11 Days and Counting

Last night...not the greatest. Adam got online upset, and I really just wanted to be there for him in person, because so much more can be said and done in real life. I wish I had his will power and determination. He deserves a big giant hug, and I really can't wait to give it to him. Hopefully I'll be seeing him again very very very soon.

In response, I was thinking way too damn much before I went to sleep last night, so my stomach was a bit of a mess. But again got it under control and got myself to sleep. Seriously best way to loose weight...anxiety. No joke. I'm starting to swim in these pants again, like I did when I first got them.

Then this morning I get up take a shower, and my cousin wants to start shit with me. What the hell? Where did all of this come from? Is it let's beat up on Sarah day/week? Luckily it's not one of the cousins I'm going to hangout with tonight. I have no beef with Nick, we both have our own lives and we know that, but we still hangout. I sent her a message, back so we'll see what happens, I still haven't gotten a response back.

Will I ever have a New Years Eve that's truely enjoyable? I'm still waiting...tonight will be spent wishing I was with Adam. Even though I'll be surrounded by family, it still just won't be the same...because Adam knows me better than anyone else.

12 More Days Seems Like An Eternity

Yesterday was great on so many levels. Got out of the house and actually go to do something fun without my family there breathing down my neck which is always nice. Overall it was just a pretty damn good day.

This morning I woke up really hyper just wanting to listen to music and have fun. So I did for a few hours...then ate lunch. Now I'm crashing, that good feeling is gone. Just kind of feeling blah, probably going to turn on the tv soon and just lay down. That sounds good to me anyways. I haven't had as much energy lately...partially because I haven't been eating like I should. The only reason I haven't been eating like I should is because I seem to be getting naucious a lot lately. Probably atleast once a day for the past 4 or 5 days atleast. I don't know why...and yeah this has happened before. I'm sure it'll pass just like last time. But I'm losing weight...and my pants are getting looser, I've had to start wearing my belt again haha. Of course right now I'm feeling lazy and since I'm not going anywhere I'm just in shorts.

I need to go back to school....so I can have a life again. I'm telling you being at home...drives me crazy. I have to do something...here all I do is sit...and I don't do anything. Gah.

Drum Roll Please

My first ever Itunes purchase is.... Listen To Your Friends by New Found Glory. Are you suprised? haha.

I pretty much have the ipod all set up and running now, have an IM and the Facebook app, I'm good to go haha. Just need to put more music on it. I probably won't get that much use out of it until I get to school. Even though IMing on it takes longer because it's harder to type just using one finger. But it'll work and it's still pretty cool.

Plus the main event today is me and Adam...4 months. :) By far probably the best 4 months of my life thus far.

Fuck Vista

I've never had so many damn computer issues until I had this stupid ass laptop with Vista on it. Nothing fucking works...ever.

Anybody want to buy an ipod touch from me? Fresh outta the box heh. Worthless to me, doesn't freakin' work on this hunk of junk.

I'm ready to get a really big truck and run it over. For real. I'm getting really tired of this Microsoft bull shit.

Tuesdays Always Seem to be Good.

Today was much better than yesterday. I got to hangout with the boy and anytime I get to hangout with him it's great. The only downside was falling on my ass on the ice. Haha. My arm hurts a bit but I can move it and everything so probably just sprained it or something minor like that.

It's freezing Raining out right now...if that even makes sense. Lovely weather we have here.

Since I've gotten home all I've seem to want to do is listen to music...reminds me of the old days. I like this feeling. My lastfm stats for this week should be way higher than they have been lately.

Anyways I have to pee but can't, cuz my brother broke the toliet AGAIN, and I'm kinda sleepy and can't think of anything else to blog about. So....tis all for me today kidz.

Shouldn't Be Allowed to Have Time Off School...

