At School in English.

I'm bored, I still have till 1:05 in this class boo. Everything on these computers are blocked. I want to check my facebook messages, because I've gotten email saying I've got some but facebook and myspace are both blocked gah.So are other game sites and the-n. Atleast APnet hasn't been blocked yet. So....bored.

Next period I heard we're getting like 50+ problems in math...fun.

Atleast after school we're going to Best Buy to pick up some CDs.

That's only what 2 hours from nowish till we get out of school. I really don't have much else to say for myself, I'm in my non-thinking school state of mind right now. All of today has been pretty much terribly boring.

*Insert Cryptic Song Lyric Title Here*

So, I made more money than intended this week...but that's more than ok with me. The worst part of my weekend is going to be writing a rough draft essay for English. Blah. How many different essays can you write comparing Beowulf's heroic qualities to someone elses'? Gah. So repitive.

Oh well my reward for turning my essay in on Tuesday will be going to Best Buy to pick up FTSTYSII. It's only going to cost me like 3 bucks yes...it's on sale for 10 to start with and I have like 7 bucks in giftcards. Oh and speaking of NFG, Chad was chatting on APNet Friday and he mentioned there being a new full length NFG album by the Summer of 08', a B-Sides Album, and that Geffen is going to release a Greatest Hits album that they're not too crazy about happening. So yeah, I'm pretty pumped.

I should probably go write that stupid essay so I can just chill tonight and not have to worry about homework. Oh man...Istep is this week too. Gah that means we're doing like NOTHING this week. Why they just don't let the upperclassmen who have passed it stay home and just come in half days is beyond me. Concordia and several other schools do it that way. Ah oh well.

Thinking Outrageously, I Write in Cursive...

I have another Wedding Saturday so I can make some more money. Yay. I'll probably be spending the whole 25 I make though between buying the new NFG CD next Tuesday, yes the first CD I've bought since well....Coming Home came out, and going to Bandidos the weekend after for Keiara's 18th birthday party. Which should be fun at the very least I'll get some good Mexican food.

It was cold out today, ok so not really it was like upper 50's and low 60's but I was weaing a longsleeve shirt that was nice and toasty warm because the A/C at school is still on. But I didn't get swarmed with misquitoes this morning so that's amazing.

I need to write, before I get an essay assigned to me for English next week, it could possibly be the dreaded Senior term paper, which I heard has to be like 10+ pages long. Well...I am in the academic class though where half the kids fail so we'll see if it's that long. Haha. Not me...I have an A+...I think my teacher is amazed about that one. I'm wishing now I took AP Lang but oh well. Too late now, interims are next week so that means I'm what 1/4th of the way done with Sr. English! Yes! And I'm Half way done with Government! Thank God. Anyways it's hard to get myself to work on the story, I used to put off homework to work on it. Probably because it's come to the point where the main character needs to die and I can't bring myself to kill him off. Grr...frustrating.

Gotta Love Queen

Yeah, I'm jammin' to Bicycle Race by Queen entirely too loud but I don't care. New layout! I like my new banner better even though the blacks don't match....shh. Stupid "blogger black" grr. haha.

Oooh I just checked edline and I got an A on my Math quiz I took yesterday! Yes! Too bad today's math stuff is kicking my ass, I'm going to go see him tommorrow morning for helpppness. I'm sure it's some stupid thing I'm doing. I understand how to do it....but there's a select few problems on the homework that are making my head spin yo.

Oh and NFG put out a bullentin on Myspaceness with a behind the scenes video of Kiss Me....sooo funny. 15 minutes of pure enjoyment that really gets me hyped for next Tuesday.

For the record I have no opinion of the Brittney Spears VMA performance. I didn't watch the VMA's saw the clip online though. I just think it was funny haha but other than that...I'm opionless on this topic.

So many choices and possibilities.

So it's Senior year and I'm still toying around with what I want to do with my life after high school. My idea of college has always been moving away from home and living in a dorm. Now I'm not sure I want that. I'm not really sure what I want to do either.

My first thought was video production/editing ect...at Ball State or Valpo. But I don't know the more I get into it with people the less I want to pursue that. It doesn't make me happy, it stresses me out. One person yells at me to do one thing and another totally contradicts the other person. I trust the person who actually works in Broadcasting though as opposed to the guy who is soccer coach/mail man or whatever he is now haha. So I'm thinking about changing my goals. To something more fufilling.

