Something Left to Give...

So as I'm sitting here waiting for my brownies to cool I've just been listening to music and thinking about how this past week at work we've started doing book lists again and I happened to get the one that had to do with children and grieving. This threw me back to the story and really made me want to go back and re-read it yet again. I have to believe that it's some of my best work fiction wise. (I've written way better non fiction shiz for classes but it's not the same kind of animal.)

I guess that just goes to show that I'm still attached to those characters a little bit. Not as much as I used to be because I can't seem to continue on with it, but I still like to go back and remember. Just like to go back and re-read old blog entries to remember or try to bury things further in the past depending on the situation or time. I think re-reading blog entries especially is just one more way to know that things were real that they really did happen. I really did feel those things.

I've also noticed that my musical tastes have changed based on emotions/things that are going on in my life. Some songs that used to be on repeat are frankly depressing to me now. Or at least when I listen to them it in a way takes me back to what I was feeling when I played the shit out of them. Late nights with my good ole' Dell jukebox listening to music to block out everything else. I'm not who I used to be...I find myself no longer expecting the worse as often but thinking about the great things that the future may hold for me. I still hurt and ache but I try not to let myself have the time to sit around and dwell on that. My biggest challenge at the moment in my life is just finding enough hours in the day to do everything I want to do. Like re-reading things haha or watching dvds or listening to music or even reading other books.

But I'm also tired especially at the moment, so I am going to go check to see if my brownies are cool enough for foil and then get some sleep so I'm ready for what tomorrow has in store.

Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love

Mostly because of the Imogen Heap part...I remember when I first heard that song...you know back in the good ole' days when the OC was on Fox and I was doing spelling homework oh yeah haha. By the way had to post this version of the video because it's BSU made and Pods is in it. So that just ups the awesomeness of this song a little bit. Yep.

Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure

Ok for the record, I had never seen this video before just a few minutes ago and I think it sucks. But it's a catchy as hell song so again hate on me all you want, but it's not like you'll see me at a Kesha show anytime soon. Obviously she's just a good looking girl and her producers know how to work that auto tune but hey it sells and yes it's catchy. Hence being a guilty pleasure.

Day 12 – A song from a band you hate

I'll probably catch crap for this but I never got into the boy band thing and I was tempted to skip this day but didn't want to cheat dammit. So if you want to just skip this entry and wait for day 13, no promises on when that'll be but I'm hoping tomorrow we shall see.

Day 11 – A song from your favorite band

Lets go with a great Live Performance of "On My Mind" by NFG. Were you really expecting a song from a different band? haha.

Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep

This is not meant to be taken as oh Death Cab bores me so much they put me to sleep. It should be taken as I find it soothing and it relaxes me and helps me sleep. I remember late late nights listening to Death Cab just to get my mind off of things. Plus lyrically Death Cab IMO = very solid.

Day 09 – A song that you can dance to

I'm not a dancer...haha.

Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to

Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event

When I first heard this song I didn't take the literal meaning of it. Boy & Girl love drama. When this song first came out it was the Summer of 06' and I remember I had just put it on my mp3 player before that night....and I just remember being so tired and having the worst stomach at my Grandpa's the next day and just laying on the floor upstairs and listening to this song. It's not my fault...but yet it still has a deep scar in me and it's painful to remember. Luckily Coming Home came out a couple of months later and for some reason it was the perfect NFG album for me at that time. So NFG, I thank you.