I hate this time of year. I hate the weather, I hate the holidays. Gah. I haven't truely enjoyed this time of year in what seems like forever. It just really hit me today. All I really want to do is hermitize myself again and lay in bed starely blankly at the TV like I usually do over breaks. Maybe that'll cure my massive headache. Maybe that'll cure only having talked to two people who aren't family since I've been home.

I've come to the conclusion that I'm a very forgetable person, and that I'll probably never be remememberd for anything. Why bother to make connections with people when you're just pushed away and forgotten about? Thanks...it makes the past 18 years of relationship building really worth it.

It's ok...it's nothing new for me. It's been this way for years. But yet it still gets to me. Obviously spending so much time alone doesn't suit me.

Back to my daytime TV shows...

The Weather Outside Is Frightful

So we had an ice storm hit Thursday night. Our power went out Friday morning at 6:30 I know this because it woke me up, battery back ups start going off and hey I wake up. Friday was spent in darkness with falling temperatures, blankets were abundant and we all huddled together in bed to stay warm.

This morning we woke up to the house nearing the upper 40's in temperature. And everyone and their mothers seemed to call my house. Including Adam which was nice because I was worried about him and Marc when they were driving back up from BSU. My brother and I spent the morning on the couch hudddled under blankets with just a radio. We finally decided to go out to lunch. We passed about 25 power trucks from North Carolina parked in the church parking lot planning out what they were going to do. So we stayed out and went to Walmart because hey atleast they had power. By the time we got back home 4:30ish the power was back on...thank God. If it wasn't we were going to go to my Grandpa's house.

Of course temperatures are still below freezing, and are supposed to continue falling. We have a wind chill advisory and they've said on the news to expect more power outages because once the wind picks up it's going to take those branches that have already begun to snap because of the weight of the ice and most likely take some of them down again. We have the heat cranked in my house just incase and the water bed turned up all the way again just incase too. Plus laptops are charged, so we can watch DVDs this time, lol my DVD driver was messed up and wouldn't read dvds but now it's fixed. This laptop is a piece of shit, it can't see my camera anymore and my webcam just randomly fucking goes out. Gah...so frustrating.

So anyways we'll see what happens, hopefully the power won't go out. We did stock up on fresh batteries to today at Walmart and candles too. But like I said I'm really hoping I don't have to use them. 1-2 inches of snow tonight and the rumor is that 6-10 inches Christmas Eve. Should've stayed in Muncie, atleast the weather was warmer, the power wasn't sporadic and more friends there to hangout with. Let's cut semester break short shall we? haha. Hey atleast now that I'm breathing warm air my chest doesn't hurt when I breathe, and it doesn't feel like someone is sitting on me. I hope all of you are having better weather than we are here.

Finally....

The long awaited 24 hour movie contest winner. Enjoy. Feedback is welcome too.

1 Down, Atleast 7 to Go.

Finals, basically already took one and have another one Saturday. I like these inquisit tests...schedule them when you want to take them.

Finishing up my first semester of college, it flew by....WOW.

Home for 3ish weeks and then back again to take on the Spring Semester.

Well, off to my last day of actual classes for the semester.

There's Weather Coming...I Can Feel It.

I woke up this morning with my usual chest pain, it sucks how that's the norm now haha. But I also woke up with my legs killing me. I hurt bad in my hips and my knees right now. This is the first year for this leg pain. Usually it the pain likes to stay in my arms/hands. They're a tiny bit sore but barely noticable against the legs right now. Doesn't really make me want to camp out for the Dark Night this afternoon/tonight. Yeah...camp out for a free movie that comes out on DVD this coming Tuesday. We're in college what do you want? ha.

I'm frustrated, worried, and just kinda want to help but there's nothing I can do. Lame.

The brother is supposed to be having toe surgery today at 2pm. If he doesn't get rescheduled for another day because a more important case takes his slot. He's just enjoying his P.E. free life currently haha.

Basically only 1 week of classes left, then finals. Then home again for 3 weeks. At this point...kinda have mixed feelings about that.