I'm not alone cause the Tv's on yeah....I'm not Crazy cuz I take the right pills...

So we went down to the Embassy tonight for that BSU thing. Waste of time. The place was jammed. Literally standing room only. I grabbed my free shirt and got out dude. Seriously if we have any questions I'll ask somebody I know down there or call em' or something. Why the hell they come to the Fort where like a 3rd of BSU's student population comes from haha and book the hotel lobby of the Embassy is beyond me. They should've gone for the Grand Wayne Center...it was sitting across the street empty. Well...seeing as Bill Clinton is coming there tommorrow night it probably would've had to been moved anyways. But whatever....get a school gym somewhere people..seriously. Don't waste my time and gas with some lame ass informal reception. A whole bunch of people just walked and said screw it.

I hate to say this but I may be coming down with Bronchitis case numero 3. I've got some mucus going on in the chest again...it's not too bad at all right now but I know it'll only get worse. Stupid people getting me sick again. I'm seriously tired of Bronchitis, it can kiss my ass. Because you know how much I enjoy coughing up a lung every few months...in this case not even a month ago wtf!?!

Today was kinda blah, I'm glad after tommorrow the week is half over. It just wasn't as fun, I don't know I was tired and my left hip hurt like hell. Then in gym playing wiffle ball I landed on my left ankle and it hurt for awhile but now it seems to be ok heh. Plus I didn't really have anything to say to anyone. It's rainy and cold again...I can't go back to this. Sarah needs a blood test to check for possible anemia or an immune system problem...and a head check. Only thing is I'm only willing to have the blood checked and that scares the shit out of me....because I'm not even going to talk about the other option that a blood test could show...let's just say it would probably involve withdrawing from school and no college. But obviously I think too much. Or lets just hope it's anemia or mono...I can deal with that shit ha. Although I have no clue as to how I would've gotten mono...heh. No action over here kidz. All I know is that my immune system sucks especially this past school year, I have never gotten this sick in one school year before.

Bring me chicken soup....some dvds and we'll chill in my newly clean room. I have exactly two ways to get this illness out of the way..I don't want to be coughing up a lung on my birthday. Because then I wouldn't even go. Coughing like that makes my stomach all ucky, and I live off of cheerios and water ha. I need to go to this stupid Pre-Calc. Only nine weeks...hang in there.

You Would Take the Breath From My Throat...

So I just made my blog reading rounds and I checked Mark Hoppus' blog, he was in Warsaw/Goshen, Indiana area at the begining of this month?! whattt?!? Soooo close to me. Craziness. In fact he might've even flown in to the Fort....if not Chi-town. It really is a small world.

I haven't had any "good" blogs lately. They've all been blah. Atleast they have been to me. I guess I've just been busy with school stuff and new seasons of shows. Top Chef and Gene Simmons Family Jewels...yeah. I got my housing contract for BSU yesterday in the mail, and that reception thing at the Embassy is tommorrow night if we even go it's up in the air right now.

I kind of feel like I'm back-pedaling. I've come a long way since wow January ha, and now it all may be falling apart again. I don't want to go back to that, I can't. Atleast now...I'm not trapped, I can go out...and not have to trudge through snow...I have some freedom...to just be out in the open and get out of my room. I need more energy, there needs to be more hours in the day, I need reassurance, I need to see someone...I need to stop expecting the worst. But maybe...I'm just selfish and those are all wants. I know I shouldn't run, but sometimes it just feels like the best thing to do.

My Attendance is Bad but my Intentions are Good.

Albums I have gotten my hands on but have yet to listen to:
Texas by PlayRadioPlay!
As Cruel As School Children The Match-Up
The A-B Theory: Illusions EP

Yeahhhh I got towels and sheets today... and more bruises from soccer today in class.