I've been thinking about Culinary school as one of my other options. I could go locally, at Ivy Tech. They have an excellent program. And if I do that and want to get even more advanced training I could go to Chicago or somewhere. Cooking is fun for me. It's something I've begun to enjoy a lot. I like putting together meals and experimenting. I like the whole presentation with the colors and everything. We'll see, it may be a fallback option. If nothing else it's definately a course I would like to take later in life after I've already gotten an established career and have the time to.

Lately I've been thinking becoming a nurse wouldn't be so bad. There's a huge need in the medical field. And I know that's a job that I could count on a nice salary to payback my student loans which I know I'll have to take out. Plus the whole wearing scrubs thing instead of having to wear like a suit to work would be awesome. But then I wish I would've taken like anatomy in high school. But I suppose I can take those courses in college at a higher level. Plus I like helping people. I'm thinking maybe and ER nurse, something that would keep me on my toes. I realize I'd have 12+ shifts but I think I could deal with that.

This one totally suprises me but I've also been thinking about teaching. Maybe English or Family Consumer Sciences, or even computer stuff. I don't know, the only disadvantage I see to this job is going 3 months without pay, low salary especially starting out so paying student loans wouldn't be very easy. But I don't know....we'll see.


I guess my last thing I've been considering is marketing, I like trying to sell things and coming up with advertising solgans and such for products. I find it fun, but we all know that business world can be kind of cut throat and "man's world" heh. Plus I'd have to dress up for work haha. I'm all about casualness.

I don't know, I guess I'll have to decide so I can start applying to schools...really soon. Plus pick up scholarship information. Gah. Growing up sucks. But hey atleast all of my career options are pretty practical. It's not like I'm sayihng I want to start my own software company and be the next Bill Gates or something and I'm not saying I want to travel the country in a tour bus and party every night.

Ah well I got to get some lunch because I have to leave soon to go run cameras and lights again.

Mistquitoes Will Be the Death of Me.

I hate them! There are swarms all over. We have bunches just in the house, not to mention stepping outside is ls like swimming in them. I itch all over, I've got bites pretty much everywhere. So I have these lovely red lumps. I might as well have chicken pox or something with as many as I have. The city isn't spraying for them this year saying it costs too much money. I'll be sure to thank them when I end up with West Nile....which several pools have tested positive for. We can affored a new baseball stadium we don't even need....but we can't keep people from being eaten alive by misquitoes? Good God people.

I'm tired of being itchy all the time!

Kiss Me


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This makes me extremely happy.

The Man of Metropolis Steals My Heart

Do you ever wish you could some how have all your memories burnt onto like a DVD. That way you could back to your favorite ones and replay them. Like you know all those moments that you never want to forget and could relive over and over and be ok with that? I wish I could.....just so I could hear his voice, be near him. Not argue over stupid things in IMs to make things ackward. Thinking his name...makes me want to smile. It gives me this warm mushy fuzzy feeling inside. It makes crave a hug....mostly from him.

Everytime you hear the L word...(love...I'm not really into saying it unless I truely mean it.) You think of him, and his smile. You think of him too much...and it makes you want to cry because you pretty much have come to the conclusion that you're in Love with a boy who will never love you back the same way.

You once had something that nobody could touch.....people saw it between you. You want that....so bad. You want that back. You miss that so much.... it's gone now....you don't know how you lost it but desperation drives you. You hold onto the feelings, and the possibilities.

My friend is gone, he ran away....
I can tell you, I Love him each day.....

It's Monday....

I'm thankfully not at school and I want Denny's! I keep seeing those commercials with the pancakes, eggs, hashbrowns and orange juice...it all looks soooo good. We don't even have a Denny's anymore....we used to have 2. One is now a car dealership and the other is an autoparts store haha.

But my mom is making Mashed Potatoes later so that makes me happy.

Sincerly Me,

Ohhh how I love popping in Cds I haven't listened to in what seems like forever again and then just jamming to them. This band will never ever ever get old. I'll always proudly support them. If you don't know who I'm talking about slap yourself upside the head now.

On a side note...I miss him and just want to talk to him in person. You know....hear his voice.

No school tommorrow. That makes me happy along with this CD. Take the good things while you have them.