Gotta Love Queen

Yeah, I'm jammin' to Bicycle Race by Queen entirely too loud but I don't care. New layout! I like my new banner better even though the blacks don't match....shh. Stupid "blogger black" grr. haha.

Oooh I just checked edline and I got an A on my Math quiz I took yesterday! Yes! Too bad today's math stuff is kicking my ass, I'm going to go see him tommorrow morning for helpppness. I'm sure it's some stupid thing I'm doing. I understand how to do it....but there's a select few problems on the homework that are making my head spin yo.

Oh and NFG put out a bullentin on Myspaceness with a behind the scenes video of Kiss Me....sooo funny. 15 minutes of pure enjoyment that really gets me hyped for next Tuesday.

For the record I have no opinion of the Brittney Spears VMA performance. I didn't watch the VMA's saw the clip online though. I just think it was funny haha but other than that...I'm opionless on this topic.

So many choices and possibilities.

So it's Senior year and I'm still toying around with what I want to do with my life after high school. My idea of college has always been moving away from home and living in a dorm. Now I'm not sure I want that. I'm not really sure what I want to do either.

My first thought was video production/editing ect...at Ball State or Valpo. But I don't know the more I get into it with people the less I want to pursue that. It doesn't make me happy, it stresses me out. One person yells at me to do one thing and another totally contradicts the other person. I trust the person who actually works in Broadcasting though as opposed to the guy who is soccer coach/mail man or whatever he is now haha. So I'm thinking about changing my goals. To something more fufilling.

I've been thinking about Culinary school as one of my other options. I could go locally, at Ivy Tech. They have an excellent program. And if I do that and want to get even more advanced training I could go to Chicago or somewhere. Cooking is fun for me. It's something I've begun to enjoy a lot. I like putting together meals and experimenting. I like the whole presentation with the colors and everything. We'll see, it may be a fallback option. If nothing else it's definately a course I would like to take later in life after I've already gotten an established career and have the time to.

Lately I've been thinking becoming a nurse wouldn't be so bad. There's a huge need in the medical field. And I know that's a job that I could count on a nice salary to payback my student loans which I know I'll have to take out. Plus the whole wearing scrubs thing instead of having to wear like a suit to work would be awesome. But then I wish I would've taken like anatomy in high school. But I suppose I can take those courses in college at a higher level. Plus I like helping people. I'm thinking maybe and ER nurse, something that would keep me on my toes. I realize I'd have 12+ shifts but I think I could deal with that.

This one totally suprises me but I've also been thinking about teaching. Maybe English or Family Consumer Sciences, or even computer stuff. I don't know, the only disadvantage I see to this job is going 3 months without pay, low salary especially starting out so paying student loans wouldn't be very easy. But I don't know....we'll see.


I guess my last thing I've been considering is marketing, I like trying to sell things and coming up with advertising solgans and such for products. I find it fun, but we all know that business world can be kind of cut throat and "man's world" heh. Plus I'd have to dress up for work haha. I'm all about casualness.

I don't know, I guess I'll have to decide so I can start applying to schools...really soon. Plus pick up scholarship information. Gah. Growing up sucks. But hey atleast all of my career options are pretty practical. It's not like I'm sayihng I want to start my own software company and be the next Bill Gates or something and I'm not saying I want to travel the country in a tour bus and party every night.

Ah well I got to get some lunch because I have to leave soon to go run cameras and lights again.

Mistquitoes Will Be the Death of Me.

I hate them! There are swarms all over. We have bunches just in the house, not to mention stepping outside is ls like swimming in them. I itch all over, I've got bites pretty much everywhere. So I have these lovely red lumps. I might as well have chicken pox or something with as many as I have. The city isn't spraying for them this year saying it costs too much money. I'll be sure to thank them when I end up with West Nile....which several pools have tested positive for. We can affored a new baseball stadium we don't even need....but we can't keep people from being eaten alive by misquitoes? Good God people.

I'm tired of being itchy all the time!

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This makes me extremely happy.

The Man of Metropolis Steals My Heart

Do you ever wish you could some how have all your memories burnt onto like a DVD. That way you could back to your favorite ones and replay them. Like you know all those moments that you never want to forget and could relive over and over and be ok with that? I wish I could.....just so I could hear his voice, be near him. Not argue over stupid things in IMs to make things ackward. Thinking his name...makes me want to smile. It gives me this warm mushy fuzzy feeling inside. It makes crave a hug....mostly from him.

Everytime you hear the L word...(love...I'm not really into saying it unless I truely mean it.) You think of him, and his smile. You think of him too much...and it makes you want to cry because you pretty much have come to the conclusion that you're in Love with a boy who will never love you back the same way.

You once had something that nobody could touch.....people saw it between you. You want that....so bad. You want that back. You miss that so much.... it's gone now....you don't know how you lost it but desperation drives you. You hold onto the feelings, and the possibilities.

My friend is gone, he ran away....
I can tell you, I Love him each day.....

It's Monday....

I'm thankfully not at school and I want Denny's! I keep seeing those commercials with the pancakes, eggs, hashbrowns and orange juice...it all looks soooo good. We don't even have a Denny's anymore....we used to have 2. One is now a car dealership and the other is an autoparts store haha.

But my mom is making Mashed Potatoes later so that makes me happy.