I thinking I'm getting yet another cold....I hate being sick. I guess that's what I get for busted out the shorts not once....but twice this week. Oh yeah...haha hey today it was 57! But it supposed to snow tommorrow just flurries and possible significant snow sometime next week....boo. I'm tired...and I don't have anything else to say.

I want to ride my bicycle...

As Erin's dad drove us home today...her car is in the shop yet again, we past the gas station. $3.45. Freakin' nuts. It was $3.28 this morning. I'm glad I don't have a car. Seriously. This is ridiculous. Especially here...I went down to Indy this past summer and into Ohio and gas was cheaper both places. My reasoning? Everybody in this damn city drives. Our bus system sucks...if we would improve that, put in some more rapid transit in the form of light rail that'd be great. But it'll never happen. We had that once here....way back in the day, we had trolleys and such but they tore all of it out and paved over it. DUMB x100.

Seriously once the weather warms up I'm using my bike even more so than last summer. A) obviously less gas consumption. B) Good workout C) More Fun D) I just got that new bike last year might as well put some mega miles on it. Probably won't be riding downtown by my lonesome on the river greenway but on the weekends with the rents possibly. Me and the bro's trips will probably be limited to Georgetown, but that's cool because there's a lot of stuff up there...library, scotts, dollar movies, various places to eat ect. I'll strap on my little backpack I got for transporting gym shiz and load it up with water bottles, chewy bars, and sunscreen and we're good to go for awhile.

Spring Break Outing may not go down, and frankly I don't blame it for not going down. Driving an hour for some tasty burgers may not be worth the gas. Yeah, gas is supposed to go up to atleast $4 by June. It's probably a good thing we're not going to Cedar Point that's practically double what we payed last year. In the past 7 years gas has gone from a dollar something to this...what the hell?!? Whatever, the only places I really need to go are school and graduation haha, and then orentation this summer and then moving in...I may be down there until Thanksgiving but oh well right? heh. It'd be cheaper to mail me a Walmart giftcard to buy some food than driving down. Or just buy me a case of Ramen and we're good right?!? haha. They're still 13 cents a package.

On a lighter note, I'm super stoked to play soccer again in P.E. Even though my left ankle is a bit swollen and sore I really don't care. I just hope I don't get chewed out too bad in first period by Danely for our group not doing our project....either that or I'm hoping somebody BS's the whole thing and saves our asses.

Sarah...attempting to change the world one blog, one bike ride, one action at a time...haha I'm lame.

I Almost Forgot!



After all he did send me stickers and such! Yay for March Birthdays!

Go Me.

Surely cleaning has to be considered some kind of work out haha, I'm sore and tired and kinda sweaty lol. I cleaned my room today. Seriously this is the cleanest it's been since..err oh I know since Jenny came over to my house one day after school and my mom cleaned it for me haha. But this time I did it myself and yes it could still use work but I can walk..I have carpet...and my big trash can outside is full and trash pick up isn't until Wednesday So this is very liveable for now. Plus I don't know when I'll be motivated enough again to clean like this. I didn't find any stubstansial cash but I did find a nice fleece in my closet haha, now the weather will probably warm up and I'll have to wait till next fall to wear it but that really wouldn't be such a bad thing.

I also hung up some pictures/posters as I found them..haha. So my walls are slightly more covered than before. My room still has the well lived in look but hey...atleast it doesn't have the hit by a hurricane in need of a fema trailer look anymore. I'm still missing my NFG This Disaster Live in London DVD which seems to have dropped off the face of the earth. Which pisses me off. Also my Brand New, Your Favorite Weapon CD is still missing. Gah. They've both got to be around here somewhere.

Going off on a completely different tangent. I really hope we play soccer again tommorrow in lifetime sports. I had a blast Friday, plus Ms. J put me on a team with Kyle, Mickey, Richard, Corbin, and Evan(Jerry)....we're pretty awesome. Considering three of us have played soccer previously. I was sore the next day but man....so much fun. I got into it too...haha they were surprised at how agressive I was compared to when we play basketball or whatever.

