will be up eventually heh...I'm lazy. Plus I've got to start getting stuff ready for BSU....leaving Sunday!

It's.....Graduation Day!

So in three hours I'll be walking into the main arena at the Colisieum....within the six o clock hour I'll be recieving my high school diploma. YES.

I'm more than ready for this. Don't count on me being one of those weepy kids. I'll be happy...gah it's been a long time in the making. I'm proud of myself.

Sadly a guy in my class died last night. Yeah. Moped accident. I didn't know him or anything but it's still going to be a downer, his parents are actually going to go up and recieve his diploma for him. But aside from that, I'm going to savor the moment and hopefully four years from now I'll be doing this again.....except next time with a college degree. I'm sure they'll be pictures and what not so I'll post more about the actual graduation possibly tommorrow.

Mondays....blah.

Just more frustrating moments today. Pick up the phone people....don't go saying that I'm a loser for not having a cell and come up with some lame ass excuse for not calling me so I don't drive places and then just have to turn around....POINTLESS. Seriously not even friends this time....I'm talking family yeah...

Not to mention I think my sinuses just may explode. I have the worst sinus headache right now. Damn Cottenwood. It seems that as I get older I've developed more allegeries or the allergens are just effecting me more now. Cottonwood never used to bother me....I never used to get these damn sinus headaches because of it. Then in the fall I can now look forward to my case of Bronchitis caused by who knows what.

On a plus note, two songs have pretty much ruled my day : You by Atmosphere and I Will Possess Your Heart by Death Cab for Cutie. Check em' out of course check out Atmosphere's new album When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint that Shit Gold, and Death Cab's new album Narrow Stairs....both are definately in heavy rotation right now.

By the way I parked horribly when I just came home and I'm too lazy to go attempt to park it better....so deal with it....I'm really not in the mood, especially knowing I have to mow when the parents get home. Because you know my Dad is allergic to Cottonwood too.....but I'm the lucky one who gets to mow through the snowbanks of the shit in the backyard. I need a major attitude improvement by Wednesday...and by this weekend....atleast I'm self-aware right? ha.

Say It Ain't So...

Well the weekend was good up until ya know less than an hour ago. I don't know what to feel right now, pissed....hurt...upset.....angry.....I just don't even know. I don't know if it was miscommunication or what, but I know that I drove across town for nothing. Basically twice today. Well....I take that back atleast the first time I got to see Chris, so that was worth it. But the 2nd time....nope. No point. Thanks. Gas is what $4 now. Thanks.

So I'm not in the best mood right now....I'll probably find out that they were there all along and I left for no reason because the event was listed as something totally weird and out there.

Aside from all of this though I did have a good time at Miranda's Party Saturday and seeing her again today was fun too. Oh and I've officially started to cross over to the otherside....I am now the owner of an ipod....my first apple product haha. By August I'll be the owner of a macbook. But for now I'm going to sit here and be pissed or something for awhile because I hate getting screwed over like this. I feel like calling up Matt and Jake and saying hey wanna hangout? But by now they're probably at a party or show or something. Gah luckily my parents aren't home at the moment when they do get here they'll drill me...what? why? Who? Your friends are losers....ect. ect. This will probably put a damper on me going to other grad parties as well. It only takes one to ruin the whole bunch. I should stop before I go too far.