Sincerly Me,

Ohhh how I love popping in Cds I haven't listened to in what seems like forever again and then just jamming to them. This band will never ever ever get old. I'll always proudly support them. If you don't know who I'm talking about slap yourself upside the head now.

On a side note...I miss him and just want to talk to him in person. You know....hear his voice.

No school tommorrow. That makes me happy along with this CD. Take the good things while you have them.

You are my Sweetest Downfall....

I feel like....sleeping. For a long time. Plus I think I'm gettig a cold, I have the start of a sore throat and a stuffy nose. Strep Throat is going around at school. Oh jou.

I'm still lockerless, maybe I'll finally get a locker assignment this Friday during homeroom. We'll seee....as far I as I know we're just voting for homecoming king/queen. I don't even know when homecoming is. Hopefully it's not next week I'll feel robbed of a full homecoming because it's only 4 days instead of 5. Blah.

I'm a loser, I don't have a partner for my government project. Like we're supposed to. It's just easier for me to do projects on my own, that way I don't have to rely on anyway else and worry about them screwing it up.

Oh and I just got my hair cut like a few weeks ago right? It's already noticably grown haha. My hair is crazy like that. It grows supppperrr fast.

I really don't have much else to say...besides school isn't as fun as it used to be, even though we did get to watch Star Wars in English the past 2 days. Senior year so far = blah.

Family of Me.

So, I'm still lockerless, I've abandoned the book bag at home just to avoid getting sent to the office. If I don't ever get a locker I'm screwed especially come winter time.

Anyways, I think I'm kind of losing everyone. I don't seem to have anything in common with anyone anymore. I truely am becoming that hermit type person who just keeps to their self. And that in it's self is scary. One advantage to hermitnisim (ha I've come up with a name for it...scary) is that after one week of school I have straight A+'s, I've had homework assignments and quizzes so don't say I don't have any grades yet.

I thought about going to the Football game tonight. Decided not too, mostly because I realized I'd have no one to go with. Going to something like that alone is just weird and depressing. Plus it got rained out anyways. So oh well right?

The only date I have this weekend is a date with Math and English. Oh the excitement. I had more of a social life in middle school. Pathetic I know.

I Knew It!

So today was my first day of Senior year....it's supposed to be all grins and giggles right? Well...you obviously don't know me and the karma that follows me around.

First of all, the bus was wayyy late and the fire alarm thingy kept going off and it looked like I was making it do that because I was sitting in one of the seats with the emergency exit windows so I had to keep pressing down on the lever to make it stop buzzing. Gah. Luckily I avoided the rain while waiting for the bus so that's good.

I go to homeroom, and we have to change classrooms cause of Todor..blah. We get our lock assignments....good location....crappy ass locker, if you can even call it that. You know how most lockers have like a bottom to them, and a hook or whatever? Mine...doesn't. All I have is this door that opens up to dirty floor....no hooks and the handle for the top part is broken off so I can't even get that open. Gah. But a lot of people were given the wrong combos for their lockers....so the school had to call downtown and their sorting out the issue...maybe I'll get lucky and get a new locker all together?! *fingers crossed!*

1st Period Crowley's class aka Gov/Econ....not so bad except for I sit by some really annoying people. Damn alphabetical order! Atleast Kelly is in there....so maybe she'll help keep me sane and we can keep our book in the classroom.

2nd Period Advanced Foods, this class should be fun, I actually know some people in there and my kitchen group is pretty cool. Plus we get to pick our own recipes and make them...score. I have no complaints about this class.

3rd Period, Senior English. Gah. The teacher seems nice enough, but I have a feeling there is going to be a lot of homework involved unlike the previous two english teacher's I've had at Snider. We already have vocab words we have to learn for Wednesday and we have to read like 2o pages of stuff and have a quiz over it tommorrow. Plus we already did a journal thingy today which we had to turn in for points. Oh man....why me?

I have B lunch for the first time in my life. Which is ok...becuase Erin, Kieara, Emily, Clara, Amy, and a bunch of other people have it to. But lunch is chaos...we got a new computer system and it's all touch screen and yeah. But lunch has gone from a half hour to 40 minutes. I just have to haul ass to get down there so I won't have to wait in line forever.

4th period Pre Calc....teacher is nice....and well your typical quirky math teacher. All of my math teachers have been pretty quirky besides Mrs. Wells and I can't think of her name right now but I had her for geometry.....well I guess all the quirky ones were guys haha. Anyways, we're doing this worksheet so he can see how much we know...blah blah. So yeah, it should be ok. We're going to spend the first 18 weeks pretty much reviewing before we even get into pre-calc.

I made it out to the parking lot fairly fast and it was pouring out. We get out to Erin's car to find out that she had locked her keys in the car. So we run back to the school and I'm pretty soaked along with notebooks/handouts/and my lit book. Gah. But we got to talk to Tristan a bit so that was fun.

I came home and blow dried my papers, notbook, and text book....they're all kinda wavy....uh I hope I don't get charged for a damaged book and hope that it'll kinda unwave a bit. I also blow dried my shoes....and guess what!? It's supposed to rain every day this week but Wednesday. I think I'm going to get a rain poncho lmao.

Well I hope the rest of my year goes better than this. Today was just craziness. My head hurts gah.....I need to go read about Anglo Saxons or whatever. So I'm out kidz.