This week should be awesome too. Or atleast I'm going to make sure it's awesome anyways. Even though we have finals Thursday and Friday. But oh well, that means 9 weeks to go!!! This time of year usually drags but thankfully not this year. Super stoked about lots of stuff right now...even though some stuff with certain people are not good....or atleast not as good as they were. Anyways....I'm going to go rest....because I worked my ass off since I woke up this morning.

Today....



The Bro's birthday....haha. And album art for new NFG/ISHC. Pretty Excited.

It's Always Winter, But Never Christmas.

I'm not going to talk about school or finding a job aside from the fact that we didn't have school today due to 7 inches of snow and more is on the way tonight. Winter sucks. It's hard to imagine it hopefully be 70 degrees within the next 10ish weeks.

Can I just say how much I missed lunch at school today? The people anyways? Seriously even though yesterday the guys were talking about masturbation and how often they did it lol, and how their Dad's sorta gave em' the sex talk. Then they started mention at what age they began doing this and they go 12ish and I'm going greaattt my brother turns 12 on Saturday and they just laugh. I think my brother is kind of behind in that department though. So we'll see. Not that I want to see. And luckily I'll be gone through most of his ackward teen years. He'll be what 16 when I graduate college? yeah.

We also sat with this new girl, not new just new to our table, Paige and she mentioned that we were all nice because we talked to her and included her. I don't know we're all just that way...that's what I like about our lunch table. She of course asks if I'm a Senior and Kyle goes yeah Sarah she's just a small senior lol. I guess I'd rather be known as a small senior than the big one.

Yeah, I hope life stays this way. Me being happy about pretty much everything. Right now nothing is bringing me down. I like it this way. I'm glad I got past those rough times....things are normalizing again. I don't have to be afraid. I don't have to keep my guard up. I can learn to trust and love again. Sure college is going to take adaptation but as long as I keep feeling like this I know I can make the transistion without stressing about it too much. Seriously Sarah loves life right now and people can tell because everyone just seems more fun and are willing to hangout with you and talk to you if you're sending them good vibes I think. Now all I need to be completely content is for lastfm to start working again. gr. Lots of cached tracks.

So I Guess This is Growing Up.

I'm getting serious about this whole getting a job thing. I'm getting all my info together tonight so I can start applying places hopefully weather permitting tommorrow. I'm going to try again for the summer library posistions which if I get the teen reader position that would be great because you only work 4 hours a day Monday through Friday so I could still do weddings all summer. But I'm also planning on applying at Scotts, Ritters, Subway, Wendy's, Hardees, Fish of Stroh...and possibly Bandidos but I don't know how I'd do at a busy resteraunt, especially if I was a waitress. I'm a bit clumsly haha. Oh and Papa Johns, Ace Hardware, Dicky's....or maybe even that gym by the bar lol. I'm not even going to bother applying at the tanning salons. I figure I'm not a very good person to be working there since I'm so pale....oh and I forgot about the coffee places, I'll apply there too...one of them has to atleast give me an interview right? Ah... this part of growing up sucks.

Can't I just go back to the days where 10 bucks was a lot of money, and a huge deal to have? But I have to get these aps in before all the college kids come back home over Spring Break. The only thing is that I'll be under 18 for what 3 more weeks so I have to go through the hassle of gettinga work permit if I get hired before then...and one of the things there is attendance. I know I've only missed 7 days but I got that letter sent home....is that considered an attendance problem? I hope not because I'll be pissed if that's the case. Plus I realized today we only have 10 weeks left of school. Exciting! Time has seriously just flown by this year. Oh and I guess "birthday events" now depend on wether or not I have a job by then and have to work. I'm hoping for the best and saying I will have one by then..but we'll see. We have all Spring Break week so I'm sure we can find a time regardless to go...again weather permitting. This snow shit is getting really old.

Sarah In a Dress....